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Chapter Fifty Seven
The ride going back to the apartment seemed long even if it wasn't that far. Neither of us spoke, so I contented with looking outside of the window as I watch the droplets of rain race against each other on the surface. We let the silence engulf the both of us, but today, the tension was slowly fading away.
It was nice.
It felt nice when I thought that we might probably have a chance with being civilian with each other, if not friends.
Lyza confessed a while ago that she was the one who stayed with me when I was at the emergency room--apparently, it was because I saved her number on my phone as "roommate" and they asked her if she could accompany me back home since I looked really fragile. The sudden turn of events was... frightening. Yet I don't want to ever see Drey again.
It wasn't because I still liked him...
I was just angry... and confused. Because out of all places, why Cambridge? I was already trying to live a peaceful life without hi
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