Chapter 4

Zack's POV

“Holy shit, shit, shit!” I paced outside the hospital room. This was all my fault. Maybe if I didn't speak this wouldn't have happened. 

Why the fuck did I have to speak and scare her? Was she even going to jump? I had no fucking idea. 

Seeing her standing by the edge of the cliff brought fear into me. And I wasn't used to feeling fear. I thought I had gotten over that insane feeling. 

But hell, she brought it out even without trying. She was scared of me as it should be. 

But instead of the relief that it usually brought. I felt anger. Doesn't she know I would never hurt her? She has made me feel indescribable things I couldn't even explain to myself. 

“You're going to dig a hole in the ground with your feet,” Lucas said. He was sitting on the chair, equally waiting for the doctor to come out so we would know what was wrong. 

I glared hard at Lucas. We had been waiting outside for over two hours. The more I waited, the more I felt like I might storm in there and murder the doctor. 

But I couldn’t do that because he was treating the woman who had turned my world upside down. 

“You need to calm down man, Kayla will be fine.”

“She has no wolf. So she'll heal slower,” I turned to him, “Do you think I should give her my blood to heal faster?” 

Lucas raised a brow at me, “What's wrong with you? You were never like this. And honestly, this new you is scaring the shit out of me.”

Just then, the door opened and the doctor walked out. I composed myself not walking up to him when curiosity killed me from within. 

Lucas laughed from behind me as he walked up to the pack doctor. 

“Alpha, Beta,” the doctor bared his neck in submission, “The lady is fine. But she needs a lot of rest.”

The breath I didn't know I was holding came off. 

“But…” the doctor continued looking between Lucas and me. I knew the doctor had bad news and my throat dried up. 

Did Kayla hit her head on the rock too hard when she fell into the water? Or…

Heavens no. “She's not in a comma, is she?” I blurted out without thinking. 

“No, Alpha. It's just that Miss Kayla is two weeks pregnant.”

My world seemed to stop at the information. That fucker of an Alpha couldn't be responsible, right? I saw how she looked at him when we were getting into my car while coming here. 

This is bad news. No terrible news. Fuck! I felt like hitting something, getting blood on my hands. Just doing anything to let the anger go away. 

I needed to know who the hell was responsible for it. And why the hell the fucker didn't take responsibility. 

The doctor shifted back from the murderous expression on my face. I wanted to leave the hospital, return Kayla to her pack, and kill the useless Alpha for being careless as to let me take a pregnant girl as a maid. 

But instead, I walked into the room. And upon seeing Kayla on the bed, my anger melted away. She was deathly pale. 

Was that the reason for her tears? She didn't even seem to notice she bumped into me. She was crying so I had to follow her. And look where it ended her. 

My foolishness did this. 

Walking up to her, I found her cold hand, “I'm so sorry Kay, I shouldn't have said a word to scare you.” 

There was no movement from her. And I felt down. I looked around the room and my eyes caught a file on the cabinet by the bed. 

It was Kayla's file containing her records. I took hold of it. Looking through them, my brows furrowed more. Turning the pages, I was more confused than when I started. 

Nothing was making sense. Kayla had a step-sister and a stepfather. Her mother remarried when she was six because of the death of her father. 

But the last names were different. Kayla still had the last name of her father.  Unlike her step-sister and stepfather. And as much as I tried not to panic. I began to panic. 

Her last name rang a bell. It definitely did ring a fucking loud bell. Because could I ever forget my mistake of five years ago? 

A woman named Susan Deen whom I killed because of my father. I still couldn't forgive myself. 

Springing up from the bed, I brushed against Lucas who was walking into the room, “My office. Now.”

His eyes were wide but I didn't bother to stop to wait for him to speak while I breezed to my office. 

“What's up?” He asked when he sat on the chair. I paced the room.

“Find out about Susan Deen whom I killed five years ago if she's related to Kayla.” 

“Yes, Alpha,” Lucas said and left the office. 

Lucas knew when to be serious or not. And that's one reason I had worked with him without complaint for eight years. 

I couldn't sit still while I waited for him to be back. Finding out is a piece of cake for him because Susan's daughter is here in my pack. She had always been a part of my pack with her father. 

Lucas came back three hours later with an unreadable expression. 

“So?” His silence was killing me. 

“They're related. Kayla is Susan's daughter.”

I stopped pacing. Okay, terrible news. How could they be related? According to Kayla's file, her mother is back in her pack. And her father died when she was little. 

It's already confirmed that Kayla's real mother is dead. Who then is that woman who took care of her?  And who the hell is the man having the last name DEEN in my pack, taking care of Susan's daughter? 

I need to speak with Kayla when she wakes up. And I can't afford to let her find out my little secret. 

She can fear me. But to hate me? I couldn't even bear the thought of it. 

“You okay, Zade?” Lucas's voice roused me from my thoughts. 

“Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just shocked. That's all.”

Lucas knew I favored Kayla but he had no idea how much she affected me. And I hated it. Kayla is weak. And even if Kayla becomes my Luna, it will be dangerous. My enemies could use her against me. 

I stiffened as I noticed the direction of my thoughts. Kayla can't even become my Luna because she would find out my secret and hate me. 

Something I couldn't afford. 

I needed a breather, “How's the man you caught by the border?” 

“Hasn't said a word. The idiot thinks he's here for a vacation,” Lucas sat on the couch. 

“So bad he would be getting a smaller one instead.”

“Your father thinks he should take care of him himself,” Lucas muttered and I fisted my hands. 

“That old man should know his place! He's no longer the Alpha and should let me do my job!” 

“Tried to tell him but, you know he's still got Alpha powers in him until you choose a Luna.” 

I whirled around to face Lucas, my eyes shooting daggers at him. He raised his hands in surrender. 

I was always irritated when the issue of choosing a Luna came forward. 

“I can't randomly choose anyone. I haven't found my mate yet. Let me remind you what happened to Alpha Thron when he chose the wrong Luna,” I started but stopped. 

Lucas and I have had this argument multiple times. I knew he was worried that my Alpha position would be stripped from me if I don't find a Luna in three months. 

I breathed in deeply, “You know what, fuck you, fuck my old man, and fuck all the elders of the council!” I said and stormed off to the dungeon. 

My anger was on the brink now. I needed the smell of blood to calm my anger. 

In the dungeon, I pushed open the door ready to make the unlucky idiot beg for a faster death. But what I saw made me stop in my tracks. 

“Mateo?”