It was one of those gorgeous days of May, a distant sun shimmering in a bright blue sky, a soft cool breeze. And Buenos Aires pandemonium all around. All of them took a moment to deplore they were in the middle of the city, instead of a beach by the lake or camping in the woods.
“But at least we’re all together,” said Miyen, raising his beer.
They all toasted to it, and then to Juan again.
A zillion people strolled down the park lanes among the stands offering crafts, clothing, food, books. The Cultural Center had some interesting expositions they meant to check on later. A couple of bands were getting ready to play at different corners of the park.
They’d picked a nice spot on the grass to lay Mika’s tablecloth, where they set all the food they’d brought to share. They were near the secondary gates of the Cultural Center, the traffic up and down Alvear Avenue roaring only forty feet away.
Silvia sat down between
Jim got on the bus and went to his usual seat, two rows behind the driver, by the window. He dropped his duffel bag on the seat by his and waited. Silvia got on with Jo, almost the last ones, and they stayed at the first seat. Jo held her small camera, and they looked completely absorbed in their conversation. Like they’d been since they’d gotten back from the park, talking about the best places to visit in the city.He tilted his head with a mild frown, studying her. How much longer would it take her to get over the night before? He knew it was as absurd as logical, but she was still trying to stomach that he hadn’t rejected her. So she’d retreated to some inner corner, trying to find a little balance to keep going.And in the meantime, she was being evasive to a cold extent. She’d gotten in the shower when he was still trying to get up, and had pretty much jumped out of it when he’d joined her. To leave the room without even lettin
Watching the concert from the stageside was safe and comfortable. They could sing, dance, take pictures or film, even have a beer or a snack while at it. But it only made Silvia, Claudia and Jo swear that they would be back to the pit against the fence the next night, because now they knew what they were missing from that nice comfy spot.Jim seemed to be especially inspired that night, driving the audience crazy to the extent of frenzy, and letting them infect him. He hardly played his guitar on the second half of the show. He surfed the crowd, walked among them, climbed up a sound column to dive into their eager hands, best Eddie Vedder’s style. And people touched him, held him up, kissed him, snatched his jacket, took his mittens away, ripped his tee off. Yet he still asked for more. So the crowd gave him more, and soon some were fighting with the security staff at the fence, trying to reach the stage to stand by his side.“He’s fucking wild tonigh
Jim locked the trailer and pushed Silvia against the cockpit door. She could see him shaking, and the violence blazing up in his eyes. She tried to keep calm. This was not Pat. It was Jim, it was her Jay. He was just intoxicated by all he’d taken in over those hours of fevered frenzy.But while she still tried to tell herself all that, he pinned her to the door and pressed his body against hers, kissing her roughly as his hands pulled her jacket open. She didn’t reject him, and tried to kiss him back despite the instinctive fear squeezing her belly. He yanked her jacket off.“D’you love it, bitch?” he snarled, taking a hand to her throat. “The crowd, the lights, the fucking minute of glory? D’you love breathing my air, bitch?”His other hand grabbed the collar of her top and pulled to rip it open, and that was just too much for her. That wasn’t about rough sex to burn out the overdrive. That was plain violenc
Maybe Jim had unwillingly killed her.Sean had heard noises like wrestling and things being smashed and shattered.Maybe Jim had pushed her too rough, she’d tripped and hit her head the wrong way. And right now, his brother was shocked before the dead body, not knowing what to do.Or maybe she had unwillingly killed Jim.She wouldn’t be the first woman to throw things at Jim during a fight. Maybe she’d hit him with something harder than she’d thought. And right now, she was shocked before Jim’s dead body, trying to come up with a way to escape before they caught her.Or maybe they had hurt each other, and now they were both lying on the floor, bleeding out, too stunned or too weak to ask for help or at least unlock the damned door.Or maybe…But Sean couldn’t think of any more tragedies to explain the silence inside the trailer.Shit! He should’ve known better. He shouldn’t
They walked down a maze of secondary corridors, Ron’s red tee a blurry beacon some thirty feet ahead. Finally in the open, they felt the cold night wind, not really registering the traffic lights and noises muffled in the distance. They were numb, lost inside themselves in some place where there was no room for questions or defined ideas.All of a sudden, they had this thing deep inside, a sensation like a rock, that didn’t ask for permission to exist—it just was. They followed Ron as they tried to adjust to this thing inside, so deeply rooted, still refusing to reveal its real shape, its meaning, its intentions.They still walked shoulder to shoulder, their arms stuck to each other, and the contact between them seemed to be the only real thing in that blurry night. It was the only way to keep walking. Stepping away from each other would have been like cutting off one of their own legs. They would have crumbled down wherever they were, forced to sit t
Breakfast didn’t come alone.Sean walked in on the heels of the guy pushing the tray into the suite. He nodded hi with his usual poker face and commented they had some interviews booked before going to the stadium.Jo came next, with the excuse of asking Sean something.Deborah was only third, to ask Jim if he wanted any particular place in the hotel for the interviews.Then it was Tom, looking for his green tennis.And Claudia to ask what plans her friend had for the day.When Walt and Liam dropped by to ask for directions to the spa, the population density in Jim’s suite made Calcutta look like the Asian branch of the Sahara.Jim and Silvia accepted the invasion like the most natural thing. He was wearing only his swimming trunks, and she wore one of his tees on her leggings, barefoot like him. They welcomed everybody with a calm smile from the table by the balcony, and the others couldn’t believe how fresh and coo
Silvia would’ve wished to go back to the full combo of fear and anxiety she knew so well, because the calm that filled her was somehow hard to bear. Nothing to do about it. She couldn’t help feeling contented.She had a great afternoon with Jo and Claudia, and they headed to the stadium at seven. They found the musicians hanging out around the catering tables, and Tom and Claudia were savvy enough to beat everybody to the new trailer and lock themselves up inside for a couple of hours, like they hadn’t spent the last three nights together.“Fuck. I wanted to take a nap!” Sean grumbled.“The dressing rooms, dude,” replied Jim.His brother shook his head, huffing. “No bunks, can’t you fucking believe it? And you know I hate sleeping on a couch.”“Hush, love,” whispered Jo in his ear. “They won’t take long and you’re lucky next.”Sean turned to her with one of his scary frowns, setting his jaw to keep himself from grinning and ruining his tough-guy persona.Jim and Silvia took a walk aro
Nobody would ever know what they did on their last night together.Those closer to them could only guess how many roofs they’d climbed, how many howls they’d cried to the moon, how many fences they’d jumped to make out and make love in how many public places. How many little bars they’d dropped by to ease their thirst. How many avenues they’d sprinted across with the green light, how many narrow cobblestone streets they’d run down.Side by side, hand in hand. Laughing, crying, singing.Jim and Silvia didn’t know for sure either.The last bar they visited closed and daylight seemed to set their eyes on fire when they went back out to the street. So they got a taxi and hurried back to Jim’s suite, to crash on the bed right as they were.When Silvia was able to squint around, about noon, she thought she should’ve kept track of the drinks they’d had, to keep from mixing so many.She pushed Jim’s arm aside, a dead weight across her chest, and the inertia made him roll over to lay flat on h