Lucas had only been out of town three days and I was missing him like crazy. He had called every night but it wasn’t the same as having him here. I hadn’t realized how attached I had become to him until he was gone. Jack had given me the week off and instead of being excited like I should have been, I found myself wishing I had it to distract me.
I was actually ready to go to my parents for Thanksgiving just to get away. My bags were already packed by the door ready to go for in the morning. As of last night, Lucas didn’t think he would be able to be home before Saturday so I was glad I had decided to spend the night with my parents. They at least would keep my mind off of things even if they did drive me crazy. I wondered if Cody would be there. Mom had made the comment when I talked to her Monday that he had started coming around again.
Laying down in my bed I looked down at my phone seeing it was close to 11. Lucas had usually called by now and I w
I didn’t want to go back to my apartment but I had nowhere else to go. I couldn’t face my parents right now and I sure as hell didn’t want to hear Cody’s mouth. I had turned my phone off tired of everyone calling me. I had my parents, Lucas, and even my stupid ass brother all blowing up my phone and I didn’t want to talk to a single one of them. I wanted to be alone, I wanted to yell and scream and remind myself that this was the exact reason I hadn’t wanted to be with him in the first place.Once at my apartment I parked and made my way quickly to the elevator. I knew there was no possible way that Lucas could be back in town yet but he had eyes and ears on me constantly. I didn't feel safe until I unlocked my apartment door and stepped in locking it behind me. Leaning against the door I let my tears flow again.I don't know what exactly made me notice the shadow of the man sitting at my bar. But the moment I did I let out a y
Time wouldn’t move fast enough, if I had anywhere else to go I would have left my apartment. I knew I could always go to my parents but I just couldn’t, I wasn’t ready. They would have questions, they would want answers and I couldn’t give them anything. And what about Cody? He would only remind me about how stupid I had been as if he was innocent in all of this.It was two before I heard the knock at my door. I didn’t bother getting up, I knew it was Lucas and I knew he could let himself in. I remained sitting on the couch staring out the windows at the city in front of me. Lucas was quiet as he walked in. I refused to look at him as he sat down in the chair that sat close to me. From my peripheral vision, I could see him put his head in his hands as he leaned down resting his elbows on his knees.“Taylor...” he sighed sitting up running his hand through his hair looking over at me. He looked up a the ceiling letting out a dee
It had been close to three months since I had seen or heard from Lucas. Christmas had come and gone and now February was almost over. My mom was worried about me after I had refused to come home for Christmas. As much as I knew it upset her I couldn’t talk about Lucas yet and I didn’t want to face Cody. He had tried to call me once but I didn’t answer sending him straight to voicemail. In some ways, I blamed him for my falling out with Lucas. After all, if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t have ever met Lucas.Jack had seemed to take me under his wing, he had made sure I ate lunch every day, he kept me busy, and most important of all he never asked me about Lucas even though I knew he must know. As much as I hated to admit it I laid awake most nights staring at my phone wishing Lucas would call, wishing he would make an effort, but it never happened. I had decided to stay in the apartment, mostly because I didn’t know what to do with it if I was
“Taylor look at me,” his tone demanded my obedience but even so I slowly lifted my gaze back to his. Once our eyes connected he arched his brow, “I asked you a question, Taylor. What do you want?”My eyes went back to the ground as I suddenly felt overheated. Realizing I had never taken my jacket off I shrugged out of it throwing it over one of my arms. Hearing Lucas let out an aggravated breath I looked up seeing he was still waiting on me to answer his question. I looked back down moving my weight from one foot to the other, “I just wanted to know why Lucas?”He snorted, “why? Why now Taylor?”I took a breath feeling as if my jacket suddenly weighed a ton. Laying it down on the back of the chair in front of me I pulled my purse off and sat it in the seat. Looking back up I saw Lucas watching me looking unamused at my stalling. I shrugged refusing to keep eye contact with him, “because I need to hear it from
Looking up at Lucas I shook my head, “I don’t think that’s such a good idea.” Lucas shrugged before taking the couple of steps to me. I stood still refusing to back down to him again.“Are you afraid of me Taylor?” Lucas asked as he looked down at me.I nodded in answer as I looked down. I was afraid that he was still lying to me. I was afraid that if I allowed myself this moment of weakness I’d never be able to walk away from him again. I was afraid I wouldn’t want to.Lucas sighed shaking his head as he leaned down grabbing my chin and pulled it up to meet his lips. Even knowing it was coming I wasn’t ready. As he stood back up straight I looked up at him. His eyes watched me carefully, “you didn’t miss me?”Shaking my head I shrugged, “of course I missed you but that’s beside the point. I don’t know if I can trust you, Lucas. How do I know you're not still lying t
The next morning I opened my eyes laying still waiting to wake up from this dream. Things were too perfect, the bed underneath me was like a cloud, the covers silky smooth, and the light streaming in through the window made the room glow. When nothing changed I rolled over seeing the other side of the bed was empty. Looking up at the ceiling I sighed wondering what I was supposed to do now. Nothing had been resolved and no questions had been answered. We had fucked that's it.Getting out of the bed I walked to the bathroom turning on the shower before taking care of my business. As I grabbed a towel I was surprised to find that my things I had left were still in the cabinet. Stepping into the shower I looked and saw that even my shampoo and conditioner were in the corner. I felt a little better knowing he hadn’t just thrown my things out. I had started to throw his things away at my house but they only made it into a box that I had shoved in my closet. Maybe he di
As I sat drinking my coffee the thought occurred to me that if Lucas had called off his hit on Cody once, he wouldn’t be lying when he said that he would do it again. If I could get Cody to stand down maybe I could get the two of them to come to some type of agreement. I didn’t know how Lucas would feel about me reaching out to Cody. Actually, I knew exactly how he would feel. But he had technically told me to stay away from him, he didn’t say anything about me talking to him.As I hit my brother's name on my phone I knew without a doubt that Lucas would be pissed if he knew what I was doing. I had to try though, maybe I could help fix this mess. As the phone began ringing I began to second guess my decision. Cody was hot headed and he was just as stubborn as Lucas. After two rings I was ready to hand up but I heard the click of him picking up and my stomach fell.“Are you in trouble?” Cody’s voice came through sharply, “or did you just want to tell me you were back fuck
Looking in the mirror I couldn’t help but think this was a bad idea. I hadn’t even been out of the house since Cody had threatened not only Lucas but myself as well. Now Lucas was insisting I join him at the club to make an appearance and let people know we were back together.We had argued before he had left earlier. I didn’t see how it was anyone’s business what we did. In fact, we had never officially been a couple so we’d never officially gotten back together. Lucas hadn’t been too happy when I pointed that out and suddenly had to leave.He had given in and given me my own room, not that I got to spend a lot of time in it. It was basically a huge closet. I should have known that having my own room wouldn’t do any good. I had wanted to ease back into being with him but Lucas wasn’t hearing it.After he had left David had shown up with a package. I already knew that inside would be a dress for tonight so I went a