Chapter 2

Ana’s P.O.V.

                            

By the time my flight landed at the Birmingham airport, it was already evening. I had returned to Birmingham after a long journey. The vibrant airport of Birmingham was also boring to me. I was not ready for this mission. I wanted to run away, but all that was still going on in my mind, the hammer of Mark's words was piercing my mind. Today, for the first time, I felt trapped in a black hole. I wanted to run away from it all, but where?

I stood in front of the mirror for a long time and stared at myself. I saw my reflection in the mirror.

I am Ana Foster; an ordinary girl who lives in Spain. I was doing a Ph.D. in environmental science, but here my own environment was an illusion.  My parents were dead; Maha was my only sister who was married to a businessman. She lives there, in Birmingham, and she was the one who forced me to get engaged. Inspector Mark, my fiancé, was the agent of a secret agency who wanted me to fulfill this mission. In this mission, I had to pretend to be a prostitute to get information about a Mafia leader. There is a huge difference between university life and the life of prostitution. I hate this word, damn.

This was unbearable for me. I did a lot for him, but no, I couldn’t do it. I left him in anger and went there.

I was tired from running. I don't even remember the last night I slept soundly, and I needed a long rest where there was no one but me and my solitude.

I refreshed myself by throwing water on my face and then took a taxi from there to leave for home.

As soon as a person is born, the birth of desires also begins in his mind, which continues like breathing until the body and soul are separated. The reality of these colorful desires is always colorless, which is often. It also takes a dangerous turn in the lives of people related to us where it becomes impossible to take back the uterus and then we have to spend the rest of our life unwillingly on the same restless path for which neither we prepare ourselves nor our souls!!!

In no time, I was standing in front of her house, tiredly pushing my body; I went to the door and started knocking.

“Ana? Why are you here?” My sister ‘Maha’ opened the door and looked shocked to see me.

“Yes, my work is finished,” I said and looked at her shocked expression.

“I need some rest, please let me rest.” I wanted to go into a room and sleep.

“No you can’t stay here.” She didn’t let me enter. I was shocked to hear this.

Where can I go when I have no place here? After all, I also have a life that I have to live on my own account. How long will everyone use me??

“So where would I go?? You forced me here against my will by having false dreams so that you could use me for your business, but the whole game turned upside down, so how am I responsible for all this?” I looked at her stern behavior. She was my sister, my only relationship in this world. She always used me. She forcefully takes me there so that I can give her money by fulfilling Mark’s wish.

“You came here by refusing Mark and you think I will give you shelter? No, not at all. It is better for you to stay away from my life. I don’t want to see you.” She looked at me with disgust and pushed me to close the door. I barely managed to hold the door and stop it from closing. How could she insult me so easily?

“Your desires have made my life a torment and now you are tormenting me? You are a selfish sister. I left my studies and came here because you wanted me to get engaged with Mark to grab the money. I had a good life which you ruined so much because of your greed.” My eyes were full of tears. How could she become so cruel?

“Whatever, you must leave this house.” She slammed the door on my face. I was standing there helplessly. Where would I go now? I have no one in my life. I turned around and started walking on the road.

 My life trapped in the swamp of the black hole was getting confused every moment, even though my body was tired, but despite that, I kept walking.

Every relationship in the world is just a lie that we give ourselves. We should free ourselves from all relationships and responsibilities. This isolated life is as calm as a lake. People come and throw stones at it and leave. But no one cares about it. It doesn't matter because it is lost in its own wave, independent of all these things.

I was sitting on the footpath on the side of a road, lost in the windows of the past. Today, after being kicked out, I thought of Mark’s offer for the first time. I wanted to be cruel in this world.

He always used me for his purpose. He was the agent of a secret agency. He gave me a task to get any enemy’s sensitive information, to get close to his target and such small tasks. But this time he wanted me to play the role of a prostitute. This was a dangerous task. I left him and came here to get refuge but I was reprimanded. I had no one to support me. I was alone and I had to fight this battle alone.

After thinking the whole night, sitting alone on the road on a cold night, I took out my phone and called Mark. I was about to accept this offer.

I, once again, was ready to be a toy in his hands.

But this time the chessboard would be mine. If I lose myself, I will not let anyone else win.