137MILO’S POVA week had passed since I got back with Lindy and the lads and I flew back to England since we needed to get busy doing promotions for our movie, On The Road Again: Backstage Access. We did a few photo shoots too and some interviews for some magazines. There were tons of radio shows and TV guestings that we needed to do before the premier night on the 20th of November. We were all super excited for the release of the movie and cannot wait to let the fans see how the movie turned out. The movie was seriously studied and well planned by the lads and I with the whole crew who did the movie. They were very hands on and patient in handling this with us though we were five lads who’s always monkeying around on the set. As for Lindy, she has been preparing to start her college life in Yale in a few weeks. She was nervous about the whole college transition thing and pretty much very excited for everything to begin. She has been going around the new city with her mother and fa
138MILO'S POVWhen we finished with the tour, I was happy seeing her enjoying the place that means a lot to me. We quickly rushed to this show where the lads and I were invited to be in. I had all time I needed and even if this was a long day, I was so happy spending so much time with her like I have never been before. As soon as we got backstage where the lads were, I started getting ready for another interview. Clothes, hair and shoes. Done.I walked back to my lovely girlfriend who was enjoying a good talk with Rowan and Silas. Lucius and Jasper were still busy getting ready."Tired baby?" I asked her."No. Not at all." she smiles at me. “I should ask you that. You didn’t tell me you were going to have an interview. We could have canceled the tour.”I smile back, “It’s okay babe. What did you guys talk about?”"Lindy was just telling us her experience touring around London." Silas exclaimed."She sounded like she loved it and she enjoyed it that much." Rowan added."I did! Oh my
139MILO'S POVIt has been two months since the On The Road Again: Backstage Access World Premiere in UK and in America. We were all glad that the people accepted the movie with such overwhelming positive feedback. It was amazing how we were getting really wonderful critics.Lindy has been busy adjusting herself to college and how things are also going well for her. Our communication is stronger now than before despite the hectic schedule that we both have and the distance. I was pretty much doing a lot of promotions too especially for our upcoming tour in January 2016 which is called THE A.M TOUR shorter term for The After Math Tour.I have been making trips back and forth from London to New Haven Connecticut to visit Lindy as much as I can because I want to spend more time with her. Gwyneth visits with me too since she wanted to get to know Lindy more and she has been very supportive of my relationship with her. I have been planning to introduce Lindy to our mum and I will do that o
140"Oh my goodness. Hi Milo !" Lauren waved."I can't believe it! Hi Milo ! I'm a huge fan!" Fiona exclaimed."Oh my goodness! You're so handsome Milo !!" Lauren added while fanning herself.Lindy giggles, "They're huge fans of you and the lads."I smiled and exchanged handshake, "Thank you so much. It's nice to meet you. Will it be alright if I get to take my girlfriend with me?""Oh sure! Have fun Lindy!" Lauren and Fiona waves goodbye as they began to leave us.I scoop her closer to me and she smiles, "Now that I've got you all to myself, where do you wanna eat my beautiful?""Anywhere with you is fine." She answered me while flashing her beautiful smile.I reached for her hand and started walking towards my car. There were a few students who waved at me and I was being kind as I waved back. Lindy and I were holding hands until we reached the car and as soon as we settled in, I started the engine and began to drive away."What do you think about Paris?" I asked.She paused. "I thi
PREFACEHe is going to hurt me. He is going to hurt me.Those are the words that keeps repeating on the back of her head, like a chant.He is going to hurt me.He is going to hurt me.He might actually kill me.He can kill me and he will kill me.She knows that for a fact as those words kept ringing in her head because she knows that he is capable and she knows that he will. There is intense fear running all over her body that she cannot explain as she is getting more and more frustrated about what she is going to do. The feeling that she has never felt before is growing deep inside her and she does not even want to head out of the room that she is hiding.Fear.There is so much fear inside her. The kind of fear that is screaming and bursting out through her lungs, chest, stomach and her entire body.There is too much fear that she cannot even put into words. And she knows why he is acting like this but she needed help, ASAP.“He is going to hurt me.” A soft voice escapes her lips
1MILO“Five weeks.” She’s pregnant for a month and seven days.Lindy is pregnant.I exhaled deeply as I try to settle myself and my thoughts. The first thing I thought of when those words came out from her lips is that she was conceiving our baby is worrying about her future and not mine.Lindy’s future is far much brighter than mine and I don’t want to ruin it by getting her pregnant. My mind is speedily filled with worry and thoughts about her because I know she has so many dreams that she wants to achieve and that she will most definitely achieve. She wanted to be a lawyer and wish to defend those oppressed people who are less fortunate to fight for themselves. She wants to accomplish those dreams and I should be pushing her forward and not pulling her down or slowing her in reaching for all of her desires in life. She has so many dreams and I am ruining them. Crap, I ruined it.As selfless as it may sound, I honestly didn’t worry a single bit about myself and my career. I did
2MILO“You are?” She asks me, her eyes widened in shock.“What kind of question is that?” I chuckle humorlessly. “Of course! I am not that selfish to be mad about something that’s a gift.” I assured her as I kiss her fingertips while holding her hands tighter on mine but careful enough not to squeeze them. Her lips forms into the weakest smile that she could do and how it warms my heart to see it.“Let’s talk about this when we land Paris, okay?” I cooed as I wipe her tears.She nods and the entire flight, we were both silent.I wasn’t silent because I didn’t like what she told me but to be honest I don’t know if I am happy too. In so many ways, I don’t know if I am utterly happy because there are so many reasons not to. Deep inside me, I am troubled and still haunted of what happened in the past. In the back of my head and in my heart, I am sad that she is conceiving our baby because I couldn’t help myself not to think about the things that will change between us. Even though it
3MILOShe smiles at me, “I’m sorry.” She answers. “Is it making you feel weird?”I shake my head sideways, “Not really. Maybe a little bit.”Lindy half-smiles, “I’m just thinking about so many things that’s all.”“Why?” I questioned. “I mean, for starters confessing to you was too difficult.”“W-Why would that be difficult?” I ask her. “I am your boyfriend, Lindy.” I smile at her.“I know. I am sorry if that made you feel bad.”“Oh babe, it didn’t.” I smile at her. She smiles, “I felt relieved that I was finally able to tell you about it. I have kept that for days now and I just didn’t know how to tell you because I felt really burdened about it and your career and the entire band.”“Baby don’t feel burdened about it anymore.” I reassured her as I take her hand. “I am with you in this. I am even glad that you were able to tell me too.” I smiled at her. “I really thought you were going to tell me to have an abortion.”I was taken aback as my eyes are glued on her, “Abortion?”She n