IvyLast night I cried myself to sleep, I've never been this heart broken since dad left.I still can't believe what he said to me. The degrading words, I never felt so cheap in my life. Is that really what he thought of me?Tears leave my eye and I wipe it off as quickly as it falls.I hate feeling like this. I feel so stupid for still having feelings for him. I hate him for making me feel this way.I make an attempt to blink back the tears threatening to slip out of my eyes but that only proves to be futile as the water works comes pouring down.“How could I have been this stupid?”I pull the covers on my bed up to my chest and hug my knees tightly as I continue to cry with the faintest silence.I bite my tongue when I feel I've cried enough but my heart thinks otherwise.The hiccup in my throat shoots my head up and I catch my reflection from my vanity. My messy hair and snot and tear stained face stares right at me.My phone rings, blaring my ringtone across the room but I don't b
IvyElias has been more than a gentleman since we started dating. I'm really grateful he's been patient with my emotions every step of the way.There are days where I feel he's too good for me, like a prince from a fairytale. The feeling is so surreal.Mom obviously approves of him, of course she does. He's rich. She was more than happy when I told Clifford and her that we were finally dating and she acted like we were going to get married soon. Elias was just glad they accepted him. He was a bit nervous about me telling Clifford but he gave him his blessing to go out with me.Elias was so happy he jumped like a little boy excited to get candy. The memory makes me laugh each time I think about it.I smile at my reflection pleased with my outfit. Elias would be here any moment from now and I need to get ready before he shows up.He wanted us to go out for picnic in the woods right behind our school and I had picked something that wouldn't be too tight. For my outfit I decided to go for
Ivy Everything after that day seems like a blur but Elias never kept quiet about it and he made sure to tell anyone who has the ears to listen about what we saw but no one believed him.“A red wolf?” Mom had laughed when we told her “that's crazy, you guys probably saw a squirrel or something”The rest who didn't think we were lying thought we were probably high on something till he finally stopped telling people. But even with that he always makes sure I'm safe when I'm in class, he sometimes had the fear that a pack of wolves would invade our school no matter how many times I tried to pacify his hysteria.Elias and meet up at a new cafe close to school that I've been wanting to check out for awhile.“This place is nice” he exclaims once we finally get in.The place is small but with a modern feel to it with a lot of chic decor. It's cozy feel makes me feel safe.We take our orders and Elias chooses a spot for us to sit.He frowns once we take our seat as he looks at the glass wall.
IvyToday's first period wasn't all so bad, except for the fact that Aria and Freya kept giving me dirty looks in class. Not that it bothered me anyway. Elias is seemingly M.I.A and when I called this morning he said he had to help his cousin get treats for her dog.I don't know how long I'll have to wait for him to get to school. I check my phone to see if he's texted but my phone is drier than ever.I haven't felt this lonely in a long time and it stings. Badly. It's currently half past twelve and he still hasn't texted.I furrow my brows worriedly as I tap my fingers on the desk as I wait in the barely empty fall for our next class. Caden is supposed to lecture us and something about that information makes me anxious. I can't face him alone. I need Elias by my side.Soon enough other students start trouping in and I scan the crowd for Elias and my heart sinks with every second each time I can't find him amongst the batch of crowds.Caden walks in and my heart beat starts to race he
IvyI can barely concentrate on the food in front of me with Caden sitting so close to me. My face would heat up each time the memory of his naked body flashes through my mind.The slightest touch of his arm grazing over mine sends the fastest shock wave through my body that goes straight to more core and I occasionally have to squeeze my legs tightly together to control myself.I feel his leg on mine and I jolt up and all the attention falls on me.“I'm done eating, I have to go to the bathroom” I blurt and race upstairs.“What has gotten into her?” I hear mom ask.I rush to my room and shut the door slamming my back against it.I hate how he still makes me want him, every inch of me yearns for him even when I know it's wrong. But I still crave for him, even just a morsel of him would be more than enough.I shake my head trying to take away the profane things.Guilt creeps in on me once Elias flashes through my mind. He's been so patient with me already. He doesn't deserve this.But
Ivy Things kept getting worse after that day, it's almost like I'm being punished by the haunting thought of him continually lurking around in my mind.Even in my dreams I see him. I can't run away, it's pointless ignoring him in real life as well. The thought of him turns me on in the wildest way. The amount of times I've woken up with soaked panties has become something that makes me worry.I haven't touched myself since that day though, the fear of him walking in on me is somehow greater than my imaginations but now the need for his own touch has intensified.I wish I can make this all stop but a part of me wants this to stay even though it would cost me my sanity.Today I find myself in the bathroom stall just so I can get away from Caden. I can't face him. Not like this.My phone buzzes notifying me of a message. Once I find that it's from Elias my stomach churns with guilt.“Hey, you left class like there was fire up your ass. I hope you're good” it readsI sigh, not knowing wh
IvyI wake up on the floor with a throbbing head and a dry throat. I peel myself off the ground slowly so as not to provoke my headache even further and I reach for my room door to get a glass of water.I stagger out slowly, my vision still blurry from all the crying. Everything hurts and I'm still disoriented.I hear a door squeak open and before I can react a hand yanks me towards them. Everything happens within the speed of light and before I know it my face is inches away from Caden's and my back is pressed against his door.His blue eyes are dark and his hair is shaggier than usual making his appearance more intimidating than before. Almost like he's angry at someone, almost like he's angry at me.I freeze and my heart is pounding making my head explode from the unforgiving headache. I wince in pain shutting my eyes.I feel his hands caress my head and I open my eyes slowly. His eyes have softened and turned to a lighter shade of blue. They harbour worry as they pierce my eyes ju
IvyEver since what happened between Caden and I had happened, I've been feeling a somewhat stronger emotional pull towards him and something tells me he feels it too.He kept throwing glances at me during breakfast this morning, his gaze looked softer. Like he desired me in a different kind of way.We're supposed to be having Caden's class right now but he's strangely tardy today and I'm a bit worried though but I do my best to hide it from everyone.Caden suddenly walks in. His gait is somewhat calculated. He looks across the class till his gaze meets mine but he doesn't flinch or look away. My heart leaps and I begin to fiddle with the hem of my skirt.“So class, we will be doing things a little differently today” he says rubbing his hands together.Elias and I share a glance but say nothing just before we look back at Caden who pulls down the projector.“We shall be watching a movie for some relaxation”The class roars with cheers and applauds echoes across the roam.“Yeah now we