Just a Distraction

Evie

“That isn’t my intention.”

“Just say what you need to say,” I murmured. It was better to get it over with.

“I’m not in a position to be with anyone.”

I rolled my eyes. “Because?”

“You know me. I’m not good at this kind of thing. I’m not good at relationships in general. The one person in this world that I truly cared about is gone.”

He may as well have slapped me. It hurt. His words tore at my heart. “I see,” I said, nearly choking on the words.

“Kade got me. He understood me. He was… well, he was the one person that I could say I had a meaningful relationship with. He’s gone. His death has turned me inside out. I can’t do this again. I can’t feel like this ever again.”

“Grief?” I questioned. “That’s what you don’t want to feel again?”

“No, I don’t. I can’t.”

I slowly nodded. “I understand. Your solution to your situation is to avoid relationships so you never have to experience loss. You would prefer to be permanently be alone than to know love and maybe feel some pain.”

“I gues