KyleWhen I find him in the library, he's arguing with Eva bout something. Okay, maybe they aren't arguing, it’s more like she's pissed about something."No, take them. They were in my bag and I don't want them. " Jeremy looks at the handful of single-wrapped chocolates in her hand suspiciously."But those are your favorite." "I'll just throw them away, then. " Eva gets up, but Jeremy grabs her by the elbow and stops her. "Okay, okay. Fine, wow. I don't know what's up with you recently." "Nothing's up, I just don't want this stuff."I approach and they both pause and look at me. "Can I talk to you for a second?" I turn to Jeremy directly. He doesn't reply, so Eva squints her eyes and points a finger at me."If you're going to pick up a fight with him, be careful - you may think you're big, but you stand no chance against his black magic." Jeremy turns to her, surprised “Are you sure you're okay? "She does seem a bit off, although I can't point exactly how. It's like she slurs he
Eva I'm still finishing my homework when my mom calls from the kitchen. "Dinner will be ready soon and it's great. I know you'll love it, I made it especially for you".Judging by the clatter of spoons, utensils, everything literally- she's been drinking for a while now. My mother always spends hours in the kitchen when she enters the role of the Chef, using the time to get drunk, the action masked as her attempts at being a housewife. The thought makes me snort. I sometimes hate my dad for leaving, but then I probably understand him- I wouldn't want to be part of this whole mess either. Something drops, breaks and she curses and that's it for me- I just can't stand it anymore. Whatever. I type a quick message to Nathan. Recently he's been the first person I think of when something happens. "I hate this rotten house". I put my phone in my pocket and head for the hallway. I get a reply as I'm almost out, putting my jacket on. I look at the phone, the message is from him. "Hey,
Eva"Get dressed.""What?""Just get dressed, we're going somewhere.""Where?""I'll be waiting outside in 30."It's a Friday night and we'll probably go hang out with the others. I type a message to Chris, but she doesn't reply. She's been back with Jared again and she doesn't have much time for me. I have no clue where we're going, so I opt for jeans and the new black-laced tank top I got the other day. I hid it from my mother because I didn't want to have to explain why I'd bought something I can't wear at school. I put some makeup on- I've recently started wearing it and I think I'm getting better at the whole eyeliner thing. My mother's out, still working, and I make a quick search in the kitchen. I know she keeps a bottle in the big soup pot and yes- I'm lucky, it's there. I take a few shots, the liquid burning my throat. It’s okay, it just takes a bit of time to get used to; besides it's the cheapest one out there. He's waiting for me in his car exactly when he said he'd be t
EvaWe dance some more, then I dance with the others. I spoke to people whose names I couldn’t hear and never will. I've sobered up when we leave the club at around 5 am. I don't know how we'll get back but at the same time, I don't care. "Let's go to my place?" Aaron suggests. Nathan looks at me questioningly and I just agree, he can't drive now, so we get a cab and the car leaves us in front of a nice, big house, somewhere in the inner-city center. "You cool? You seem kind of lost?" Aaron asks me."No, I'm just. It's a nice house. " I say as I take the whole place in."Yeah, you'll like the backyard better. "We get in and he welcomes us in a very big living room. There are vinyls scattered on the floor, with open books resting here and there and a big white cat dozing off on what looks like the softest carpet I've ever seen. "My parents are not here, as usual- so feel like home. "Yeah, I've never felt like that in my own house and I'd rather not start feeling the way I do at h
EvaI get home by the time it’s 2 pm. Damn it. Kind of. Because I can’t bring myself to be upset about it. I am just trying to prepare for the nagging I guess it’s coming. Unless my mom’s sleeping. And she isn’t. She’s sitting at the kitchen table, smoking. I pause, and she doesn’t look up once I’m standing at the entrance door. “Hey, Mom?”My mother then looks up, as if she is surprised to see me. Maybe she is. “Eva. ““Uhh, are you all right?”“Yes, I am all right. How was it with Chris?”“Chris?”Right, I’d told her I was going to be with Chris, right. “It was...it was okay. We talked, saw a movie; you know. The usual stuff.”She smiles. “It’s a good thing you go out now more often. It was about time; you’re turning eighteen soon. I was starting to get worried you don’t spend much time with people your age and…”“Yeah, “I interrupt. Half annoyed, half guilty. “Okay. I’ll be upstairs. “I head up to my room, trying not to think about the lie I had just told her. Besides, it doe
Eva The reason why I’ve never liked my birthday is that I have always thought I don’t have many people to invite to a potential party. Although the idea of me and a party seemed absurd up to not a long time ago, still I imagined I did have one. And then no one would want to come if I asked them. It’s like I’ve wanted to save myself from the embarrassment of asking someone to come when they’d planned to say ‘sorry, I’m busy all along. That’s for one thing. Another would be, and I’m not exaggerating, is that I have never been able to imagine people coming home, with my mother being the way she is. When I was a kid I waited for my dad to call. That was until I turned eleven or twelve. Then I stopped thinking of that too. So whenever that time of the year comes, I just ignore it and think of it as any other day of the year. In a way, it is exactly that. I am just entering my classroom when Chris jumps out of somewhere and hugs me real tight.“Happy birthday, Eva!”I wrap my hands aro
Jeremy“There's a lake,” Kyle says, his eyes wide with amazement “you actually have a lake in your backyard, are you kidding me, Jer. “He looks like a child at the sight of cakes. His brown eyes are sparkling- brightly, and beautifully and I wish I was bright like that and he wouldn't have to put up with me. I'm a dark spot. Dark like the gray sky above us now.Our parents went off, as planned and since even Nathan decided he could disappear for another few days, I decided to ask Kyle to come here. The maids have never asked questions, and they didn’t do now, although I’m sure Kyle was unnecessarily charming when Martha greeted us at the front door earlier. Kyle is like that- way too charming, especially when he smiles without even knowing it. and that makes him twice more charming, but don’t tell him I said it. So he agreed to come here, although I wasn’t sure if he would. It sounds boring, even to me. But I must have betrayed my absolute unwillingness to go anywhere else. But ye
EvaI've never wanted to kiss anyone before. Not like that, I mean. Before Nathan showed up and changed my whole life. I kissed a guy for the first time during that summer holiday a few years back. But he wasn't my boyfriend or anything. He was just a guy from our neighborhood and we used to hang out together. I hated it. Not only because I didn't know what I was doing and because he didn't know either. It wasn’t just that. But most of all, the reason for my revulsion was I knew I was doing it because everyone else was doing it. Chris was always talking about her boyfriend from back then and she wasn't the only one. At some point, I left like everyone had a boyfriend or a girlfriend.Except for me.I guess, in a weird way I was trying to catch up with them, or prove to them that I wasn't the most undesirable girl out there. Or the lousiest one. The nerd girl who can't even like someone, with so many boys out there; or be liked by anyone. Of course, my attempts didn't lead to anythi