Chapter 2.1

Chapter 2.1

Nassy

I NOTICED that he averted his gaze after staring at me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang reaksyon niya. Do I look awful? I checked myself in the mirror again. I look okay, as far as I know.

Tuluyan siyang pumasok.

“Your grumpy Dad?” the corner of his lips ascended.

“Same as you.” I followed it with a giggle and Caine looked at me through his lashes.

Ay shet! Kinikilig ako. Ang pogi-pogi mo! Kalma, Nassandra. Hanggang kilig ka lang.

“Is that your Daddy Caine, anak?” Dad asked over the phone. Kamuntik ko nang makalimutan na kausap ko nga pala siya.

“Uhm, yes, Dad. He bought me some sanitary napkins, dinatnan kasi ako.”

“Silly woman. You’re not even prepared? When will you ever learn, sweetheart? Hindi mo namana ang ganyang mga bagay sa Mommy mo,” He declared but I just rolled my eyes as I watched Caine landed the paper bags on the table in front of me.

He’s towering tall as he keeps on watching every move that my lips make. Nakakailang. Ano ba siya? Nakangiti pa siya.

“I know right. But it doesn’t matter anymore. Someone here is willing to babysit me.” I giggle and Caine just shakes his head.

“May I talk to that man for a minute, Nass?” Dad asked.

“Sure, Daddy handsome.” I handed the phone to Caine and I stood up.

“I’ll just go and fix myself.” I told him and grabbed the paper bag.

Papatalikod na sana ako pero naalala kong hindi ko pa nga pala nagagawa ang traditional na kisses shower kapag nagkikita kaming dalawa.

I twist my head and find him still ogling me. Tumingkayad ako at agad ko siyang niyakap sa batok. May pagkailang akong naramdaman. Pagkailang? Dati ay wala ako nito noong bata pa ako.

“Whoa! Easy,” he covers the mouthpiece. “Your Dad is over the line.” He pulls back his head but I pull it toward me.

“So?” I kissed his jaws and started to rain kisses on his face, too

“Oh Jesus, Kisses. You aren’t nine anymore.” He nervously stated and so I paused.

“So?” I wickedly smile at him because he’s kinda blushing.

Bakit nagba-blush ang matandang ito? Bakit affected siya?

“Now, kiss me here.” Pinatulis ko ang labi ko at nakita kong parang napalunok siya nang tumingin siya rito.

“No. Things are kinda different now. You’re a young lady now and it isn’t normal to kiss you on your lips.” He shakes his head and so I grunt.

“Ah ganoon?” pinatirik ko ang mga mata ko at saka ako nameywang, “Well then, reserved for my first boyfriend na, I guess.” I tease him and he locks his jaws.

“Lucky guy.” I murmured.

“In his fucking ass!” he gritted his teeth.

“In your ass, too. Malisyoso!” angil ko sa kanya kaya halos sabunutan niya ang sarili niyang buhok.

“Fine. Go and get yourself fixed.” He cups my jaw using one of his hands and plants a soft kiss on my lips.

My gosh! Now I feel my cheeks heated and almost lost all my senses.

Mabuti na lang at handa ako na kahit parang mamamatay ako sa kilig ay kaya ko pa ring dalahin ang sarili ko.

“Brat.” He mumbles before he puts the phone on his ear.

Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya bago ako tumalikod. Para akong kinuryente nang palihim.

My bratty attitude works over him so well. I knew it right. Pumasok ako sa banyo at doon ako ngumisi na parang tumama ako sa lottery.

Napatanga ako sa harap ng salamin. I can’t help but smile at my own reflection in the mirror. Shit! Since then and now, he’s still my first and last kiss. For him it was nothing, but for me, it’s my everything. Six long years had passed and I finally got the chance to kiss him again. Ang awkward naman kung pati iyon ikukwento ko pa kay Mommy. I will just keep it as my secret. Isa pa, kung wala yun para kay Caine, dapat ay wala rin para sa akin.

Act normally, iyon ang dapat.

Pagkalabas ko sa banyo ay kausap niya pa rin si Daddy. Nakatalikod siya at halos maglaway naman ako sa kamachohan niya. I can’t help but bite my bottom lip as I scan him.

Mas malaki pa siya kay Daddy actually by built. He has tight muscles and broad back and shoulders. He has a sexy butt, well defined hairy thighs and legs. Walang duda na ang sarap magpayakap sa kanya. And that bitch he was with when he gave me a call on the phone was a lucky bitch! Sino ba ang bwisit na iyon at oras na agawin niya ulit ang matandang ito ay papanutin ko ang bruha. Ako ang pipili ng babae na dapat mapangasawa ni Daddy Caine.

At sino ang pipiliin ko?

Ako.

I sighed and felt sad. Hindi ako. Ni hindi ko nga masiguro kung ano itong nararamdaman ko.

I slowly walk toward him and hug him from behind. Hinimas-himas ko ang abs niya paakyat sa dibdib niya. Then, I pinched his nipples and giggled.

“Holy Christ, Nass! What are you doing?” he caught my hands and tried putting them away but I hugged him even tighter.

“What? Is this bad now? I used to do this when I was young and it wouldn’t even matter if I still do it now? Does it? Unless you don’t want me to this anymore.” I stompped my foot and angrily pulled my arms out of his body.

“You’ve changed a lot! It seemed like you weren’t the same person who used to love me before.” I look at him when he turns around to face me.

Hindi na niya kausap si Daddy pero parang masama ang tabas ng mukha niya habang hawak niya ang smartphone.

