I am nervous and tense as fvck while waiting for Vraxx's parents to arrive. Kaya nang malaman na nandyan na sila sa baba, atsaka pa lamang ako kumalma. After I learned that his Parents are coming today, hindi na ako napakali pa simula nang sabihin niya iyon kahapon.
I wore a black turtle neck top and denim short shorts. Disente, kaysa sa palagi kong suot. My parents and my relatives taught us a proper etiquette on how to deal with some visitors in our house. Kabilang na roon ang damit na isusuot sa tuwing tatanggap ng bisita.
Because of my premature principles, following that kind of manner was a bit hard for me. Syempre ay hindi ako ganoon kakumportable na sumalungat sa sariling persepsiyon. I only know how to follow my own rules.
But now that I needed to get along with Vraxx's parents, siguro ay kakailanganin ko na munang isantabi pansamantala ang sariling opinyon. I don't want to impress nor please his Parents, but I
I am the Apprentice of the next Commander. Meaning, the next higher position after the Commander. Even me, myself doesn't know why my Uncle, the current Commander picked me as the Apprentice of his son, Kenzie. Masyadong mataas ang posisyon na iyon, at ang mapasabak o maisalang sa isang nakakalulang posisyon ay masyadong nakakapag pakaba sa akin. I don't know if I am good at all. Usually, female and women in the Organization always belittled by the Agents men. Masyadong nakakatapak ng pagkababae at pagkatao ang mga kalalakihan lalo na't pag dating sa pakikipaglaban. They always see us, women, as an ex baggage. Gender inequality indeed. I am so tired of hearing some shits about the gender roles in our society. They will say you are a man, so you should be like this, you should do this. You're a woman, so don't do this thing, you should only do this, hanggang dito ka lang at hindi ka maaaring lumapas doo
We're currently here at our Mansion to talk to my Parents, but it didn't went good. Nadatnan pa namin silang nagfu-food tasting at nag titingin ng mga bulaklak na maaaring gamitin sa kasal ko. Kasal ko. Fuck. The thought of it makes me cringe and grimaced in disapproval. Hindi pa rin nag babago ang isip ko. I am certain that my mind would never change just because I already let them did this to me. Hindi ko man sila tuluyang mapigilan, then so be it. Huwag lang nila akong itatakwil kung may hindi maganda akong gagawin sa magiging pamilya ko kapag nagkataon. They already knew in the first place that I never liked this idea. Kailanman ay hindi ko gugustuhin ito. "I like these flowers," Harriet pointed at the black roses on the brochure. Hinablot ko iyon sa kanya para ako ang mag hanap ng kung anong matipuhan at pumasok sa panlasa ko. My brow keep on curling in disgust. "You don't really
Umawang ang labi ko habang uhaw na nakatitig sa labi niya. This is actually the first time that I feel so thirsty for someone's lips. I've never been kissed before. Kabilang iyon sa mga prinsipyo na ayaw ko talagang tibagin at baliin sa akin. I would never let someone pleasure me. I can do it on my own, but now.. while looking and staring at Vraxx's reddish and wet parted lips, makes me want to break my own principles. What the hell? Kailan pa iyon pumasok sa isip ko? I swallowed hard and gathered myself up. Hindi napawi ang ngisi niya, dahilan para mas lalong mag wala ang natatarantang puso ko. "I'm waiting Xiania," he wryly chuckle. I unconsciously licked my lips, sinundan iyon ng paningin niya kaya't mas lalo akong kinilabutan. The atmosphere inside my room feels hot and heavy at the same time. What is this feeling? This is not me, Xiania umaayos ka. My teeth keep
