“Shut up,” he said after pulling away, his eyes twinkling. I just laughed at him. “I want to see more pictures too, Nat.” I grinned at her. Nat looked at the three of us suspiciously but let it go. We all looked back at the tv screen and saw a portrait of the three of us, Rai and Damian, kissing my neck. My expression was like the first photo of me alone, shocked yet lustful. “Kat, you are a submissive, aren’t you? Personally, I wouldn’t be able to look that good with that expression. But I think that’s your best expression.” She grinned at me again. “What do you think? You guys should try dominating her.” She laughed while looking at both Rai and Damian. The three of us looked at each other, and I burst out laughing while Rai and Damian stayed quiet. “I’m not as good as Rai at being a submissive.” I managed to say while still laughing. “Rai is a submissive?” Nat raised an eyebrow at me. “Yeah. To Da..” As I was about to say his name, Damian grabbed my arm and pulled my body
The shopping was different this time. Damian didn't come with us, and Rai was not looking for something for himself. Rather, he was looking for something for me. Rai asked me to try on clothes, bags, pieces of jewelry, and everything else. As usual, I declined. I didn’t want him to spend so much money on me. “Rai.. You know I don’t want you to waste your money on me. It’s your hard-earned money. And you know I don’t like it when you buy me things. I don’t feel good about it,” I, at last, told him as we waited for our lunch. “Princess.. Me spending money on you will never be a waste. How can you think it’ll be a waste? You are my girlfriend. I want to make you happy,” he replied. “I don’t know, Rai. I feel like I don’t deserve it. I never feel good whenever guys buy me things,” I told him again, wanting him to understand. “I’m not some guy, Princess. I’m your prince charming. I love you. I don’t have anyone else to spend my money on. I want to give you as many pretty things as I c
That night, as we lay down on the bed, I realized that I had never apologized to Rai. I had to apologize for everything that happened between Damian and me. I wanted him to know how sorry I was, even though my apology was a bit late than it should’ve been. I should’ve apologized to him after he saw me with Damian, but there were just too many things happening after that, and I was still unsure how I felt about them. But now, as I had made up my mind, I needed to apologize to him. “Rai..” I started saying. “Yes, Princess?” He asked as he caressed my hair. “Rai.. I’m so sorry. I know that I should’ve said this sooner. I’m so sorry for everything that happened between Damian and me. I’m sorry that I thought I was in love with him. I love you, Rai. I love you.. Way more than I love Damian. Please forgive me. I don’t think I can live if you don’t forgive me. So please, Rai, forgive me. I promise it won’t happen again. Please believe me, Rai,” I pleaded to him, not able to look him in th
The rest of the week went by with no incidents. Rai didn't let me go whatever we did. We became romantic again, even way more romantic than before he went back to the US. Damian sometimes looked at us with jealousy, but he quickly looked away in case Rai noticed. But when Rai wasn't looking, he looked at me longingly. Other than that, the relationships between the three of us were exactly the same as usual. The first incident occurred one night while we were having dinner. Damian was joking around with me, while Rai was quiet, quieter than the usual Rai. He didn't even really eat his dinner; he was just moving it around. I noticed and asked, “Rai, are you okay? You haven't touched your dinner yet.” Rai looked at me, smiled, and said he didn’t feel like eating. That was when blood came out of his nose, a lot of it. “Rai, you have a nosebleed!” I was frantic, going to his
For the next few days, everything was normal. Rai was himself, though he never let me go no matter what. And Damian was Damian, joking around and smirking. Seemed like he had buried his feelings for me too. I knew my feelings for Damian would fade away with time, at least I hoped so. I noticed that Rai seldom ate his food, which worried me. “Damian, is Rai really alright? He seldom eats. He looks pale and is skinnier now. Should I be worried?” I asked Damian with worried. “He’s just tired, Baby girl. You know that he’s busy right? Always talking on the phone. I guess it stresses him out.” Damian pulled me close and kissed my forehead. Being in Damian’s arms really was comforting, especially when I was worried about Rai. I just sighed and tried to believe that nothing was wrong with Rai. *** We were having our lunch when Nat showed up with a huge p
What did I just say? I just told him that I love him too! What have I done? How could I say those words? And why did he say those words out of a sudden? He had never declared his feelings for me anymore, so why? “I know, Baby girl.” Damian smiled softly at me before straightening up to grab the picture. “This is quite big, isn’t it?” He grinned at Nat. I looked at Nat while still clasping my own mouth with my hands, horrified at myself. I didn’t want Nat to know that I was in love with Damian too. Even though she told me that it was okay to love them both at the same time, it was still unacceptable. Nat just grinned at me and went to Damian. They discussed where to hang the photo while I sat there feeling guilty. I had promised Rai and myself not to hurt Rai anymore, yet those words just came out of my mouth so naturally that they scared me. I had promised not to act on my feelings! Why could
We spent the next few days happily, normal. Rai was able to join us more, though he was still sleeping a lot. Rai kept hugging me, and Damian sometimes told me he loved me when he thought Rai was not looking. I couldn’t say I loved him too, as I didn’t want to hurt Rai anymore. Damian seemed to understand as he never asked me about my feelings. One day, as we were watching tv, me in-between Rai and Damian, Rai asked me if I wanted to live someplace else, not Indonesia. Of course I said yes. I wanted to live in Melbourne. “Why Melbourne, Princess? Why not Paris or any other place?” he asked curiously. “Hmmm.. You know I spent a few years in Melbourne, right?” I asked both Rai and Damian. Both of them nodded. “I just love the city. It is slow-paced, the people are friendly, and I love it during springtime; not too cold for me.
“Arghh!!!” One night I woke up to the sound of Rai screaming. I woke up and turned on the night lamp so fast, so I could see what was wrong with him. “Rai, Rai.. Wake up.. You are having a nightmare." I touched his body, shaking it gently so he would wake up. “Arghh!!!" He screamed again. “Rai, please wake up. I’m here, Rai. You are having a bad dream.” I shook his body again. Instead of waking up, he hugged his own body and whimpered. He kept whimpering, and I became frantic. He looked like he was in pain, physical pain. “Rai.. Rai.. What’s wrong? Please tell me what’s wrong.” I kept shaking his body, but he still didn’t open his eyes. “Rai, I’m here.. Please tell me what’s wrong. Don’t make me scared. Please...” By now, I was crying. I didn’t know what to do. To see him like this scared me. He looked like his body was in s