Kabanata 29

Indie Emerson

All this time, I am restricting myself. Ang dami kong bagay na kinakatakutan. Hindi ko pa nga nagagawa, ayoko na.

I truly know in myself that I can do better, possibly, even do best. And yet after all these years, I am still stuck here, with no progress in life and still having difficulties cultivating such things on my own. I really used to build walls... hanggang ngayon pa rin naman. I used to make myself protected over every instance in my life because that's my way of making myself strong… being weak. Agad kong nilalayo ang sarili sa mga bagay-bagay.

I know that some people wouldn't understand why there's always a side of this world that has been tainted with subtle showers of remain going. I know they wouldn't understand why sometimes it is crucial to choose to be weak— it's not because I can't stay strong all the time, but because I feel "life" sometimes when I'm weak.

My eyes darted to the couple who were walking on the shore, magkahawak ang kamay at parehas na