I was listening to everything Gerard says. And I can't believe I am hearing all of it. Janice didn't intend to leave Neil years ago. She just thought that leaving him would be the best thing to do.
I formed my hands into fists. Why do I suddenly feel like I'm losing? Like I am no longer a part of Neil's life? Why do I suddenly saw only him and Janice?
"She was diagnosed with cancer 3 years ago. We thought she's gonna die. She wanted to stay away from Neil, she doesn't want to hurt him, and she doesn't want him to suffer just because of her. She decided not to tell him about her condition." Gerard explained as he was sitting beside me. We both sat here at the waiting area. No other people are here except us. He just kept his eyes on his fingers as they were being intertwined. I can feel that he is nervous as he explained all this.
"She planned that we should pretend like she was betraying him. She kissed me because she knew that Neil was around. That's when Neil
"L-let me apologize, Marigold. I know, Neil's in love with you. B-but I still have the guts to come back to him after leaving him—""You don't have to apologize, Janice. I understand the reason why you left him years ago." I cut her off."Gerard told you, huh?" She chuckled but I know, she's just forcing herself to do it because I can still see that she's in pain."You know what? I told Neil that I still love him." She said, smiling. She just focused her eyes on the ceiling.I suddenly felt something stabbed my chest so I held it with my hand."But too bad... he doesn't love me the way he did before. He feels only pity." I saw tears falling down from her eyes. There's something in me that feels happy because Neil no longer love her but I feel sad for her, though. She has a valid reason to dump him just like that! She isn't even betraying him!"I told him to lie so I could die happily. But he don't want to. He just wanted to tell me the
I was on my way to Neil's house. I was seated here at the back part of the car while my driver's the one driving. I can't help but feel nervous. Neil's parents are that desperate to make him marry Aurelia? But Neil's not in love with her! How can he marry someone he doesn't even love!Suddenly, the car stopped. I asked the driver what happened and he said that a kid was blocking the way. I frowned and went out of the car. I saw the kid kneeling and no one dared to help him. So I walked to him and helped him get up."Can you stand up?" I asked him. He looked like a ten year-old kid. Why is he alone here?"Rence!!" Someone from far away called."Aunt Shiela!!" The kid shouted at her. My eyes widened when the aunt that the kid was referring to is Shiela, one of grandma's daughter who was living at the province. And the girl whom I saw with Neil that night, kissing. Geez, I should have forgotten about it.
"Miss Morven!"I immediately lifted my head from the desk when I heard our professor. He's standing in front of me. Maybe I was sleeping again so I wasn't able to listen to prof's discussion. I was also seated at the back near the classroom window."Are you listening, Miss Morven?" Prof raised his left eyebrow while he asked me that."I'm sorry," was my only response.Suddenly, the school bell has rung, signifying that the class has ended, and that it is time for the next subject."The bell has rung." Prof sighed once he turned my back on me. "Tomorrow, we'll continue the discussion."Before prof left, he turned to me once again."Miss Morven, I hope this won't happen again." Prof stated with disappointment, and he left.I sighed. Why is it necessary to study? I want to stay at home, in my room, specifically."Hey, Marigold."Oh here we go again. Do they really see no other victim but me? By the
While waiting for the professor again, I just seated here while listening to music through my headphone. I don't think something interesting's going to happen to me now.Suddenly I felt like someone threw something on me. I looked down and saw a crumpled paper. I picked it up annoyingly and looked up. I turned my gaze around to look for the one who did it. It's Ella again. She pointed the crumpled paper I am holding. Seemed like she wanted me to read the content. And so I did. The words written are 'Freak', 'Weird' and 'Geek'. Okay? Is she describing me? She's really making an effort just to give me this, huh?"Good morning."We all stood up when prof suddenly came in. I was just listening to low volume that's why I was able to hear professor's voice. I removed my headphone and put it inside my bag."I'm so sorry. We won't be able to continue the discussion because the faculty and staff will be having an urgent meeting. Today, you
Just like I expected, Neil didn't even contribute in answering the activities. I answered all the questions alone.I'm currently walking to the canteen still with my headphone on my head and a full volume. I don't want any connection with my surroundings.I just bought snacks and looked for a vacant table around.As I looked around, my attention went to Neil. He's sitting alone in a table. A guy went near him, looks like he's a freshman. He did the salute and uttered something. Neil, too, did the salute. Afterwards, the freshman did the push up. What is he doing?Afterwards, the freshman walked away. Neil accidentally looked to my direction. When he saw me, he widened his eyes like he didn't expect I would be here. I was about to look away, avoiding his gaze but he uttered something. However, I didn't heard him. I looked to my side, thinking that he's talking to somebody but I saw no one. He shook his head in disappointment so I removed
I was walking to the classroom while wearing my headphone. I frowned when I saw Ella, Audrey and Aubrey blocking the door. They were glaring at me so badly. When I stopped in front of them, they suddenly removed the headphone from my head."Give that back to me, Ella!" I tried to snatch my headphone back but she would avoid it so I won't get it from her.Oh no, please don't destroy that thing. It's a gift from my brother."What is this that I hear from everyone? You're with Neil on the same table?" She asked.That bully? Geez, I knew it. He's really a disaster."He called me. So I went there and sat down," I answered while still trying to get my headphone."And not just that, we even saw you holding each other's hands!" Aubrey intervened.I can distinguish who Audrey and who Aubrey is because they have differences in appearance. Aubrey has big boobs and beautiful hair like a newly rebonded one. The other is Audrey, flat chested
There were still students staring at me. And I heard them murmuring."What's with Marigold and Neil?""Geez, now I'm jealous.""Neil notice that geek but not us? She's not even pretty, is she?"Annoying. I don't have my headphone so I no longer have a shield from all their gossips. So I just went inside the classroom. All my classmates glared at me."What's with you, freak? Why would Neil waste his time for you? You're not even worthy of his time. You're a freak, weirdo, geek. Look at yourself, you're ugly. You're not an inch of my nail!" Ella crossed her arms infront of her chest.I just sighed. Calm down, Marigold. Just ignore them.I was about to go to my seat but.. Ella stood up and blocked me."Don't ignore me, freak.""I don't want a fight, Ella, please."But she grinned. "But I love it. And we love it. Right, guys?" Then he turned to our classmates. Most of them agree. "Now, entertain us, geek."
I looked down as I intertwined my hands. Neil and I were both sitting here on each end of the bench with distance between us. My mind's very conscious of his presence and I can't even utter a single word. I never thought a bully like him would make an interest of talking to someone like me."Gold." He coldly uttered so I looked up and sit straight. I focused my eyes straight to the garden, still conscious of Neil's presence."Y-yeah?" My heart started to beat fast. I felt so uneasy and I can't even move my own body. It's like I'm sitting beside someone superior."Go to my party. I won't accept no for an answer." He coldly stated.I frowned and slowly faced him at my side. He's staring at me with no emotion so I can't read his mind."What if... I say.. no?" I unconsciously stated. From his no emotion reaction, his eyes darkened and looked at me with strong displeasure."I told you. I won't accept no for an