Chapter 43 (Let go)

Chapter 43

Astherielle's POV

After kong malaman na nakunan ako, para na rin akong namatay. The feeling of not knowing anymore what each breath is for, as if everything feels lifeless within me. There is not a day that goes by without me crying. There is not a day that passes without blaming myself for why he is gone. Walang pagkakataon man lang na malaman ko kung lalaki ba siya o babae.

But no matter how much it hurts to lose him, I feel annoyed that I still love his father. Pagkatapos ng lahat-lahat, mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya. The most painful thing is, despite the pain caused by his father, I still want him to know about him, that he exists, na nagkaroon kami ng siya...

Pero pina-check niya kung buntis ako o hindi. Sinabi niyang hindi ako buntis. O baka alam naman talaga niya pero dahil hindi pa siya handang maging ama, ayaw niya sa bata at abot-abot langit na galit niya sa akin at sa mga magulang ko, nagawa niyang magsinungaling.

So, bakit ko pa siya pupuntahan para mag-abalang