chapter thirty two

Manipulation by zevia.

Thea.

I don't know what to do. Herman looks like his in desperate need of companionship right now, so I let him kiss me. I don't have the strength to stop him. He might not be aware of the hurt in his gaze but I know that look. It the same way my eyes looked everyday since Alberto was killed. His hurting and I think part of this was caused by me. How? I also don't know but the least I can do is help him get over it. But what if healing him also damages me? Am I ready to give up my sanity and self found peace just to help him out? Am I ready to bare his scars too?

Surprisingly, my answer is yes. I can relate to his feelings. When I lost Alberto my siblings thought I was just playing around with him and it didn't really damage me. But it did. And until today, I have never let myself love any man. I'm scared my curse will also take them away from me. Or me away from them. Even now, I know if I begin to love him something bad will happen. But what if his also the s