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I don't understand why I had to become the mate of someone like Xander, as he is called.
Just when I thought I had it all living with my mom, stepdad and sister, I never imagined I would live a much worse life in the pack of my so-called mate, Xander.
The room is quite spacious and supposed to be comfortable since there happened to be a huge bed, a large television in the middle of the room and a closet filled with all styles of clothing and shoes, but then,my life was much worse. I wasn't happy. Nothing seemed to be going okay.
While I was growing up, I used to imagine that my mate would be some handsome prince charming who would sweep me off my feet, love and protect me with all of his heart. Little did I know that I would be living a life of hell with my so-called mate.
Handsome he was, but cruel and ruthless he was also.
In my own mate's pack, I became a prisoner. Living in the room prepared for me for over a month without basking in the sound or having the rain drop on my skin made me realize how being free was a luxury. I wonder what those who were locked up in dungeons for years felt like. It must have been a terrible experience.
Though I live in a room where the air conditioner is constant, still I can hardly breathe. I feel suffocated and cry every night. This isn't how I pictured my life would be. One day, I was living with my mom, stepdad and sister. The next minute, I was chosen instead of my sister and locked up in a room like a prisoner who had committed the worst crimes.
I rarely saw my mate because he was always busy with pack matters. Sometimes I felt like escaping but I knew it was the most impossible thing to be done. My door is always guarded by huge giants with big muscles and scary faces.
I stared at the window from my bed, since the window was a meter away from my bed. It was nightfall and hence I stared at the half moon in the sky. It wasn't a full moon yet and I just could not wait for the full moon to come. That is the only way I can be sure of living this place unscathed.
All my life, I have always thought that having a mate would save me from all the problems I have, but little did I know that having a mate would only make things worse for me.
I stared at the half moon and prayed silently in my heart for the full moon to be complete, so I could finally get away from this goddess' forsaken pack.
Just as I was facing the moon, I suddenly heard the door to my room crack open. I didn't take my face off the moon, because I could tell who it was. He rarely comes to my room, but when he does, I am fully aware. His presence alone made my wolf restless and my heart rate accelerated. Honestly, I hate the way I feel whenever he is around. He isn't lovable, after what he did to me, who is supposed to be his mate.
I heard his silent footsteps. Ashe approaches my bed.
"You haven't slept, huh?"
His deep and husky voice did funny things to my insides. This was my mate, but why is it so hard to reach out to him? Why can't he accept me as his mate? Why does he prefer to torture me so?
Suddenly he came in front of me, blocking the rays of the moonlight in front of me with his huge form.
I slowly took my gaze up at him. The only thing I noticed about him was his long dark hair which glowed in the moonlight. He wasn't putting on a shirt as usual. I wonder why he's always without shorts when in his pack.
"Why aren't you asleep yet?" He asked again. This time I managed to notice his dreamy grey eyes, which seemed to be all over me. This again! I hate the way I feel whenever his gaze is on me. His pearly white skin shone in the moonlight. I tried to avert my gaze so I wouldn't drool over him, but my wolf is just as stupid as I am. Whenever he is around, we both become helpless.
"You can't do this to me now, Shiella, you know our mate is up to no good!" Shiella said to her wolf, who couldn't help but reverence Xander. I just realized that most of the torture was all because of Shiella. She does not have a resistance mechanism against our mate and that is highly dangerous.
"Why? Can't you speak up anymore? Will you only speak to me just when I ram my dick hard into you?"
The question got my heart beating terribly fast. There he goes again.
"What do you want me to say to you? I can't sleep because I'm not comfortable!" I answered back way before I realized what I had just said. Oh no, this is trouble. I heard from the maids days ago that no one dared talk back to Xander. The punishment he gave to those who offended him was so terribly cruel, I wonder what awaits me.
"You know what? Sometimes I wonder how you manage to talk back at me, without fear. I bet you still don't know the rules. Well, that's no problem, this is why I'm here, and that is to teach you the rules!"
He began walking towards me with a dark gaze. I could see his eyes turn from the original grey it was to a darker shade.
This means I was done for. I began to shift backwards on the bed, while he moved towards me slowly.
"Why are you pushing back? Aren't you brave anymore, huh?"
He climbed the bed with just one foot and the bed dipped. My heart skipped again. I was literally trembling. I tried to plead for mercy, but the words just wouldn't leave my mouth, it was as if there was something stopping me.
"Lauren, your sorry stare will not stop me from punishing you. You should have known better before you did what you did."
"D...d...don't hurt me p...please," I begged while stuttering.
Just then,his gaze suddenly cleared from the dark ones to the grey shade it originally was.
"You want me to forgive you?" I stared at him blankly.
"Oh, it seems you prefer to be punished." I went wide in shock when I realized he was asking me a question.
"N...no no, I mean yes, I want to be forgiven please."
"Too late, strip!"
