Maurício"The feeling of insufficiency is what fucks me up every time I make a decision, Davis. I don't want to have to live with this weight on my back, even after forgiveness I don't feel forgiven." - There I was in another session with Davis, I want to live without this weight on my back. Davis was a replacement for the terrible, shitty psychologist."Why does this feeling bother you? Could it be that you are not forgiving yourself? The weight of guilt weighs more heavily on you than on the head of the person affected!""I don't know, I haven't known who I am for many years. That damned scene left me without feelings, without emotions, and all this is resurfacing now, all after I met Louise. The size of the fear I have of making a mistake with her is unwritten." Everything was new to me, this love thing was new. I confess that I had already given up hope, but Louise came into my life at an unexpected time and is making me feel the weight of guilt for everything I have ever done. W
MaurícioI was feeling terrible and guilty for leaving her alone and having to leave without seeing her first, only I know how I was feeling and it was not good. I wish I could shout to the world how much I love her, but I don't know how to do it without hurting her, because that would be the last thing I would want. The phone was right in front of me and I was hesitating to call, it was early in the morning and she could be asleep or not..."I wanted to call her now and tell her everything I felt." - Roberto looked at me with a contemptuous face, as if he was recriminating my thoughts."You'll never get tired of being a jerk, will you? You know what I think? Louise should have looked at another guy and not at you, you don't seem to like her. The woman is there, giving her blood for you and you always want to think when it comes to doing something related to her, what's your problem?""I know I'm being an asshole and that's why I need your help, but you don't seem to understand me and
AliciaI knew I had done everything wrong, even though no one saw me, but Emma saw me and worst of all, she didn't die. I don't know what came over me at the time, but I couldn't pull the trigger and the most she'll be is a paraplegic now.(...)"Are you happy now? What are you going to do now, Alicia? Are we going to live on the run for the rest of our lives?" - Willy shouted, making me even more nervous."Let's calm down, let's calm down…""And where are we going? Even now I can't believe you left Edy with Norely to live such a shitty life. Look how far you've come, Alicia. You're not like that. I'm not like that." The point I've reached is that I can't accept rejection anymore and I've decided that if Mauricio doesn't want to be happy with me, he won't be happy with anyone else, and I'll go all the way, but Willy doesn't need to know that."I've always been like that, Willy. Do you know how painful it is to want someone you can't have? I was not in my right mind when I had sex wit
Two weeks later...Juliana It was being too humiliating to depend on Norely for some things, but nothing he gives me is for free, after all, I am doing a great job trying to find the folder where Mauricio keeps the documents. Meanwhile, Alicia hasn't been heard from for two weeks and we are worried, because the last time we spoke she was being chased by two men. Now there's this; Norely has demanded that I work for his company and this has only increased Mauricio's distrust of me, can you imagine the chaos my life will become from now on? After everyone finds out that I have been involved with Norely for a long time?"It's a shame that Mauricio never knew how to value what he had in his hands." - I forgot to mention the part that I hate when Norely talks as if I were some object that can be easily manipulated."Well, know that I am the one who has never devalued myself. In the years that I worked for him, I did a great job and got the recognition I wanted, I wanted nothing more than
Jason After much crying we were looking at the moon through the window, Louise was running her hand over her belly smiling and I knew she was happy about it, it was just new to her."What do you say we go somewhere and enjoy tonight, the two of us? We're not werewolves, but we're two lonely souls who need to be happy. Don't you think so?""I think that's a great idea, and besides, I miss your laughter when you're drunk. Where is that boyfriend of yours, Jason, anyway?""Then that won't be a problem, Lou. I'll get dressed and when I'm ready." At the last minute I had an idea, I know she would refuse to go, but it wouldn't hurt to try to convince her to go out for a while, because she needs it as much as Jason and I do."Maria, love of my life, I want to ask you an invitation and I won't take no for an answer." - She looked at me frowning and threw the cloth over her shoulder. Maria almost always had a frown on her face, but we knew that this was just to scare away the snakes that su
Alícia Maurício may be fast, but he forgot that I'm a rejected woman and thirsty for revenge. He killed my James and it won't stay that way."I don't want you to leave here until she is down. Anything you do let me know, I want to be the first person to pull the trigger." - Louise was in a nightclub with Jason, Emma's warrant. I just wanted her to get out of the car to put an end to this family shit. Active Connection"You better get out of there and drop this ridiculous plan of yours. You know Mauricio is in very good company. You can even shoot his wife, but you'll come out of there tortured and very crazy." - Juliana used a tone of authority that I hated. Ever since she started having sex with Norely she had grown wings and I know how to clip them in just a few seconds."I'm tired of you telling me not to call me when I'm out of line. Geez, it's my day off and I can't even get a break? Am I having fun, or am I not?""Don't lie, Alícia. Everyone can see from where you are now,
Norely I feel that Juliana is not real, there is something about her that is bothering me a lot, maybe it is the fact that she can betray me at the first opportunity. After everything I have experienced in this life, I don't doubt anything anymore. But she was there, behind the desk holding her pose and on the phone she was swearing at someone. My cell phone beeped and when I looked at the photos sent by Marcelo, an old friend of mine, I saw photos of Louise getting into a car at this moment, and I learned that she is also pregnant, this will be more fun than I thought. Juliana looked at me and smiled as she saw my expressions."Be prepared to experience tense moments soon, but sooner than you think. Did you know Louise was pregnant?""I had no idea that Mauricio could go to such lengths with that horrid woman.""Don't be sorry for something that never belonged to you. I don't want to hear anymore how much you love that bastard." - I approached her and held her neck, but not too tigh
Juliana Alicia was managing to delay my life and although I really wanted to kill her, it wouldn't be possible because I couldn't find her anywhere. Like any good woman I had a plan B, which was with none other than Ron, my friend from my teenage years and the perfect person I found to help me in all these cases, I know that he has always been obsessed with me and I have already done so many favors for him, it would be no big deal for him to do the same for me. (...)"You look beautiful as always, what have you been doing these last years?" - Yes, we were meeting again after almost three years without seeing each other, although we always talked, it was not the same as looking into each other's eyes. Ron had red hair, green eyes, and was a tremendous handsome son of a bitch. He passed an air of attraction even without wanting to, his smile was perfect and today sometimes I see myself regretting not having stayed with him while it was time, today he is dating and I don't want to ru