A decision was made

Today I made a decision. I decided to be selfish, egocentric. At least for once in my life. For once I chose to put myself before everything else. I didn't sleep all night, my thoughts gave me no rest again. I tossed and turned. I wanted to sleep, I really wanted. But I couldn't.

I thought over all the possibilities very carefully. Of course, my brain made me rethink if I should keep the baby. My brain, and the exhaustion probably, made me imagine how it would be if I keep the baby. Viktor's words made me think about what it would be. Could we be a happy family? What kind of a mother would I be? What kind of a father would he be? I guess we won't be able to know. At least the part where he becomes a dad. Or I won't be the lucky one to find out.

I made a decision for myself. I can't keep it. I can't give up on my dreams. I want to study in college, I want to attend crazy dorm parties, I want to make many friends. And it can't be done with a b