Chapter 115

Jacob

Not only because she would tell me that everything was gonna be okay but also because she wouldn't sugarcoat shit - she would ask me to be a man and face the things that were being thrown in my life one after the another . Throw some random quotes like ' Its God's will ' and what not and I will listen to everything that she gotta say because she was the only  person  who could keep me grounded at this moment before I lose my fucking rationality . 

The thing was I needed her here , to be with me . 

To be just by my side . 

Because she was the only one who could trigger the right strings in my body . She was the only one who could light up my freaking world , while I was feeling like I was being swallowed in darkness . 

But the thing was she wasn't here . And despite all my efforts to turn down the churning of my heart , I couldn't go numb and there was not a single possible chance for me to turn it all off . I can't