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Being back at the apartment only got more awkward for me. Tyler and I walked Katie to her apartment, then proceeded to head down the hall to our respective apartments. I turned to go into my apartment after unlocking my door, but he tugged on my belt loop on my shorts and pulled me to him. My back was to his chest. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and rested his chin on top of my head. “You ok?” he asked softly. I nodded but didn’t say anything. I didn’t trust my voice right now. I have no clue why I felt jealous. No, that’s a lie. I knew. It’s because never in my entire life, have I ever compared to anyone. All the other girls were always way prettier than me. More athletic, more girly, smarter, funnier, skinnier, you name it. I have terrible self-esteem.

He turned me around in his arms, so he could look at my face. I avoided eye contact like it was the plague. He tilted my chin up, but I closed my eyes. I tried so hard to keep them closed, but he kissed me, which shoc