“Look Nass, things aren’t the same like what they used to be before. Dalaga ka na. Can’t you see?” he gives me a quick scan from my face down to my toes, and I find him pauses for a while when his eyes land on my thighs.

This is what I want, for him to look at me like a mature grown up woman and not his little Kisses anymore. But why does it seem like I hate how he says his stupid piece? Parang ayaw na niyang papayakap sa akin katulad ng noon. Dahil ba sa mga babaeng inuuwi niya rito kasama niya?

Dahil ba sa mga babae na iniuuwi niya rito at nakaka-sex niya? I felt pain.

“So? Do you find me now as one of those dirty fuckable bitches that’s why you can’t hug me back like the way how you used to hug me before?” I roll my eyes as I turn my back on him.

“Watch your mouth, sweetie.” He warns me again but I stomp my feet even more.

“Oh I always am. Like what you’ve just said, I am not your little Kisses anymore who knows nothing but to say sweet little nothings like, I love you my Daddy Caine! Shit!” inis na daldal ko at nang lingunin ko siya ay nakanganga siya sa akin pero parang sumasakit ang ulo niya sa kunsumisyon kaagad.

Hindi ko ito kasalanan. First day, he keeps on pushing me away like I’m a freaking reeked trash. I miss him so much but it seems like the feeling isn’t mutual.

Pinakikisamahan lang ba niya ako? Naging pulbura na rin ba ang isip at puso niya tulad ng mga bala niya sa gyera?

“Damn!” he cussed.

“Damn, too!” I hissed and he widened his eyes. “Just in case you don’t find yourself comfortable here with me dahil dalaga na ako, just tell me. I’ll leave!” panakot ko sa kanya pero ang totoo nakakatampo talaga.

Hindi ko lang masabi ang totoong feelings ko kasi natatakot akong iwan niya ako nang tuluyan.

He’s a rebel and I certainly know that. When he gets troubled, he leaves. It’s his best way to escape. I’m also planning to tell him about this stupid crazy little thing called love in time, naghahanap lang ako ng tyempo, kapag nakumpirma ko na sa sarili ko.

“Stubborn.” He whispered but I’ve read his lips.

Umiling lang siya at nakalabi na sumulyap sa sahig.

“Oh yeah, I always am.” I twitch my lips and scornfully put my hands on my waist.

Kapag umisa pa siyang daldal, babatuhin ko siya ng sanitary napkin, not the clean one, iyong may dugo!

He looks at my face and stares at me for a while, and then he smiles. Bwisit! Bakit ngumingiti siya? May nakakatuwa ba sa umuusok kong matris? Nakakairita siya kasi ang gwapo niya. Iyong frosted blue niyang mga mata, sobrang nakakaakit.

“Okay. I’m sorry. I guess I was overreacting.” He said sweetly but I dilated my eyes.

“Buti alam mo!” I cross my arms over my chest and sarcastically lean against the doorjamb.

Tumawa siya nang mahina at saka umiling. “Come here now and I’ll give you a hug as peace offering. I know I’ll never win.” He spreads his arms widely open but I look at him through my lashes.

“Not enough.” I pouted but he chuckles even more.

“Okay, a hug and a kiss.” He mentioned and glanced at my lips.

“Where?” I eagerly asked him but his mouth hangs open. Kamuntik pa akong matawa sa expression ng mukha niya. He wasn’t expecting it.

“Where would you want it to land?”

All over my body.

Pinatulis ko lang ang bibig ko kaya yumuko siya saka umiling habang nangingiti. “Well then, come here now little brat.”

I never hesitated walking fast toward him in an instant. Gigil na yumakap ako sa kanya at saka ko sininghot ang dibdib niya. Jusko ko Mommy, ang bango niya!

“I love you.” I mumble.

“I love you more my one and only.” He plants a soft kiss on the top of my head and my heart thumps wildly when he props his forefinger under my chin and tilts it up.

Naningkit siya ng kaunti.

“I guess this traditional kiss won’t necessarily end, not until you aged 35.” He kisses the other corner of my lips and it makes me shiver.

Then, he moves on the other and it makes me wiggle. Susko. Mamamatay ako sa kilig.

Then at long last, he moves to the center and presses his lips against mine. Oh damn! I've watched lots of videos on how to kiss a man properly but why do my lips couldn’t even seem to move and copy those shorts in reality?

Nakakainis!

But it feels good. I mean, this feels great. At kapag may nagtangka na humalik sa bibig ko na ibang lalaki, ihanda niya ang itlog niya dahil sa kumukulong mantika ang uwi ng ballsy niya! Hmp! Para lang sa lalaking ito ang mga labi ko, at walang ibang pwedeng umangkin tulad ng kung paano ni Caine gawin.

Parang nakulangan pa ako nang umatras na ang ulo niya.

“Feel fine now?” he huskily asked.

I opened my eyes. Shit! Nakapikit pala ako. Parang namumula ang pisngi niya pero nangingiti naman siya.

“Pwede na.” I calmly said and he almost rolled his eyes.

“Abuso ka na. Torrid kissing isn’t good for you and me. You're like my daughter and so I know I’m like your father. Reserve it for your first boyfriend.”

“But you could be my teacher.” I wink at him and his eyes became too furious.

Tumalikod ako habang humagahikhik.

“Nassandra, be good.”

“Fine. Forget it, stoic grumpy old man!” I giggle again, “You’re so serious.”

Ansabe. Pero kung siniseryoso niya talaga, mas seryoso ako. Ang hirap nito. Hindi ako makabwelo dahil sa relasyon naming dalawa hindi pa man ako ipinanganganak sa mundong ito.