"Is that your baby?" He says picking my phone up so he can have a closer look.
"Yes." I say and he smiles looking at her. "She's gorgeous." He says looking at me and then at the picture. "Thank you. I had help." I say and he swipes left landing on Kane's picture. "I see."He says swiping back to the previous picture. "Is it weird that I don't like him?" He asks and scoffs as soon as the words come out of his mouth. "I think you know the answer to that question," I say hating this whole day already. Who's bright idea was it for me to come here in the first place? Oh yeah. My baby daddy."The thing is..." He says and I sigh. I don't know if I want to hear this. I came here to relax, get a few knots out of my body and then go home. I didn't come here for the godown memory lane with my ex package. The worst thing is I'm too nice to tell him to F off. I can't do that to him even though he deserves it. "I know he's a grThomas is sitting on the chair next to mine as we get foot massages. I close my eyes and lean back. I refuse to let this day go to waste. I choose to enjoy."So are you happy with him?" Thomas says choosing to take away from joy. "Yes." I say and he sighs making me look at him. "What does that mean?" I ask too shocked to ignore him. "I was hoping you don't like him so much." He says staring at me. "A guy can dream right?" He asks and I sigh."No, you can't" I say and he frowns. "Look, I messed up and...." He says and I raise .my hand to stop him'"I don't want to talk about this with you. There's no point in us rehashing old things." I say speaking softly so the lady doing my feet. doesn't feel uncomfortable. I can't do much about her overhearing but I can make sure she doesn't feel uncomfortable. "Shalom I just want closure." He says and it takes so much for me not to laugh out loud. Closure? Where was closure when he left me brokenhearted? It didn't matter then did it? Now that
An hour later our group is sitting in the spa gardening enjoying a refreshing drink while we wait for our next treatment. Thomas comes to sit opposite me and he sits silent. The minutes tick away and I can hear him sigh with every silent second. I sit there and say a little prayer so this hell I'm in will end."Are you going to say whatever it is you want to say or am I going to have to listen to you sigh the whole time?" I ask unable to listen to his breathing anymore. This is not peaceful at all."The only thing I want to talk about is the past and since you are not really into that ." He says and he smiles."Why do you want to talk about anything at all?" I ask and he frowns. "I remember a time when you didn't want to talk at all," I say and pain hits my heart. I don't want to back to that place anymore. A place where I felt like I was not worthy of someone who actually wanted to spend time with me."It was a different time
"You chose to leave.""I know." He says in answer."I tried to make it work. I tried to make you understand." I say feeling myself getting angry. I loved him, I wanted to be with him. It was hard to let him go. He made the choice for me, there was no way I would leave my mother alone."I'm sorry." He says sounding so deflated."Your sorry is a little too late. It won't do anything for me right now." I say trying to make him understand how unnecessary this conversation is. "There was a time when I needed it. A time when I felt worthless." I say looking him in the eyes to make sure he hears me and processes what I am telling him."But I healed by myself. I pulled myself out of all the hurt, doubt and fear." I add and he sucks his teeth."I have to admit it hurts hearing you say that." He says his voice low. "I know I fucked up but hearing you say it makes it even harder." He adds and I stare at him not sure what to say.
It's early evening when I walk into our bedroom. Shalom is lying in bed looking gorgeous. It still blows my mind that I come home to this woman. I am in awe of her beauty every single day."How was your day?" I ask walking to her side of the bed. I kiss her on her forehead and take a moment to look at her. Her eyes have this sparkle about them. I recognize the look in her eyes because I have the same look when I look at her. "It was interesting." She says kissing me on the lips. She places her hand on my cheek and brushes it slowly."How so?" I ask moving to sit next to her."I ran into Thomas at the spa." She says and I feel the air leave my lungs in a woosh. That's not the answer I was looking for. I expected her to say that she had the best time of her life and she wants to make this a regular thing. I didn't expect exes to come into the picture."You had a massage together?" I ask and hear the tone of my voice the
I watch the sunrise and smile. I reach out to the sideandmy hand touches Kane's bare skin. He'sfullynaked, lying on his back and his entire body on display. I raise my head so I can see his cock between his legs."You like what you see?" He askscatchingme in the act. I groansadI don't have longer tojustlook at him. I love looking at every inch of him each morning. He's a beautiful man with
Hey, I know it's been a while since we talked but can we meet up?- Olive Is the text she sent me a week a and here I am sitting in a cafe waiting for her to arrive. A part of me doesn't want to be here but I couldn't ignore her. And Shalom said I should come here and hear her out. The last time we saw each other she didn't have the best things to say about me. But to be fair I dropped a huge bomb on her. I called off our engagement and told her I was getting back together with my ex. And let's not forget the fact that I got said ex-pregnant while our thing was still up in the air. So yeah maybe the reason I don't want to see her is because I know I fucked up with her and I don't want to face the truth. "Hi," Olive says walking up to the table. I get up to greet her. We hug for a second she gives me a kiss on the cheek. When we let go I pull the chair out for her and she sits down as I softly push the chair in.&nbs
"Are you going to lie to me?" She asks when I hesitate to."Ican't" I say honestly and she sucks in her teeth."Seeing you love her makes me hate her so much." She says giving me her dose of honesty. "I know it's not her fault but I hate her." She adds and I move uncomfortably in my chair."It's my fault. She doesn't deserve the hate." I say and she rolls her eyes at me. "I'm the one that broke promises I made toyou." I say and she stares at me. Then she smiles."I loved you." She says blinking at me a few times. "I still love you." She says and my heart s
"I came to tell you that I moved to Joburg." She says and I stare at her confused. Why did she do that? She loves being in Cape Town, I didn't think she would move fo far from her parents. Especially when she hasn't been back home that long. "Idin'twant it to be weird when we run into each other at the hospital." She says and I nod.I don't think it would have been weird but I get why she wanted to give me a warning. She didn't want to come to work unprepared."What did your mother say about you moving this side?" I ask and she smiles a little."She hates it." She says and I nod already imagining the conversation they had. "She thinks I'm doing this because I want to convince you to tak