Pain

I HAD the best Tuesday morning ever. After spending my weekend and my Monday with Zach, it felt like I was refreshed.

Maganda ang naging gising ko at sa totoo lang, hindi na mapigtal ang ngiti ko. I am just so happy that I had that mini-vacation with Zach. That's what I need to relieve myself from stress and doubts about my relationship with Zach.

He assured me— good enough to hold on.

Tanga.

I said that to myself right after Zach left me earlier, in the middle of the dawn, to go back to Joven.

He left me again but still I was happy— because we sneaked out. The satisfaction that I had Zach behind Joven's back was greater than the fact that Zach had to come back to her.

Right now, it's either my rationale wasn't working anymore or I was simply head-over-heels to Zach that I let him have his way.

Oo. May mga tangang babae sa pag-ibig at isa ako ro'n. Zach was like an addiction— cigarette, alcohol or drugs— the more I try to stop it, the more I crave for it.

Alam kong mali. Alam