I stared at him, my heart pounding violently like it was going to burst out of my chest at any minute. This was so not my plan. I don't understand why things had to be this way. I stood in front of him, I felt like I was being made to stand in front of a crowd without clothes. He was my mate but he treated me worse than a whore. He laid on my bed with his hands placed underneath his head, his legs crossed together, while staring at my nakedness. He didn't utter a word but took a good view of my naked form. I cover both parts of my chest with my hands but, unfortunately, I don't have a third hand to cover my private area. His gaze was weirdly dark while he stared at me. This was something new. Whenever he comes to my room, I get punished in a different way. The last time he came, he made me squat while he laid flat on the floor while he feasted on my pussy. He ate me for an hour and I was not allowed to move. If I did, he would bite my clit every single time. I cried and moaned at
I stroked and sucked him countless times, and he always cummed deep down my throat, making me swallow his liquid. Though this was meant to make me suffer, as much as I sucked him, I felt high with desires. Now I understand what the punishment was all about. He wanted me to feel all high with urge but he never planned on satisfying me. I could feel my liquid littering the floor. I needed him deep inside me, but he just wouldn't give me what I wanted. I don't understand why he had to be so cruel towards me. I sucked and sucked until I couldn't feel my throat or the walls of my jaw anymore. They ache so badly. I couldn't even try to speak, knowing my voice would be inaudible. I sucked him and I lost count of the many times he came. The guy was a sex maniac. He never got tired, no matter how much he released. When he noticed I was getting tired of sucking him on my own, he would pull me towards his dick with his hands placed at the back of my head, then he began thrusting the walls of
I had been absent from the pack for two days now, but my beta, Chris, had always known where I was at. "Xander, why are you here? I thought you'd been with your mate ever since you took her to our pack?" I took my gaze up at Chris, but didn't say a word to him. I rather sipped my wine and stared into empty space. "Xander, I don't know what you have in mind, but do you know Luna almost died last night?" I froze but didn't show it. I slowly put down the glass of wine I was drinking and took my gaze back to Chris. "What do you mean?""I don't know what happened. She didn't come down for breakfast-""That is because I asked Lucy to let her have some rest," I interrupted. "Oh, some rest. Okay, I understand that, but she didn't come for lunch or dinner either. Since no one bothered to see what she was up to, I decided to go visit her-""Why would you visit my mate!" I interrupted again and this time, I could hardly hold back my anger. "Woah! Best it down Xander! You were not around an
Just when I thought I would be able to tell him all what I felt, I rather ended up holding myself back because I knew what that meant. Another Punishment. I haven't recovered from the one I went through lady night, so it would be foolish of me to provoke him again. Who knows, maybe I will die this time, since I didn't succeed in dying the first time. I wanted to ask the healer who actually saved me, but I was scared to go too deep with my questions. I don't want any trouble. Though he was being nice to me, that didn't stop me from being scared. They were all lycans and I suppose they think alike. Maybe it was better to forget whoever it was that saved me. That way I would have a peaceful life. If there was anything I learned while living under the roof of my stepfather, it was to mind my business. That was the only way I stayed out of trouble. ********Ever since I was admitted to the infirmary, the only person who has visited me was the pack's beta named Chris and, of course, the
When night came, I could hardly sleep, what I saw and heard earlier in the day kept replaying in my head like a movie. I also remember laughing at him for the way he behaved. I thought no woman would want to be with a man like Xander, but from the look of things, it was the reverse. No man would want to be with an ugly duckling like me. No wonder my ex-boyfriend chose my sister over me. What was I ever thinking, saying that to Alpha Xander? Good thing I didn't complete my sentence for fear of being punished. Still, that doesn't change the fact that I laughed at him, what a fool I've made of myself. I face palmed myself feeling terrible about my actions. But now that the future Luna is here, what will be my fate? It was already troublesome with Xander around. What will happen to me, now that Ciara is here? I took a glance outside and stared at the moon, which shone brightly. What has the moon goddess in store for me? Does she hate me this much? Could I have committed a grave sin i
What was that? Everyone wants a piece of Xander. I began to wonder if it was the Xander I actually know or if it was someone else. The Xander I know isn't someone nice to women. What was I saying? He wasn't nice to me in particular. I'm not sure he does the same thing he did to me, to the others. When I saw him yesterday with Ciara, I could see just how happy he was. Of course, he was nice to her, so I'm guessing he was nice to every other female except me. That must be it. My poor life. I wonder what I ever did to deserve such treatment. "Uhm, Luna? I'm not saying this to make you feel bad, because no matter what happens, you remain the Luna to Alpha Xander and there's nothing no one can do about it. Not even Ciara," Chris whispered the last part, which made me turn my gaze towards him in surprise. Chris took me to the pack's training court, and for the first time, I was happy I had to leave my room. I saw the pack soldiers all looking like giants with strong body build. If not fo
**********I hummed a song as I prepared for my training which was to start later in the evening. I smiled at myself when I realized that my time of being idle would soon be over. Just when I thought I wouldn't be able to survive in the Knighters pack, the moon goddess had paved a way for me through Chris. I just cannot be trained as a soldier. For now, Chris told me not to let anyone know about my training. I don't have any friends to begin with, so that doesn't count. I won't let anyone in on what I'm trying to do. Xander will be the last to ever find out. I know for a fact that he won't let me do what I please. In fact, height decides to punish me again if he ever finds out about what I'm trying to do. After preparing my training outfit, I neatly hid it at the back of the closet. Not that anyone will ever find out anyway, but it's better than being sorry. This was important to me, and I cannot let anyone find out about what I'm up to. Just then, I heard a soft knock on my door.
Just like the twinkle of an eye, I became not only a friend to Chris but to Ciara as well. Though, as for the case of Ciara, I don't get too close when she's with the pack members, but when she's alone and notices there's no one around her, I go to her. Also, I was secretly trained her by beta Chris. Having those two by my side seemed like I had it all and I didn't have to worry about a thing, most especially since I hadn't had an encounter with Alpha Xander for a while now. I just wished things were that way and I wouldn't have to see him. Whenever he is around, I try to stay away from his space as best as I can, so he doesn't see me and come for me. "Uhm, Laura, I would like to take you somewhere. Would you like to come with me?""Huh? Where could that be?" "I want to take you shopping. Aren't you tired of being in the pack alone? Whether you like it or not, you are the Luna of the pack, and as such you need to look stunning at all times, don't you agree?""Well, I don't know ab