We were silent for a while before he started.“One of the nannies at the orphanage did it to me every time she fucked me.”My soul seemed forcibly pulled out of my body; I swallowed my saliva roughly, and his arm around me tightened even more. That fact was like the wind in winter and formed sharp, pointed ice crystals piercing my scalp.“I was nine years old at the time and it went on for two years, until I finally ran away from the orphanage and met Ramia.”My heart fell apart at my feet, oh, my God! How could a child like him experience such a tragic thing?? Tears gathered quickly in my eyes.“A friend of mine who also lives in the orphanage told Ramia about what I experienced while at the orphanage and the treatment I got from my nanny who turned out to be pedophilic, at that time I decided to run away after she whipped me for refusing to satisfy her.”My senses and Inner Goddess were mute; tears started to roll down my face and wet my pillow as well, trying my best not to make a
Sean was on the phone on the living room balcony while I was busy preparing breakfast in the kitchen. I was baking bread when suddenly morning sickness attacked me. I turned off the stove and then shifted to the sink. Sean’s hands immediately massaged the nape of my neck while I was still vomiting in the sink. I straightened my body when the nausea was gone. Sean was standing before me, his gaze serious and careful, dammit! Maybe it’s time.After our hot shower a while ago, we dressed and headed to the kitchen for breakfast. Still, I wasn’t planning on starting this conversation.“Is there something you didn’t tell me?”My hands rested on the edge of the sink. I nodded while looking down, mentally steeling myself to say this. My Inner Goddess squeezed the bottom of her dress, her expression tense.“I’m pregnant,” I said, then raised my face to look at Sean. He was shocked, and his golden net seemed to harden; the next second, he turned away from me while combing his hair; he cursed an
Ronald went to the kitchen to get a snack. While I turned on the television, my cell phone, which I placed on the table before me, rang, showing a foreign number. When I was about to answer, the ringing stopped; I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly and then put the thing back in its original place. Ronald brought me a potato chip snack with barbecue seasoning, a cola drink, and canned orange juice. We watched a replay of Roger Federer's match at Wimbledon, which had just ended in England. Caroline came with Andrew an hour later, the couple joining us in the living room."Where's Sean?"Caroline looked at me with a curious, questioning look. I put the potato chips in my mouth while shrugging my shoulders. I wasn't in the mood to care about her. Caroline stared at me with narrowed eyes as I glanced at her before returning to the broadcast of the tennis match that was still happening. Ronald didn't seem to care; he was focused on watching the game. I went from the living room to the kitc
When I woke up on Monday morning, the room seemed deserted; Sean’s side of the bed was empty, leaving me alone on the bed. I closed my eyes, feeling disappointed; why is Sean behaving like this?? The disappointment needle stabbed more deeply into my heart, and it hurt. I got up, got out of bed, and rushed to shower. After that, I dressed, wearing black mesh stockings with a coat the same color as my stockings, a belt around my waist, and maroon ankle boots. I pulled my hair up slightly, then grabbed my handbag, the same color as my shoes. Sean came in when I was ready. I bowed and then walked away, but he grabbed my arm as I was about to pass him.“Change your stockings,” he ordered, which I immediately rewarded with a look of surprise and protest.“No, I’m leaving now,” I said and tried to let go of his grip on my arm, but he strengthened it.“I won’t let you out until you change your stockings.”I chuckle while rolling my eyes. Are we going to argue about stockings now?? Oh, Lord! I
“You keep your distance,” I began, my eyes staring at the thick carpet covering the floor of this room when Sean breathed heavily.“Why are you doing this???” he asked, which made me look at him in disbelief. He’s still blaming me, damn Thanos and his infinity gauntlet.“Am I the only one to blame for this pregnancy? You’re selfish, Sean, this pregnancy happened not only because of me but also because of you!!”I’m angry and sad at the same time. Can’t Sean see this as something we do together?? Wasn’t it someone’s fault?? We stared at each other silently, his jaw clenched as he let out a sharp breath.“Can’t you be open minded??”“Open?? Look at me, Ariana, do I deserve to be a father figure?? Will the child accept a father like me??”The question took me aback; I now understand that attitude again. I chuckled and then snorted. My Inner Goddess’s shield felt like it was hit by a big club, causing a loud thud, and the vibrations spread throughout my nerves.“Until when are you going t
Sean and I sat on the sofa in front of the television, watching a cartoon called Trolls after Renata left five minutes ago. She wanted to move the broadcast, but I insisted she didn’t. I love seeing those colorful mini creatures. I think they are soft and adorable. I lay on the sofa cushions on Sean’s lap. I couldn’t take my eyes off the film. I felt Sean move; when I turned my attention to him, he seemed to fall asleep with his head on the top of the sofa.I slowly got up, removed the pillow from his lap, and leaned closer to him, looking at his sleeping face. He is very handsome. His face is very thick with the typical face of Middle Eastern men: thick eyebrows, sharp nose, firm jaw, and sharp but seductive eyes. Don’t forget those sexy red lips. I’m admiring my husband, and it’s like a sin, but I want to do it. I touched his jaw, which was covered with fine hair, feeling rough because my touch stopped on his chin under his lips after shaving. The chewy thing was as tempting as a st
“People will leave but the memories will stay.”Author POVWhile clutching the graveyard that had just buried the person she loved most, Ariana stared at the tombstone bearing her mother’s name. He gently caressed the tombstone’s surface engraved with the name of the figure who had given her a love she had never counted. Her lips showed a smile as if she looked strong and determined to accept this fact, but deep inside her, that emptiness occupied one of the spaces in her heart, a space that her mother’s love had filled.Ariana left the funeral after saying goodbye to her mother’s grave; her husband Sean, faithfully accompanying her, strengthened her and became her support. They immediately headed to her mother’s house, Ariana’s old house, where all the memories of some of the life she lived with her mother dwelled. When Ariana and Sean arrived at the house, the guests who came gave hugs and condolences to Ariana. After that, she rushed to her mother’s room.The room seemed empty with
It is progress; should we consult Merlin’s doctor before we leave?? My senses raised a brow approving the idea, while my Inner Goddess shrugged her shoulders with her ‘Whatever’ expression.“Shouldn’t we see Doctor Merlin before we go?” I suggested, and he paused momentarily before nodding in the affirmative. I smiled weakly, and then his lips fell on mine. We kissed softly and unhurriedly and stopped when our lungs felt like running out of oxygen.“You are everything to me, Ariana; you are my love, my life, my passion, and all the things I need in this world; you are my new hope,” he said, which made his golden eyes glow with the love and joy he had for me.“You are also my new hope,” I replied with a smile; he was also my everything; we were sewn like a cloth, and he was like my sun and moon, my day and night, my spring and winter. Everything feels like spring, lovely, warm, and bright when I’m with him, but when he’s not with me, the world is cold and dark without the sun.“I want