When the interview was finally over, I begged Bellamy to take me home because he had mentioned something about going to the office and I just wanted to get out of these heels and dress. My body was screaming to be dressed in sweatpants and a long-ass shirt, with my boobs free from the bra and walk barefoot while snacking on something I found in his kitchen.
Surprisingly, he ended up going home as well and I wondered why, but I didn't ask him.
"Are you okay?" he asked softly and I turned to face him with a smile.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"
"You just literally told the world half of your life story."
"That was a long time ago," I said hoping he would already drop this conversation.
"And trauma can be a lifelong thing."
"And I'm still going to my psychology sessions if that's what you're asking," I forced a smile and he sighed shaking his head.
"I'm genuinely worried about you."
"I'm fine."
Silence fell u
I watched Bellamy as he slept peacefully as if he did not just annoy the crap out of me, like how in the world am I supposed to be okay with that?I looked over at the clock that was on his side of the bed and saw it was six in the morning, finally, I was worked up enough and I touched his shoulder softly shaking him."Wake up," I whispered and he turned a bit in his sleep mumbling a no. So I did the most normal thing you could
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Our FriendshipIt had been about a month of me spending time with Bellamy and it is safe to say that our newly formed relationship was going great? However, most of the time his girlfriend had to be there with us whenever I was around, something about not trusting me or him, to be honest, I don't know.We were all sitting by t
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Ezekiel was taking me out for something I've always wanted to do but never had the time to or just didn't want to go alone to. He was taking me to a shooting range!I had never been as excited in my life as I was today, I couldn't stop the little squeals that would find their way out my mouth every now and then. I also couldn't stop jumping on my seat when I saw all those '6km to...' signs, and Ezekiel would complain about it because I would grab onto his arm."Who would've thought you'd be this excited just for guns?" Eze asked as he opened the door for me and helped me out of his car."Anyone who know's how to woo a girl," I said whipping my hair back for him and sticking my tongue out."You can be childish at times you know?""And that's why you're single.""Says the one who's also single," he retaliated and I stopped in my tracks to look at him crossing my arms o
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