Lost and Found

I never meant for it to happen. I tried everything, I did all I cold but I lost our son and I will never forgive myself for what happened to him. Since we lost him, everything in my life changed --- change is sometimes good but in my case, it's bad. I didn't like the change brought by the death of my son. It took away almost everything from me, the reason to smile, to be happy but the most painful thing that I lost is that look on the love of my life's face.

The love of my life changed.

Yza Joan Demitri couldn't look at me. Alam ko kahit naman hindi siya nagsasalita ay nakakaramdam siya ng panibugho para sa akin. Sinisisi niya ako. Kasalanan ko, hindi ko naman dapat isinama si Hyron nang gabing iyon, kung hindi ko siya kinuha marahil ay kasama ko pa rin ang anak namin, marahil ay natitingnan pa rin ako ni Yza sa mga mata ko, ngingiti pa rin siya sa akin, yayakapin niya pa rin ako habang natutulog kami.

Dalawang buwan na halos na sa kwarto siya ni Hyan natutulog. Hindi niya ako sinasab