Rooh's pov:It's been two days since Mikhail is unconscious. I thought he will wake up after some time but he didn't so I panicked and call Mr. Haward again. He told me that he himself don't want to be out of there, he want to stay in his unconsciousness to hide from them reality and until he willingly dint want to be conscious then medications also can't help him. I know it's too tough for Mikhail but he have to do it. He can't stay like this for ever. He have to face the reality and fight the demons inside and out. I'm waiting for him to wake up and no way I'm letting him slide without telling me what's his trauma. I can't give him time and space because it will take more time for him to tell me and it will delay his recovery. Whenever he wants gain his consciousness he have to tell me his past so we both can work on it and it will be discarded from his mind as soon as possible. I know I don't know the intensity of his childhood trauma because I never had one, I got the best paren
Rooh's pov:"I know what you are trying to do but it won't work. The moment I will let my truth you will be disgusted. The decision you took to be with me will be changed." he said and sighed. "It won't if you think I will judge you from the things which you didn't even responsible for then you are wrong." I said and he snapped his eyes at me. "I want you to open up so we can work together on this. No matter what it is, it can't be that massive that I will change my decision." I said because somehow I was sure that it wouldn't he that massive. "So you want me to open up to you, who are you psychologist?" he asked mockingly. "I'm not but that doesn't mean I can't hear you and your trauma. Sometimes emotions are more powerful then medical to understand person's perspective." I told him. "I don't know what are you saying?" he said and averted his gaze away. "Let it be just try to open up. Let out all your trauma you bear till now." I said and scooted closer to him. "Scream out all
Mikhail's pov:I gazed in Rooh's brown eyes and saw concern in them for me. I felt giddy from inside that whatever happened till now, she is still concerned for me. Her thus selflessness is what makes her more appealing. I know telling all that gore was not easy but when she is beside me I'm ready to tell all the things only to her. I don't want anyone to know that but her. I want to know will she pity me after knowing that or what she will do. I don't know how I agreed to tell her everything. Today my mind didn't fought with me to stop myself and I did according to my impulsive thoughts which were to tell her the truth. She was curiously waiting for me to say ahead something but I was just staring at her facial expressions. I'm liking the way she is concerned for me and comforting me now and then even if I don't need it. I'm not used to comfort and when she gave me I wanted to slump down in her lap like a child and complain everything what they monster did to me, like a child. Some
Mikhail's pov:Flashback continues... I went in front of her and she gazed at me with boring eyes but I was too innocent and naive to notice that. I shyly extended that rose towards her so she could take it but she raised her eyebrow towards me questionably."Ты будешь моей новой мамой и поиграешь со мной?" I asked her shyly and covered my eyes with my palm innocently. (Translation: Will you be my new mama and play with me?)She looked amused and laughed at me making me peek through my palm and saw her laughing. I turned confused and removed my palm from my eyes and looked at her curiously. She placed that tool from which she was setting her nails under my chin and raised my head higher. "Ты хочешь, чтобы я была твоей мамой?" she asked me tilting her head and I turned happy. I nodded vigorously in yes. (Translation: Do you want me to be your mama?)"Оу, малышка, иди сюда." she said and patted her lap.(Translation: Aww my baby come here.)I excitedly climbed up on her lap thinking
Mikhail's pov:FlashbackI was happily walking out of the foyer where maids used to live, I stole a bedtime story book from that same kids room. I saw him sleeping with his mother and she used to tell him story time before his sleep. I also wanted my new mama to tell me stories before I sleep.Despite of being pain in my whole body I was excited. I was back from the training and my whole body was in pain. With my small feet I climbed up the stairs and went inside her room. She was preparing her bed to sleep. "Новая мама, ты прочитаешь мне эту книгу?" I asked her timidly. (Translation: New mama will you read this book for me?)She angrily turned towards me and snatched the book away from my hands tearing it in many pieces harshly. I frowned looking at her not knowing why she was so angry at me. "Уйди из моей комнаты, этот сукин сын, всегда меня беспокоит." she said and pushed me away. (Translation: Get out of my room is son of a bitch, always comes to disturb me.)Due to her push I
Mikhail's pov:I started breathing heavily and my head spinning remembering those things. Rooh came near me and started rubbing my chest trying to sooth me. I tried to cop up with my breathing but it hurts, it hurts everywhere. I felt my eyes turning heavy and my whole body shaking.Rooh was panicking seeing me like that. I tried to control myself but wasn't able to. She hugged me tightly and I completely pulled her on my lap flushing her against my rigid body. She was still rubbing my chest sitting in my lap and suddenly I felt myself calming down. After sometimes of breathing in and out my breathing turned normal and I gazed in her concerned brown eyes. "We are not doing this anymore." she said with her tear filled eyes and I wiped them softly with my thumb."Let me do this today. Let me take a stand for myself today." I sad almost like pleading and she shook her head. She placed her head at my chest just above my heart and clutched my hands in hers. To be honest her sitting on my
Mikhail's pov:I walked out of my room leaving Rooh there alone. I know it was looking so rude but what could I do when I can't control myself around her. I don't want her to think me as a creep who just wants her body. Of course I want it but I want her too for the rest of my life. I came out of the mansion hurriedly and sat inside my car. I was feeling restless without her but didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable either. I was driving the car aimlessly without any destination. Now I know what I want from Rooh, I want her but not until when she realise that if she also wants me as much as I want her. I don't want her to stay with just because she pities me for my horrible past but I want her to be with me willingly. I want her to know what is her worth in my life and if I have any worth in her life also. I want to give her some time and space and I will be in front of her then she will take decision in hurry which I don't want at any cost so I decided that I will not go in fr
Mikhail's pov:Two weeks later:I was sitting in my office with my mind stressing out. The people who were underground a long time ago are still not cane in my men's hand on the other hand I was avoiding Rooh not because I wanted to give her space and time but not the reason was something else. My mind was going all wild without her, I wanted to go and just lay my head on her lap so that she could massage my head and make my stress go all away. The day I went to that club something suspicious happened. I don't have that much low tolerance of alcohol that I felt intoxicated that day. I was not able to walk properly and decided to leave that place but ended up blacking out in some random room. They next day when I woke up I felt a gut piercing pain in my head and saw that my clothes were all mishevaled. I even found some lipstick marks on my collar but as far as I knew I didn't do anything with anyone there. Then who's lipstick marks were that. My men are trying to find whoever was in