Chapter 31

It was so awkward for me to talk or to even stay close to him. I always get flustered because I'm not used to any of the moves that he's doing. I'm not even that familiar with it because relationships and such isn't a thing that I have experienced already but after a few weeks of dealing with it, he suddenly stopped being so annoying for me like I realized that I should already get used to it but I still hate it when he's unnecessarily touching me. 

My heart is beating abnormally when he's with me and I hate it! I feel so weak around him and if I can just stop this, then I will do it because this is wrong in every corner. If dad will know everything about this, he will also know that this is wrong and it's not fun. 

He's expecting us to be on good terms already. He may not be telling it but I know that he also wants us to happen so maybe I should tell every