~20 Days Later~
Everything with Blair had been perfect until I brought up shit from college. She really thought I never went through a wild phase but truth be told I did in my own way. I wasn't hooking up with random people but anything else to not stress I was down for. My parents were over bearing assholes my entire life and were pissed when I finally told them I was going to be a teacher. They had wanted me to be a lawyer, would've probably settled for anything in the medical field, but not teaching. I hated college when I tried those programs and felt so helpless as my life was just decided for me. My brother had also gone to college according to my parents demands and then ended up stabbing someone with a pencil over a group project. It was all over the news, The Winter's Killer: Stabbed Classmate and Family Friend with Pencil. He later revealed to me that he had also been taking some pills to help him focus but personally I didn't think that helped his case, t
I had never understood why it was called heartbreak until now, it felt as though my heart had shattered into a million pieces. It took less than one minute and only two words for everything to go from everyday feeling like a dream to every second feeling like a nightmare. I felt a tear hit my hand and until now I hadn't even realized I was crying. I looked up spotting Blair's car parked in front of mine and took a deep breath. I was in no state to drive even after trying to calm down in the school parking lot for almost an hour. Every minute felt like an eternity and against my better judgement I had driven here without a second thought once the world wasn't spinning around me. I slowly stepped out and closed my door hearing loud music coming from inside her apartment. I carefully made my way up to her door and took a deep breath before knocking loud enough for the neighbors to hear.The door swung open revealing a rather intoxicated Blair with a half dressed brunet
~2 Weeks Later~I took a swig from my third Mikes hard of the day as I typed the last few sentences of my newest book. I had always focused on children's books as well as illustrating but over the past year I finally decided to write an adult novel. The book itself was fiction and was about a young lesbian woman whose about eighteen. She ends up dying and sees what happens after death, a whole new life. It's a concept I had worked hard on and planned to eventually turn it into a series. As I finished the book as well as my drink all I could think about was telling Alice. Realizing that wasn't really an option at the moment I sighed and sent the document over to my editor before shutting down the computer. My vision was blurred slightly and I could feel my hands shaking even at the thought of her, at the thought of the woman I had fallen for. I shook my head clearing the memories from my mind and got an idea. I quickly looked in my closet for copies of my old books a
~Five Days Ago~I heard my phone buzzing beside me on the couch causing me to wake up from the short lived nap I had taken. I had hardly slept in the past month and it was really starting to catch up to me. I looked down at the caller ID and my heart stopped, it was my mother. She had never called unless it was important since I moved away which had my nerves on end from the moment I saw my phone light up.I shakily answered and put it to my ear "Hello?""Hello," her familiarly haunting voice rang through the speaker "I've got some bad news.""What happened?" I questioned hoping she'd get right to the point"Your brother, he escaped." She breathed out~Present~"So how have you been?" She whispered in my ear as we laid cuddled up on the couchI sighed "I've had a lot going on.""Want to talk about it?" She asked looking over at me w
"I'm so glad you could make it Blair!" Sarah greeted me as the door swung openI smiled "Thank you for inviting me over."Her face fell slightly "It's Christmas Blair, I wasn't going to let you spend it alone."I walked inside before she gently shut the door and I turned to her "I was actually at my girlfriends so I wasn't really alone."She froze "Girlfriend?"I had wondered for a long time how Scott and Sarah would feel about me being gay. Scott seemed as homophobic as they come but with how Sarah had been with me since I moved out I really hoped she would be okay with it."Yes my girlfriend." I replied unable to move out of fear of what would come nextI hadn't even meant to say that, it just kind of slipped out but there was no going back now."Why didn't you bring her, I'd love to meet her." Sarah replied causing me to release the breath I'd be
"So Alice, Blair told me you graduated at sixteen, that's really impressive I must say." Sarah said as we started to fill our plates with ham, green beans, potatoes and everything else that filled the air with an intoxicating aromaI tightened my grip on Blair's hand under the table nervously "Yeah, I graduated at sixteen and then went onto college before doing my student teaching."So far I had avoided the topic of her being my student but it seemed like Sarah was going to keep pressing until it became the discussion."When did you start teaching here?" Sarah asked curiouslyI nervously smiled over at her "Just this year.""I'm sorry I don't mean to make you nervous, I'm just curious is all." Sarah said before taking a bite of ham"You're totally fine," I smiled awkwardly "thank you so much for having me over, everything is delicious.""You're welcome anytime and t
~1 Week Ago~The room was spinning around me but even as I walked it didn't feel real. The lights seemed scattered throughout the air rather than strung along the ceiling like usual but I downed the last of my drink anyway. I dropped my cup mindlessly and shuffled through the crowd before stumbling up the stairs that seemed steeper than Mount Everest to me at the time."Hey there." A deep voice said as a figure approachedI looked up recognizing the icy blue eyes of Parker Daniels but my vision made it difficult to process him through the daze I was in."Parker," I slurred out happily pulling him into a hug "how have you been bud?"He chuckled lowly hugging me back a little tighter than I would have liked "I'm a lot better now."I forced myself out of his arms and looked up at him "Why is that?""You're here," he smirked, his eyes seeming to scan me up and down "and
She was frozen for almost twenty minutes, unresponsive before she even noticed me rubbing her back and trying to talk to her."Don't touch me, please, don't do this, please just leave me alone." She screamed pulling her knees to her chest and sobbingIt broke my heart to see her like this but I removed my hand at her request. I wanted to be able to comfort her in some way but that didn't seem possible at this moment. I noticed her phone and quickly grabbed it before sliding the lock and scrolling through her contacts.I found Callies and clicked it hearing a few rings before her response came through the speaker "Merry Christmas Blair!""It's Alice, I'm so so sorry I know it's Christmas but I really need your help." I rambled out still looking over at Blair who continued to sob relentlessly"What happened?" She asked, concern and confusion evident in her voiceI sighed "I'll explain
~5 Days Later~We hadn't left Alice's house all week, at my request. I hated feeling this way, I hated the look on Alice's face when I rejected her touch, but I hated the panic attacks most. They had finally stopped two days ago but my anxiety was still at a record high. For years I tried to pass it off as something else, anything other than rape, but now I just felt like an idiot for not realizing sooner. I felt weak and empty, like the mugs I had shattered on the floor days ago. Alice had managed to keep me calm despite my state and I was grateful for her now more than ever. She was so patient with me and hadn't tried to touch me since the incident in the kitchen. There were times where she would accidentally and I would always jerk back defensively but it wasn't because of her. I could vaguely remember our conversation now and I mentally slapped myself for lining myself up for her to ask me that question. It was stupid of me to even bring up sex in the first plac