20. 99 Problems

Demetrius

Even though I assumed as much, the words still sting. I stand at her door after I walked out leaning my head against it contemplating if I should go back in and try to explain further, but then I hear what she said. She hates me. I shouldn’t be surprised. I’ve completely disrupted her life.

She’s right, it was selfish of me to take a piece of her only to reveal all of this after. I just wanted the experience to be innocent without any of the overbearing negativity of the truth. I wanted it to be special, to mean something. And to me it did… it still does. I thought so for her as well, but that may be ruined now.

Being with her had been better than I ever could have imagined, and I don’t regret it at all. I will accept the egomaniacal aspect of my actions. But knowing how she feels about me now, it bothers me, and I can feel the anger brewing inside again. This cursed life I’m forced to live once again has intruded upon any sort of complacency I felt. In that time that I was