After that freaking dry humping with Vraxx Caldwell, nabuhay na yata ang katawang lupa ko.I know that I never had a not so active sex life. What I did for the past years are nothing compared to what we did yesterday, though it was just a simulate sexual intercourse together, but it literally made me insane to the point that until in my dreams and even in my imaginations, his touch, kisses and moves are still there.I couldn't take it off from my mind. Paulit ulit na parang sirang plaka iyon na nagpe-play sa utak ko. It's really driving me crazy. Umaabot pa sa punto na kapag titingin ako sa kanya ay iyon na kaagad ang maaalala ko.Fuck, so pervert of me!"Your thoughts are too deep, Xiania. Miss mo na ba si Vraxx?" I just got back from my reverie when I heard Ira's voice.She is wearing her usual oversized shirt and denim shorts. Kung ako ay puros revealing ang suot, siya naman ay terno. K
"Okay, I understand." That's what he have said after I talked to him last night. Ngayon, tanghali na ngunit hindi pa rin ako nakaka tanggap ng panibagong tawag o text man lang galing sa kanya. It's not like that I'm waiting for it, though. "New mission, Xiania..." Kenzie began after I answered his sudden call. Napaahon ako sa gulat at nakatuwid na umupo sa sofa sa sala. My eyes widened a bit. I didn't expect that. "P-pwede na ako ulit?" I almost raised my voice because of excitement that spreading inside me. I heard my cousin's chuckle. "Yes, though mabilis lang 'to, but I know you will like this. Ganito mga gusto mong misyon eh," makahulugan niyang sabi. My brow lifted up. "Does the Commander know this?" I just wanna make sure, ilang beses inulit sa akin ni Tito Harry na hindi pa kami maaaring sumabak muli sa anumang nangyayari sa Organisa
I almost passed out while heading back towards our suite. My knees wobbled in uneasiness and my hands are also shaking and slightly sweating in nervousness. "Lagot! Hindi na nag paalam, kung ano-ano pa ang ginawa—" Iri murmured but I quickly cut him off. "Shut up!" Napangiwi siya. Ira laughed beside him. "You look constipated, Xiania. Kabado bente ba?" I rolled my eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?" "Na ano? Na pupunta rin siya dito?" I nodded. Ira pointed at Iri beside her. "Ask him. Nag sumbong 'to panigurado." Iri's eyes goggled. "Lady Nia, concerned lang naman ako!" I glared at him. "Concerned? Baka awayin ako ni Vraxx!" "Are you scared?" Ira's eyes squinted. Natigilan ako at napaawang ang labi. I quickly tore off my eyes away from her. "N-no, I was just..." hindi ko na nasundan pa iyon dahil pum
We're both laying down on our bed. We're still both naked, halos iilang minuto pa lamang ang nakalipas matapos nang ginawa namin kanina. Vraxx buried and huddled his face on my neck. Ang mga braso at hita niya ay nakaalalay na naka dagan sa akin. Damn, clingy. I just let him do whatever he wants. I felt his hot and wet kisses on my neck, dahilan para lalong pumungay ang mga mata ko. These past few days, I admit that I couldn't understand myself. Minsay ay winawaksi ko na lamang ang mga bagong napapansin ko sa akin, ngunit ngayon ay hindi ko naman magawa iyon. I just let a man touch and pleasure me. This isn't the first time, but this is actually the second time that I initiated the action! What the hell am I thinking? I am not even slave of my libido, then why am I acting like this when it comes to Vraxx? I already started breaking one of my principles. Hindi na ako magtataka pa kung sa susunod na mga
"Really? What do you know about love?" I asked, ridiculed by his sudden confession. Vraxx's face fell, kita ko ang panlulumo ng mga mata niya at ang pag bagsak ng balikat niya dahil sa sagot ko. A flicked of pain attacked in my system. I couldn't understand everything. Hindi ko alam kung ayaw lang ba talagang tanggapin ng utak ko iyong sinasabi niya, o baka talagang ayaw ko lang sa kanya. I released a wry chuckle. "That's not love, Caldwell. It's just probably lust—" "What do you fucking know about my freaking feelings?" he snapped. Halos manlamig ako sa mariin at biglaang paglakas ng boses niya, tila'y kulog na siyang dahilan upang lalo akong mangilabot. The salty cold sea water hugged our bodies. His eyes are now flaming with an infuriated fire. Ang mga kamay niya ay mahigpit na nakahawak sa magkabilang braso ko. I winced in pain. He probably noticed my reaction, t