Chapter 11

I had five days.

Five days until Kenny and I went to see a fertility specialist. I had heard Kenny scheduled an appointment a week ago. To say I was freaking out was an understatement. The thought of going to the appointment had my heart racing. Then my racing heart would trigger small panic attacks. Luckily, most occurred when Kenny wasn't home. They mainly happened when I had nothing to do except listen to my thoughts. I hardly slept and ate less than I usually did out of anxiety. I was trying to remain calm and happy on the outside. But inside of me, I felt uneasy and, albeit, guilty.

I spent most of my thoughts thinking about having a child with Kenny. Whether he would find out about my secret stash of plan B pills, or he would find out I cheated by kissing a stranger. He would only know if he suspected something or found the note Nicholas had given me. The note I carried with me, everywhere. As foolish as it sounds, I had nowhere else to put it. I wanted to call him, but at the s