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Three Days Later
Ryan’s POV
“Whenever you are ready, Mila. And again, you don’t have to go through with it today. You can stop at any second if you feel like you can’t take it anymore. It will probably be really painful because of how long it’s been and I don’t want you or Tina to push yourselves too far and put yourselves at risk, please” I said gently to her, My fingers aching to hold her cheeks and comfort her because I could feel how much she is stressed right now. But I have been trying to keep things casual and not freak her out for days now. I don’t want to ruin all my progress with her by doing anything to scare her especially when it comes to touching.
We’ve been training everyday for the past three days twice. Once in the morning and another session in the evening; upon her request of course.
While I was taken by surprise at the beginning when she revealed that she was to be the future beta o
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