118 Doubt And Hesitation

I wish, I was more prepared with life. With my life that I drawn for fifteen years. I was molded and grew up under the teaching of Costello and I was, I prepared enough for unexpected things that might happen. I wish, I prepare myself for the weight of the revenge I wanted ever since I was just child. The responsibilities and consequences that I must face.

Time flies fast. It was so fast that it made me lost track with the things I must do and my vision is starting blurry with those things that seems so clear to me before. Staring at the face of Luscio Costello in front of me made me realize how much I change. I heard what he said. I heard it clearly and even if he doesn't explain it to me, I already understand what is that for. But for the first time, I felt a sudden hesitation to do what he ask me to do.

I know my mission. I can recall every detail and what is the goal of it. But the first word that came into my mouth was 'no' when he ask to kill Sain Czar Ildefonso, the son of th