Chapter 39 - How Can I Ease The Pain

"Here we go. Are you sure you don't want anything?" Bianca helps me to sit down.

"No, it's fine. You let me crash in your house, I can't ask for more. I would, however, love to be left alone."

She nods her head then walks out with worry showing on her face.

The divorce papers were sent to our (Blake and I’s) lawyer and he couldn't stop asking me if I would want to change my thoughts but I stood firm in my decision.

I also got discharged today and spent the whole day with Bianca and mom at a fancy restaurant . Not really what I wanted but they didn't really care in such a way that they knew I would have confided myself in my room my entire lifetime. They wanted me outside to smell the fresh air and try to make me feel good but that didn't happen.

I use my crutches to walk to the balcony. The sun has set and the only thing visible is the moon. The sky is so very clear and even though the moon is looking for a friend on me, emptiness is continuing to dig deep in me.

The memories of