FallonMy eyes filled with tears.Four weeks.It took four weeks for Zane Andrews to own me.Then again, he'd had me with the first marshmallow, with the first arrogant smirk as he walked around the house completely naked, except for a weird scarf that wrapped around his neck.God help me, I might not even make it to week five without asking if I could carry his firstborn.At nineteen.Was it obsession? Or something more.Something deeper.He stood and held out his hand.I took it.I realized then, I would always take it, wouldn't I?He kicked sand onto the fire, grabbed the rest of the marshmallows, and kissed me on the forehead as we walked in silence down the boardwalk.My heart thumped against my chest in hammer-like fashion, only to pick up the minute Zane held open the door to The Seaside Resort.Where I worked.He didn't go to the front desk.Then again, you had to be an actual member to stay at the Resort, so I was more than a little confused as we made our wa
ZanePlease, God, don't let me be wrong about her, about what I felt, what I saw when I looked into her trusting eyes.I wanted her physically.I craved her emotionally.To be able to stay in a hotel room by myself - had been like defeating a giant. She had no way of knowing that, but what do you say to the person who, inch by inch, holds your hand while you tell them about the invisible monsters, the type that, to anyone else, make no sense at all, but to you, are crippling?I knew there was no going back.From this scene, her gorgeous naked little body. She was at least a foot shorter than me, curvy in all the places that made a guy want to stop and take notice, her ass round.Her color was bright as she visibly swallowed and then licked her lips. "Zane, you can trust me.""Okay." My voice shook, and like peeling off layers and layers of clothing as winter turns into summer, I felt myself internally shed every single wall I'd ever put up when it came to sex - to sharing tha
Fallon"What are you doing?" Zane sat up in bed while I held up my hand motioning that he needed to give me a minute. When I returned with a bag of marshmallows his grin was so huge it took over half of his face. "Best sex of my life and you bring me marshmallows in bed? Who are you?"I rolled my eyes, feeling myself blush. "I figured you'd need some sugar after all that yelling, mainly on your part." I tossed him one. "Cursing, which by the way, still you." I tossed him another while he rolled his eyes. "And collapsing across the bed... still you, by the way.""I had a lot of pent-up sexual aggression that was just released." His naked chest was impossible not to stare at. "You can't just release the beast from its cage and not expect it to tucker itself out."I covered my face with my hands. "You did not just say that.""Why are you blushing?" he asked innocently. "Why do you keep trying to take all of my jobs away from me, damn it! I'm supposed to be the innocent maiden, blus
ZaneI was flying.Every time she gave herself to me - which by the time five a.m. rolled around, had already been twice more, I was flying.Each experience was different.Each kiss evolved.Each touch transformed into something more meaningful. Something that meant a hell of a lot more than a twenty-four-hour booty call.She was breathing deep, her wild hair falling across her face, kissing her barely parted lips.I leaned down and kissed her forehead then walked over to my guitar and picked it up.I processed things differently than most people. Therapy had never worked for me because talking about the anxiety had always made it worse, almost like this weird paranoia that if I talked about it, it made it more real, so I kept it to myself.But talking to Fallon felt freeing.Like I could trust her with the deepest darkest parts of me, and she'd still hold my hand.It was hard to process or even explain the openness with which she treated me, like I wasn't a freak, like th
FallonThe sun burst through the window casting a warm light across my bare arms. I slowly stretched my sore body and rubbed my eyes.Memories of the night before assaulted me over and over again causing a slow burn to start from my toes and spread all the way to my face.The things he said.The things we did.The way he touched me.I suppressed a nervous giggle."Something funny?" An extremely - thank you, God - naked Zane was standing in the doorway, a cup of coffee in one hand, a marshmallow in the other, and an acoustic guitar hanging off the side of his body.I wasn't really sure if I should laugh or just cry at the image of perfection standing in front of me, every rippled muscle on display for me to see.That was the thing about Zane.His secrets were his and his alone.But his body? It was as if he knew the mental barriers he put up and didn't want to do the same with the physical ones, like it was all he had to share at times.And I respected that.Even though I
Zane"You ready for this?" Jay asked a few hours later. I'd spent the rest of the morning in bed, skipping my recording session much to Will's dismay, and hightailed my ass to set.A cameo.I could do a cameo.The crowds of extras were stifling, it was supposed to be a party scene, and I was playing myself on stage.Like usual.On stage.I could do it.I flinched when the makeup artist added more dark shadow to my eyes, something that Jay was completely adamant about, was that I play myself but like this darker self, my designer jeans were shredded within an inch of their life, and I was barefoot.The scene was supposed to be a Halloween party and apparently, I was a vampire.A half-naked vampire.That looked a hell of a lot like Jack Sparrow. I flinched when I saw my own reflection, freaky blue and white contacts stared back at me as fangs met my bottom lip. "I can't sving like vis!" I lifted my hands into the air in exasperation.Alec and Demetri were both in makeup cha
FallonI watched in wide-eyed amazement as girls ran their hands over his rock hard body, I had to remind myself over and over again that this was his job.But now that he'd had sex, would it translate to something else?His hips pressed into the air and then against a girl's hand.My jaw nearly came unhinged when one girl started licking his wrist and then took a bite.His eyes fluttered closed as he moved fluidly with the crowd, like they were his drug, his next hit, his voice, or the recording rose above the music as lights flashed across his perfectly sculpted face.The entire set buzzed with electricity.Zane, in his element, was completely and utterly unstoppable. The type of talent you see once in a lifetime and wonder how the heck he does it every day without having a nervous breakdown.And suddenly everything he said, clicked into place.The anxiety.The way he'd grown up.And the constant pressure from the very crowd that adored him, a crowd that in one instant c
ZaneI had a headache.That was the first thing I thought when I jumped off stage and made my way through the crowd.The second thing?I didn't want a marshmallow.Stupid that my thoughts came in that order, but my normally twitchy sweaty fingers didn't shove themselves into my jeans pocket in search of comfort.My eyes searched for her.But the crowd was stifling, nearly impossible to get through, and I knew I needed to kiss her, if I could just kiss her, the headache would go away, the nightmare would stop, and we'd celebrate recording the last two songs of the album.Together.After one kiss.Okay, maybe two.But the minute I touched her, spoke to her, bit her neck, I needed more, wanted more, the screams were making it worse, the heat.In an effort to get her away from everything.I'd pinned her to the wall.And just as I opened my mouth to confess - the headache, the possible meaning behind it - she pulled my jeans down.I should have pushed her away, confessed be