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"That is not something that you can decide, Herravie"

I press my lips together as I heard what Pollux said. I know what does it mean and he is right. I gaze down and fisted my hand.

"The council will decide if they give Czar Ildefonso's life in your hands once again" Apollo paused and took a deep breath. "If they won't, then just agree with them"

My forehead creased and turn my head to look at him. Our eyes meet and I know that it is evident in my face that I disagree to what he said. I've come this far, I defy my father, there will be no different if I defy the council. If that's what it takes to prove something to myself again, I don't care. I must prove to myself who really I am. I must remind myself what made my life like this, how I end up like this.

It's not a big deal anymore if I try to become hardheaded. If I don't listen to the council and they will get mad at me, well, what's new? They never like me to begin with. They always do something to make me look like a failur