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Chapter 65 - Never Leaving His Side
I couldn't really remember what happened after that. It all seemed like a dream - hazy and blurry.
All I knew was Rai was no more. No one to love me as much as he loved me. I remember weeping all the time.
I never left his side. I remember watching them bathe him. Rai.. Why did you have to leave me so soon? I was in agony. I never thought I could feel this way - it was excruciating. My greatest love was gone, leaving me forever.
Standing beside his coffin, I saw them clothed him in the Dior suit, with the white shirt, his top three buttons unbuttoned. He looked so peaceful, just like when he was sleeping. The peaceful face that I’ve seen hundreds of nights. The difference was now he looked so skinny and pale and wouldn't wake up anymore.
“Rai.. I’m so sorry that I wasn't there for you.. I’m so sorry I didn't know..” I whispered, sobbing while reaching out my hand to hold his.
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Dear readers, Thank you for supporting Kat, Rai, and Damian until this far! Anyone gets teary during the last few chapters? It was hard for me to write those chapters.. I even shed some tears.. *sniffle*.. But yes.. The last chapter is the ending of Kat and her prince charming, her angel. But it's not the end yet.. Kat and Damian will meet again.. but will Kat finally be able to let go of the guilt she felt? Will Kat have a romantic relationship with Damian? Will they end up together? How about Damian's secret? It's still yet to be uncovered. Even Kat's demon is not yet fully disclosed.. Starting from the next chapter, it will all be about Kat and Damian (and stories about Rai too!), but I must warn you that it will be dark and ugly. It's not going to be as smooth and romantic as Kat and Rai's story. After all, Kat will be facing a devil instead of an angel, won't she? So be prepared for one hell of a bumpy ride with more conflicts and characters! PS: Please be mindful of Kat's
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