ALIVE

It has been exactly one week since the unexpected turn of events on what was supposed to be my wedding day.

Everyone had been worried, but I wasn't in the mood to pick up any of their calls, only sending a few texts assuring Alice and my parents that I was okay.

I felt awkward talking to Brielle now, especially after what Gabe tried to do a few days back.

I didn't go to work, I rarely stepped outside except at night to get some basic needs... my daily routine had become a depressing bore of me spending long hours on the couch watching TV.

My mind was slipping away, I could feel it. The feeling of hopelessness, the finding peace in solitude and isolation while also feeling like the world had turned its back on me. I felt alone.

Today, I went through some of the stuff that I'd managed to smuggle out of Gran Gran's place. Most of it was stuff from my college days, but some was also stuff that reminded me of Shawn.

Amongst those things, was a videotape, containing clips of special mo