"No matter how life drained your energy, I want you to be strong and brave. " Lilie It's Mom's last day today at our house, tomorrow we will bury her. Many were shocked and hurt by her sudden demise. But no one would be sadder and more unbearable to me, when she disappeared I felt like I was dead too. Many have empathized with Mom's last day. My uncles and aunts are here from far and wide. The rest of them are from another country and have returned to the Philippines. When I got to the hospital, Mom was already in the morgue. Aunt Ella told me everything. She allegedly went to our house, she did several calls to our house, but no one answered her until she went to my Mom's room. And she found out that my Mom is lying down and bathing in her blood. Tita also explained to me that Mom was dead on arrival and begged to be revived, but the doctors had nothing to do. As I stared at her casket. I went back to remembering how I had seen her cold body. I rush
TRIGGER WARNING! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! "Everything happens for a reason." Lilie I enjoy the environment and the air that blows into my body causing my hair to swell as well. I held the flowers I could see and passed them on my palms. I just smiled because this feeling is soothing. There was a woman behind me and even behind her, I knew who she was. I walked closer to her until my pace turned quickly and when I got close to her, she unexpectedly disappeared like a bubble. I wakened because of my dream. I was alarmed and looked around the four corners of my room and wondered if she was there. I just shut down my eyes and let my tears flow at the same time I smiled painfully. It's just a dream. With each passing day, I feel like I don't want to wake up. Because in my dream, I was with my Mom but when I woke up she was gone, back to normal again. Each day I feel more and more alone in life. Dreaming is better than reality. Every day that ope
TRIGGER WARNING! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!"Some people will not hurt you, you just need to trust them." Someone POV As I drove I sometimes looked at the woman lying next to me. The woman was almost dull because of the blood flowing to the side of her waist. While my voice was nervous while talking to Elise. "Elise ... damn, I need your help. I found a girl," I said nervously on the other line so she started screaming. I want to take the cellphone away from my ear because I can hear her audible screaming. "For you?" I closed my eyes in great annoyance when I heard Elise answer me. Fuck! This is not the right time for a joke. "Fuck, no! She's bleeding!" "Oh my gosh! What did you do to her? Did the two of you ---" I did not finish what she was going to say when I shouted again on the other line. I knew immediately what was on her mind. "Bullshit! This is not the right time for the two of us to joke! She's bleeding and I don't know why. If she was stabbe
TRIGGER WARNING! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!"There's hope after the pain." Third Person Lilie woke up to the darkness that opened her up causing her to be even more nervous and her hand to tremble. She did not realize that there were tears in her eyes, she just let them go and did not wipe them. She was even more scared because she did not know where she was now. Whether she is safe here or trustworthy who is the one who took her. She wants to run away, she wants to hide and not just live here on earth. She did not know what she had done wrong to make the world do this to her. She dreamed again of what had happened to her a few weeks ago. She felt that the man was just around here and ready to do what was done to her again. The girl just pulled her hair and grip it tightly, she did not know what to do. She is scared. She wants to forget everything, but how? She just screamed when someone held her hand causing him to tremble even more and her fear preva
"You're not useless." Lilie I do not know why I am still alive, and how many times have I tried to end my life. But here I am, eyes wide open and crying again. I looked at my wrist when I saw that it had a bandage again. I remember what happened last night and just laughed. Why every time I hurt myself he is always there for me. He was there to save me. Isn't he tired? Isn't he exhausted? Doesn't he get angry every time I push him away from me? Isn't he irritated? I don’t know why he does all this even though he doesn’t know me? I don't even know his name. I slowly stepped on the floor and went to the bathroom to look at myself again. I slowly faced myself in the mirror and was just stunned. I could see the big change in me, from the face to the body I lost. I feel, that with each passing day I become a burden to the people who helped me. I feel worthless, useless to the world. I feel, I just wasted their time and time with me, their hours that th
"It's okay to cry, Darling."Lilie I hate myself. I feel that no matter what I do to bathe or rub my body, his hands are still here. His hands I do not want to feel his hold. I don't like this anymore. With each passing day, I only become more and more self-loathing. This is how I always feel about myself. Disgust, anger, all I can do is hate myself, even more "I'm disgusting, I'm disgusting," I whispered repeatedly while punching myself. I hurt every part of my body. I just want to be numb. "No one will accept you, no one will love you, Lilie. No one will accept my whole being because I am dirty," I sobbed and I strengthened my punch even harder. "Hey," someone called me but I didn't look at him because I already knew who he was. The man never tires of me. "Don't call yourself worthless, don't hurt yourself, please," he pleaded. I stepped away and wrapped myself in a blanket as he leaned over me. "Who will accept me?" I whispered. I just stare
"There's someone who will fall for you even though you're not perfect."LucasI awakened to the sound of my cellphone. So frowning I took it to the side table and answered."Lucas!" I kept the cellphone away from my ear because my younger sister suddenly shouted on the other line."What the hell, Julie! What do you need?!" I shouted angrily while lying on my bed."Pick me up." I frowned at what she said. Maybe, she's just tripped me up. So even though my sleep was interrupted, I still rode her in her nonsense."What? to fetch you? Are you in America, right? Shall I fetch you there?!" I asked sarcastically."No, I'm here in the Philippines now and at the airport. So hurry up and don't slow down! Get me here, I'm so bored, duh!" She shouted at me and turned off the call.I was just shaken by my sister's behavior, you thought she was the eldest of the two of us. When I looked at the clock it was five o'clock so I frowned and got up and took a shower.
"There's nothing wrong if you forgive someone that you love."Lilie"Ocean of thought," I said to Julie and leaned over her so she looked at me and smiled."Too deep I don't know if I can get up again," she replied to me and continued again. "Lilie, what if you saw the person you loved again?""Ah, smiled at him?" I winced at my answer. I didn't know what to do so she laughed."I'm just kidding, can you forgive the person who left you?" I was stunned by her question. I remember someone who left us just for her mistress. The only person I want to forget but I can't. My father."For me ... it depends on you whether you can forgive him or not. But of course, find out first why that person left you. Maybe he has a big reason after all," I just said so she nodded. We watched Elise suddenly appear in front of us and sit down."It also depends on you, Julie. You are a lady now, you're not a kid anymore, your mind is wide. So you already know what is right and w