INAYA -On our way to the prison to see Azziz, Hamza was driving the car attentively, he usually takes this task, namely driving my highness, extremely seriously, but still, he particularly was calmer than his usual self, as if he was thinking about something of much importance. The whole atmosphere was rather weird, even when I asked him,"Are we allowed to see Azziz? I don't know how procedures go in jail, but we're not his relatives nor his attorneys, it must be very hard to get approval, isn't it?"He coldly nodded, just nodded.Whether it was a "yes, we are allowed" or "yes, it's hard to be allowed" I'm not sure about that.even the protection team's activity was rather more careful than their habit, because usually, only three cars follow ours wherever we go, on our way to the prison though, there were ten of them instead. Since I was very idle and a bit uncomfortable with the "overly" serious atmosphere around me, I curiously asked Hamza again, "the protection team is larger in
INAYA -After Azziz was dragged out of the room, Hamza and I were left inside along with the guards and...with the silence.The air became so heavy and tight around Hamza and me that the guards who stood like statues all around the place did not dare utter a word, in fact, we were long pass the duration we were allowed to stay inside that room, but as I said, no one dared to say a thing.As for me, I was just calmly sitting on my chair and thinking about this one thing, "Now, how should I react to what I've just heard?"You see, not only I found out I was actually fooled again by Lydia who seems pretty much in love with making fun of me whenever she gets the chance to do that, I discovered as well that my current husband is probably the reason behind my separation from my previous boyfriend, which would make me double fooled in some sense.Being the person that I am, meaning someone who is not the definition of being emotional, calmly turned to look at Hamza who was still standing beh
INAYA -Is Hamza a materialistic man without a drop of emotions?No, Absolutely not.Even someone like him, with a lot of money, a lot of responsibility to bear, and much ambition, and dedication towards his work is still just an average man who cuddles to his wife at the end of the day and wants to be loved and surrounded with warmth.Even when he has so much confidence, when he's ruthless and seems undefeated, He's still just a man, since we're not godly complete, my almost perfect husband is no exception, of course, he has many flaws and uncertainties.Our visit to Azziz proved this fact to me again... Meaning that my husband is sometimes led by his feelings, that he can be uncertain and needs to be reass ured. When we finally went out of the prisoner, Hamza who was dragging me behind him finally stopped walking and he decided to act bossy with other people instead, his victim was the innocent protection team, he immediately summoned the team leader then issued endless orders, main
INAYA -Why does Hamza treat his own family as if they are meaningless people and only consider them as an unnecessary nuisance?I thought about this question for a long time actually. Especially when I lived together with my in-laws, since Hamza wasn't only cold to them, he treated them akin they were really inexistent.I even once watched him quarreling with his sister Ines, to be precise, I watched Ines yelling and complaining nonstop to the silent and indifferent Hamza, this particular fight happened at the top of the stairs so this meant the matter was not so private and I could watch since I had the heart of a journalist, it was natural for me to shamelessly stand beside them and watch what was going on.I vaguely understood that the subject of their quarrel was that Ines promised a certain acquaintance of hers that Hamza will invest in his X production, this promise wasn't fulfilled of course, and apparently, Hamza refused in a rude way that brought shame to his sister.While s
INAYA -Hamza spoke for a long time, this treatment is of course very unlikely to be attributed to him, but yes, my husband spoke until I wondered whether he practiced this chat we were having endless times in his head.Because it seemed like that to me.He explained to me what happened in his family while listening I realized that indeed, money is the dirt of life.He said that back when he was 23 years old, which means when I was in my first year in college, his interest in business was growing enormously bigger, same as his interest in me.He was still in college at the time, working on his master's degree, however, instead of traveling the world and spending the glorious days of his youth doing something fun, this fun-hating husband of mine's greatest passion was the world of business even at that young age, consequently, he was impatient and he wanted to learn from the man he looked up to as soon as possible, he wanted to follow the steps of the best teacher in the country, his f
INAYA -I didn't expect Nana to call my father-in-law, I really didn't.The whole situation seemed as if I was a petty little girl in class who went to her teacher's desk to complain about a classmate teasing her, then the teacher called this wrongdoer to punish him for her! I seemed like the pettiest person on planet earth!I eyed Nana while feeling very displeased then said, "why did you ask them to come Nana? Wellah (I swear to god) war will break out in the house today thanks to you! It's my mistake for telling you in the first place!"She gave me a cold stare and then lectured me saying, "who are you to teach me how to act? As long as I live this family shall stay my responsibility, I'm the eldest and you should all obey me! I'm at the age where I should be praying to god and waiting fo r my hour to come but you still insist to send me to my grave with a burdened heart! Not one among you all is obedient... Etc"She spoke until I cursed the moment I decided to object to what she d
INAYA -The first time Hamza discovered my Phobia was probably when I was 15.As for the reason I'm saying "Probably", it is because he seemed genuinely surprised and clueless when he was witnessing me experiencing that particular panic attack, I never saw him having a similar clueless face ever again so I suppose that was truly his first time.I remember he just kept looking at me with both dumbfounded and scarred expressions, not understanding what I was going through in front of his watchful eyes.He was in his first year in college back then, and he came to visit Nana at the first chance he got after his exams, and to both my and Nana's surprise, Ines came along with him too!At the time, we understood the reason behind Hamza's repetitive visits to our house, it was because of his health condition: he had a strong respiratory allergy which seemed to subside when he changes the climate, namely by occasionally coming to our small town. So yes, Hamza had an obvious reason to come, bu
INAYA -Eating with the emotional post-traumatic Nana was the worst decision I made! Not for a single moment, she spared my poor nerves and ears from hearing how the hit on Ines's head could have been much more dangerous if it landed on her nose, her eyes, her mouth, or her temporal bone.When I logically asked her what the hell was this temporal bone she replied, "the doctor said it's the part of the skull around the ear area, it's very fragile, she could have had a concussion!"I bet the doctor was so idle that he explained the whole freaking human head anatomy to them! It is either this or that the poor him was actually forced to explain the human anatomy because Nana and my mother-in-law fought at the hospital and got him involved and stuck in the middle between them.She spoke for a very long time, and although I initially was hungry, I became full without eating much just hearing her exaggerated point of view, as for the reason I still kept her company against my heart's wish to