Chapter 3: A New Beginning

A few months later,

I look out of the window, admiring the snow mother nature has created.

It's been a few months since that incident last happened. Every day I live in fear knowing that it is all over.

I have a flashback from my nightmare when I was tortured and almost rape in that dirty place. It triggered me a lot that there were days when I couldn't sleep and eat properly.

Since that day, I suffered from depression because of the rejection. I also suffered from anxiety because there is a part of me that still fears that all of these are not over yet.

Every day, I would lock myself in my room after that incident to avoid getting in contact with an outsider because I am afraid of how people will look at me.

There were times I tried to commit suicide to end all my pain as it comes back at me with a big hit. I felt the pain of my mate mating with my sister and it really hurts a lot.

Rose, my best friend, was always there for me and constantly brought me to seek mental health treatment.

She was one of the people that I love in my life, who encourages me to go as she also wants to come along to know how to take away our fears too.

However, my mental problems were so serious that I had to take sleeping pills every day and some medication to get well fast.

She and her brother, Alpha William, were the only ones who really cared about me ever since that day. They guided me and brought me into their pack. I was glad to have them by my side. They supported me for who I am, which my mate could not do.

Alpha William was three years older than me. Two years ago, he lost his wolf as a rogue attacked his pack and killed his mate. He told me that he went through depression at that time, but was able to overcome it because of his family and his friends who constantly supported him. I really look up to him for his good attitude and determination.

One month ago, I finally shifted into a wolf on my eighteen birthday. Since then, I've become very pretty. I was a beautiful wolf who had white fur and blue eyes. The moment when my wolf, Trisha, asked me about my mate, both of us were heartbroken when I told her what happened.

Since then Trisha comforted me when I was facing my problems. After that occasion, we did not talk about our mates anymore, even though I knew Trisha wanted to talk more about it.

Someone knocked on my door. "Come in."

William walked in and smiled widely. "Hey Belle, how are you feeling?" I forced myself a smile. “it's the same every day. All I feel is pain, sadness and anger."

I cried hard again remembering all those memories.  William came to my side and hugged me saying. "All you could do now is to move on and be strong. Build yourself to be a better and stronger person so that you can show everyone that you are not a weak person."

I hugged him. "Thank you, Alpha William, for accepting who I am," he laughed. "I told you to call me William, not Alpha. You are my friend who saved my sister's life. I should be thankful."

I smiled. "Fine Will. I saved your sister and you save me, so we are even. Oh yeah, why did you come here?"

He says with a kind of worried expression.  “Erm, I kind of signed you up for an audition as a singer, since I overheard you singing, I think you'd make a great singer. Please don't be mad at me!"

"What! Are you serious? How am I going to sing in this state? I think I won't even stand a chance among those who participate."

"You are going to be a singer no matter what happens, we will support you by staying at your side. You are going to be famous, trust me." Rose suddenly burst into my room, holding a tray with glasses and a bottle of red wine.

"But-"

William cut off my sentence. "Don't worry, we will prepare for you. Your audition will start next month, so we have exactly four more weeks. We have found you a teacher to help you with your singing skills."

I was shocked when I heard what William said. I will be forever grateful for what they did and I will do whatever it takes to repay them by going to this audition.

"Fine but can you help me change my name? I do not want my pack, especially my mate to know that I am here in this pack."

Rose said. "Sure we can do that for you but promise us that you will not hide from them forever. Your family is over there, they need you."

I look away and look at the window. "My family doesn't need me. If they needed me, I would not be here now in this state."

William said. "I know how you are feeling right now but just promise us okay, we are doing for your own good."

I look at them and smile faintly and nod my head. Rose smiled. "So what name do you want to change to? "

"Hm, how about Rebecca Wilson? I have always liked this 'Rebecca' name since I was young. I would  name all my dolls Rebecca."

William laughed. "Seriously! You name all your dolls Rebecca?  I think you are obsessed with the name." Rose and I laugh loudly.

"I think this name is awesome! I will ask someone to change later without anyone knowing." I thanked her while hugging.

Rose smiled and pulled apart. “Anything for you, bestie.”

William help us pour some wine on our glass and hand it over to us

I was thinking very hard on how I should tell them.“You seem to have something on your mind. You know, you can always tell us,” Rose added, observing my change in mood.

 “Can you two do me a favour?”

“What do you want?”

 “I want to make him regret doing what he had done for me.”

He smirked.  “Sure. But what is the plan then?”

I discuss the plan with the two people I can count, and they nod their head in response.

“This is going to be fun!” She replied. 

I nod my head in response and drink the wine that I hold.

William held his glass up and we cheered. “To our Rebecca!”

I looked out of my window while drinking my wine thinking that it was time for the old Belle to be forgotten. Time for the new Rebecca to rise.