CHAPTER 37

I sighed, darkness engulfing me with it seeming as if I was in a cloud where I could not get out. Panic set in as I groaned, my head turning, wanting to part from the darkness but it seemed to cling to me like a child clings to her mother.

Everything hurt, every part of me hurt and confusion only made it worse. So many emotions coursed through me yet one was strong and apparent—loss. A tear slipped past my eye with everything crushing back. I groaned, turning to my side as the pain came hitting me like a brick on the face. The pain was so much I could not breathe, my body shook so bad with my arms wrapped around my frail body. I did not know where I was, did not know what happened yet it was clear as day that my baby was no longer with us.

A hole was in my chest, a hole getting bigger and bigger every time I took a breath. I felt empty and torn, everything was so gray it had me cry in the pillow that my head lay in. My mind could not wrap itself around the fact of what had happened,