Off
It's already 1 week and he is still not waking up, all of us are already stressed and scared about what might happen to him, earlier I discussed his condition with the doctor and he told me that he is not in a critical stage now, but why still he's not waking up.
We are here inside his room still waiting for him to wake up, every second that passes us makes my heart hurt a million times, it's s all my fault. If only I could turn back time, I would be strong to hold him tight.
Gun
I was awakened by the noise around me, I hear them talking about a guy hit by a car, I slowly moved my body and open my eyes to see who are this noisy person.
" He's moving" I heard an unfamiliar voice.
I opened my eyes completely and they all stood up and stand next to my bed.
" are you alright?"
" Hey buddy"
OffIt's already 1 week and he is still not waking up, all of us are already stressed and scared about what might happen to him, earlier I discussed his condition with the doctor and he told me that he is not in a critical stage now, but why still he's not waking up.We are here inside his room still waiting for him to wake up, every second that passes us makes my heart hurt a million times, it's s all my fault. If only I could turn back time, I would be strong to hold him tight.GunI was awakened by the noise around me, I hear them talking about a guy hit by a car, I slowly moved my body and open my eyes to see who are this noisy person." He's moving" I heard an unfamiliar voice.I opened my eyes completely and they all stood up and stand next to my bed." are you alright?"" Hey buddy"
I saw my reflection sitting and huddled in the corner wiping the tears on my eyes.Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've cried in my room when nobody was watching. Nobody knows how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've left like I'm about to snap, but I just don't, for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody Knows Me.I saw how messy I am in that picture until a hand came and offer me to stand up."Baby I will be by your side, I will stay by your side, I will be you forever, I love you and I will always love you"Who was that?The sad face I once had become like a flower that blooms."You are safe with me I promise. And when you get scared: look me in the eyes, hold me a little tighter and smile.
I thought that when he wakes up he will be happy as he was for the past years, but for Pete's sake, he doesn't even recognize me. Is this a good time to fix all mistakes that I did? or is this a bad time?Since the day he wakes up I did my very best to accommodate him even though I can feel that he is scared and avoiding me." hon we have a photoshoot later for our marriage," Jeed said, since Gun hasn't remembered anything yet I need to fix my problems first." I told you I won't be marrying you!" I shouted, " We already discussed this, right!" I added"I know but, are you going to disobey your parents ?" she askedArrghhh.. my mind is already twisted, why do I need to be stucked in this shit.We are walking along Siam Square when I saw Gun and that Oab.I suddenly remembered, why does Gun remember That Oab which he just meets a few days ago, not lik
" Hey, are you alright, bro?" Singto said as he entered my room." Uhmm sorry, it was so sudden that I called you, I know you are busy sorry!" I said as I bowed down" hey hey buddy, it's fine we are best friends remember, you don't need to be sorry, you helped me last time so I think it's my turn to pay back that debt," he said as he tapped my back" Thank you"" so what do you want to know ?" singto suddenly opened the topic, I'm not sure if I'll be telling him what's inside my heart and mind right now." err.. it's. uh about our circle of friends, can you tell me more something about you guys" I said as I bowed down, right now I wanted to know what's between me and Off but I think I might not be able to accept it." aww haha of course, first.. here" then he brought out a photo album from his backpack " I'm always carrying this one since I discovered that you lost your m
They ordered foods and liquors the band started to play too, the ambience here is good, not noisy not crowded."Cheers" Krist said as he raised his glass up" cheers" I shouted backWe enjoyed the night, they keep on telling me about many things, our stories, all, I can see how happy they are.I can feel safe on them" hey let's go to Club Insomnia-Ibar ( disco club in Pattaya Thailand ) I want to dance," Newwie said as he stood up and dance in place" let's go," Off said and pulled me upI can't help myself but smile, it's getting dark already but still, we manage to go to Pattaya to have a night out. We sat in a VIP area, the price is costly but Off said he can pay it all.We ordered different cocktails, I'm getting dizzy, the music is loud and the light hurts my eyes too, it makes me feel dizzyWe stood up and
OffI don't know if it is because of lust love or because I am already drunk, but when Gun and I faced each other at the same time and touched each other's lips, I lost my energy and did not control my emotions and kissed him passionately, we are already enjoying the moment when I suddenly recalled that he hasn't remembered anything yet, I don't want to wreck him without even knowing what's between us." no we can't do this," I said as I moved my body far from him, I saw har he moved and faced the other side of the bed, he pulled the blanket and covered his whole bodyI stood up and went to the comfort room, I know I can't do this with my baby right now but still, I need to finish this I still have my hands, I know that he is not as exciting like we used to do but for the meantime, I need to controlMyself, I jerked inside the comfort room, it took me almost 10 minutes to finish my business for him no
OffI don't know if it is because of lust love or because I am already drunk, but when Gun and I faced each other at the same time and touched each other's lips, I lost my energy and did not control my emotions and kissed him passionately, we are already enjoying the moment when I suddenly recalled that he hasn't remembered anything yet, I don't want to wreck him without even knowing what's between us." no we can't do this," I said as I moved my body far from him, I saw har he moved and faced the other side of the bed, he pulled the blanket and covered his whole bodyI stood up and went to the comfort room, I know I can't do this with my baby right now but still, I need to finish this I still have my hands, I know that he is not as exciting like we used to do but for the meantime, I need to controlMyself, I jerked inside the comfort room, it took me almost 10 minutes to finish my business for him no
GunAfter the incident earlier, we went home and I keep quiet the entire trip, my friends keeps on uplifting my mood but I'm not enjoying it.I'm annoyed right now, I'm pissed at what Oab did, why does he need to lie? It's like what the hell!." hey bro," I returned to my senses when Newwie pinched me on my arm" oww yes why"" Are you alright?" He asked as he moves his face near mine " wait.. are you crying?" He saidI immediately shook my head and faced the window to avoid their stares." No!" I said" if you say so," Newwie said as he continued flirting with his husband.Having this kind of people gives me hope that one of these days I will be able to remember my past life.I placed my hand on my lap when I felt a hard thing inside my pocket, I slowly pulled it out from my pocket and I