After going to the pharmacy for pills, pregnancy tests and candy for the road, we get on our way to camp. I'm so stressed and distressed I’m not even able to enjoy the company of Patricia, I just let her ramble the whole drive. "Okay, we're here..." Patricia mumbles, but suddenly I don't hear anything she says anymore because I see my father standing in the middle of camp next to General Thorne and other men. My heart stops.This is bad. This means my father knows what I did. And he's obviously not happy."Oh, no," I blurt out, "I'm dead.""Honey, I'm so sorry," my mother-in-law comforts me, putting a hand on my leg. I can't believe the General told my father about this. Who the hell does he think he is? I really fucking hate him.I know exactly what's going to happen now. I have long experience doing stupid things, that's why I'm here in the first place; but I have no idea if this time my dad will want to do something extreme to keep me in line like... kick me out of the house, dec
Today is my third day living on paste and my head hurts all the time. I think I've lost about five pounds and that's the only good thing I can say about it. I have not spoken to my father although I have seen him hanging around camp and watching what we are doing on several occasions. The General has been present every day, which has made Elliot and Luc even more demanding than before. We have had five punishments in these three days (none that I have earned) and things are more tense than ever. I haven't spoken to Elliot besides my usual complaints when he sets us to do some activity that I don't think is right and his usual curt replies, rude comments and 'constructive' criticism when I'm doing something wrong.My eyes close unconsciously and I am finally coming to deep sleep after overthinking for more than half an hour and thinking of impossible scenarios of when I leave this place. My body relaxes completely and I'm just about to fall asleep when I hear the window next to me s
Elliot pushes his plate away from him and puts his elbows on the table, covering his face with his hands and then grunts."Was it that horrible? I mean, I know it was fast and I fell asleep on you but, really, was it so horrible that I made you give up sex altogether? God, I feel worse than I did before," he moans, not looking at me, "And believe me, I felt bad enough as it was.""No, don't feel bad, I’m not lying. It's not all about you. It’s just... I just realized that having meaningless sex has never felt good. I know myself and I can't believe I just realized that I need to be intimate with someone who needs me, who loves me… someone who would literally die for me," I say with a sigh, “And I'm not saying I'll never touch a man again, I'm not a saint either. You know that.""Me?" he asks, playing with his food. I shake my head and he tries to smile futilely, "I get it."I don't think he gets it, in fact, he looks a little... disappointed? I don't know, I don't want to raise my hop
{ Elliot }I shouldn't have eaten so much. I realize this as I'm walking to my room because I don't feel very good. I'm in a cold sweat and my stomach feels tight, I don't know what's going on with me, but I don't like it.I enter my room slowly assuming my roommates are already asleep, but I find them lying on the floor chatting like a couple of gossip old ladies. These last few days Luc and I have created somewhat of a… friendship. After what we said to each other the day Angelique forced us to hug, I kind of stopped resenting him so much. Turns out I like him a lot better than I thought I would."How did it go with Miss Monroe?" Hunter asks as soon as I open the door. I give a prolonged grunt. I don't want to talk about it, "Hmmm, so it was bad… what went wrong?""Maybe Angie didn't forgive him for that quick knot?" Luc asks and my two so called 'friends' laugh at me. I regret telling them that, but I was in a state of maximum suffering and I needed to get it off my chest, "Come o
"It doesn't fill me with joy either, asshole," she spits furiously, "I don't know what happened, I felt absolutely nothing before, but today I woke up and... I can't stop being nauseous, my head hurts and I get dizzy if I stand still for too long. That's never happened to me before and those are pregnancy symptoms. So it's obvious.""But you're not sure? You didn't use one of those tests? And hasn't it only been a week?""Uh... I didn't use one of those," she replies, blinking, "But what else could it be? Come on, it's the only option, because some idiot fucking knotted me!""Shut up," I demand, my voice low and tight, "Someone might hear. Let's not lose our heads until we're sure, okay? I don't think it's even possible for you to be feeling pregnancy symptoms after a damn week. Tonight we'll go to the bathroom, you'll pee on that test and we'll be sure. Until then, we shouldn’t panic.""Why tonight? We should go right now and...""No. It’s too risky. The dad brigade is hanging around
{ Elliot }I was surprised that Angelique agreed to this, I was planning to beg and beg but I didn't think she was going to accept. Her response surprises me so much that for a few seconds I can't do anything but sit there accepting her kiss. When she bites down on my lip I come back to myself and I smile, because she said yes. I have a chance to redeem myself.I should take her to my room and make sure we're in a comfortable, clean place, but I can't find the power in me to separate my mouth from hers to say anything. I just close my eyes and let myself go with the flow. I don't even mind being here, anyway.As I lower my kisses down to her bare breasts, I remember that I'm getting close to a very sensitive part and that she's loud. Super loud. Which I love, but right now it's not safe at all. Apparently, she knows this, because when I start licking and playing with her nipples, she bites her lips and swallows any loud sounds that could get us into trouble."Where are you going?"
"Sir..." I start to speak, trying to fix the situation, "As Angelique said… she can have an abortion. I will pay for the best and safest doctor I can find and everything will go perfectly fine. There's nothing to worry about.""You're going to marry my girl even if I have to drag your unconscious body down the aisle," he orders harshly, pulling himself together. I blink and want to scream at him, ‘Fuck no! Not in a million years. I will never marry your fucking mess of a daughter. It's the last thing I would do’."I-if she's pregnant then we'll get married, sir. I promise," I lie flatly. For the first time in my life. It's a vile, vicious lie but I have to say it. This seems to calm him down a bit, but he's still clearly upset."Now, get back in there and clean up for you and my daughter while she goes to rest and think about the biggest stupidity she's ever committed. And I think you know the crazy amount of stupid things this girl has done."{ Angelique }Eva is laughing at me and
Elliot and Lesley greet each other like she just got back from war. She jumps on him and tangles the dry sticks she has for legs around Elliot's waist as he hugs her and twirls her around.Am I overreacting to this in my head, or is it really as dramatic as it looks? I mean, the whore has only been gone like two weeks, give or take. I honestly don't even know how long I've been here anymore. But I know for a fact this shouldn't be like this."Um, hi. I hate to interrupt this romantic encounter..." I murmur when I've had enough of their hug and their 'How are you?' 'I missed you so much' 'You look great'. Lesley finally looks up over Elliot's shoulder and sees me. Her eyes narrow for just a second and I realize then that she definitely likes Elliot.It was a guess before, but that look told me everything I needed to know. She's jealous, and so am I. But I don't want to fight for Elliot. It's not worth it. So I have nothing left to do but pretend I'm not interested at all.Elliot final