Insanity.If there is one word that could describe that night, it would be that word. I could not believe that I had actually brought myself to do that with Lucius. I gave in. I gave my virtue to him and I could not believe that I really did that. Even when I was with Simon, we never came to that point. Or maybe Simon had just amazing self-control to step over his limits. And it was different with him before because I was a fragile werewolf and he needed to be careful.But then, it was also different with Lucius, a lot different because in the first place, I had no feelings for him. I did not love him the way how I loved Simon before. So what the hell pushed me to throw all my inhibitions away and go with the flow. It is very obvious that Lucius just wants to play. Of course what else could be the reason why he did that? It is impossible that he developed some kind of feelings for me in those couple of weeks. And Lucius is certainly not the 'falling' type. I even doubt if he had a his
To feel that kind of potent need was strange and dangerous. The moment I smelled the luscious scent of the human's soul, I was so certain that there was no stopping for me. That it was either he would die or I would. The latter sounds impossible, though. So I knew that the first was more likely to happen.But for some reason, I don't know how Lucius managed to stopped me. I don't know how he managed to calm me at a point where I thought I had lost my ability to be rational. He was able to put out the fire that he knew would cause the biggest regret of my life. And more than thankful that he did. Because I don't know what I could have done to myself later on if ever I had killed that man.The door opened and it was followed by Lucius's baritone voice. "Had you completely calmed yet?"During the incident in the hallway earlier, after I came back to my senses, I ran to the other side where the man was standing and went to the farthest side of the building and entered an empty room. I don
"I have an urgent news, Alpha Lucius,” Henry just suddenly appeared from the shadows when Lucius and I were walking at his manor's hallway. We are about to leave for the ball."Is this matter very urgent?" Lucius asked, his hand did not leave my waist."I suppose.""Speak.""Sebastian is gone."Lucius's eyes went focused and darker. "What do you mean he is gone?""He is dead, Alpha.”I have once met this man named Sebastian. He is also one of the few trusted subordinates of Lucius that is why to hear about his sudden death did not sound good. In fact, I wonder. Werewolves don't die in natural deaths, most especially not in accidents. So, there must be one reason why he died—he was killed."Who killed him?" Lucius's tone sound so silent and lethal, I felt like he is ready to burn the culprit alive for killing his subordinate. Of course, Lucius is not dumb. By now he surely has an idea why Sebastian was killed. It must be to provoke him.I really have no idea how many enemies do Lucius
"What is this?" I asked Lucius when he brought me to an old manor somewhere in north Manchester.Right after he had killed Maximilian, he killed his two wives and Maximilian's people were killed by Henry and Lucius's other men. We left the place shortly. Then the day after, Lucius brought me in this place with me having no idea what business are we going to do in this place."Your ancestor's manor. This is owned by Elena Ross, the mother of Elizabeth," Lucius replied."Elena Ross? The name doesn't ring a bell. As far as I know, Grandma Elizabeth's mother named Celestine, not Elena.""Celestine…" He nodded. "Must be the name she used when she started a new life with her husband.""You mean she changed her name? But what for?" If it was Lucius the one who said it, I'm sure it is not a fallacy or something. I don't know why it come to him; I trust easily. Why would he lie about this matter anyway?"Follow me," Lucius said and walked inside the manor.I followed him and saw that the insid
Before I could give any reaction, Lucius kissed me again. He sucked on my lip, and just like a slave ruled by his master, my lip spontaneously opened. He gave me hard and unforgiving kisses. His arm was tight around my waist, while his other hand was on my nape, pulling it gently so I could open my mouth better for his deeper kiss.I was so close to his arm. I equaled his hot kisses with mine. His lips followed a provocative rhythm, kissing me in a skillful way, as if he had long mastered this art. I didn't know that just a kiss could get rid of guilt. This is it.So I was still very drunk when he withdrew the kiss. I catch my breath. He looked at me with dark weary eyes, lips parting a bit.I almost shivered when his hand touched my waist. Every flick of his tongue was full of ardor. I was so close to his shoulder when he lifted me and put me down to the lawn beside the glistening river.Crouching in front of me like a dominant hunter ready to end his long famine, he pulled my nape a
"Kill her."When I heard that familiar voice, I opened my eyes at once. There were men in front of me, their eyes glowing gold. Werewolves. They looked at me as though they are ready to kill me. I felt nervous but the nervousness I was feeling faded when I saw who was standing a few steps behind the vampire men in front of me.It was Simon.His eyes were also glowing gold. but it looked very cold. His face was emotionless and dark. And the way he looked at me… it was as if he was looking at someone he loathed, someone he had never had feelings with, someone he didn't share memories with. The look was full of indifference and nothing else. It felt like he was looking at someone not important, someone who was never been a vital part of his life.It hurt. But somehow, the pain I felt wasn't as potent as the pain I felt when he left me back when I was still a human. It was just a tinge, and I wonder why. I still feel pain but compared to how I felt before, why do I feel like it's nothing?
When the helicopter landed in the island, I was in awe. There is no doubt that the place is amazing. The white sand, the crystal-clear waters, even the manor beyond the coast looked magnificent. I had already forgotten how it feels to be in such place, to enjoy nature and not worry anything else. I forgot that feeling, but now I do feel like it is coming back. I don't know why with Lucius I'm starting to feel at ease despite everything that happened to me. It's not good news considering what kind of person he is.Lucius is certainly not the type of person who would have that kind affection to someone. He is self-centered. He only thinks about his own business and what can benefit him. It's not bad to be self-centered, right. I'm just stating because people like him tend to view love as nothing but trash. Not that I love him. I don't love Lucius. It's just, I got a little weird feeling for him that I'm worried of."What do you think about the place, Maddy? Isn't it beautiful?" Lucius a
I honestly couldn't believe it. I know that whatever I feel for Lucius right now is way far from what I felt for Simon before. But am I really capable of loving someone like that again after such disastrous heartbreak? I thought I couldn't. I thought I wouldn't be able to. But why do I am starting to feel different whenever I'm with Lucius? What are these strange yet wonderful feelings? Why can't I stop myself every time he touches and kisses me?It's not because we have been sleeping together. It is not mainly because of our physical relationship. I don't know when it started or how, but I just realized one day that I feel that kind of weird feelings for him. I know it is the thing I should have avoided in the first place, but what can I do with what I am feeling for him? I don't think I can just get it away from me. I don't think I just can forget this feeling at once. I refuse to say that I love him… but thinking of about losing him… why does it hurts so bad? Why do I feel like I c