Chapter 5.2

I've searched every establishment here, the housed and who are living inside it excluding this house. I'm the only one living here and I'm really out of my mind if I'll suspect this when I know from the first place that it's only me who's living here and no one can open this house except for me. If he can, then I'll be such a big fan of him. No one can defeat my mother when it comes to technologies so that is impossible.

Goodness! Can't that guy give another clue for this to be faster? We're just wasting our time for playing this freaking hide and sick. This isn't even funny. It's making our situation more messed up now. If he'll just himself show to me, then we might at least have explained everything to each other and start MY plan. I don't wanna hear about him because he doesn't seem to be planning anything at all... maybe he's just really waiting for me to help him and vice versa.

Well, do I even have a plan? Does making the Vasileìas step out of their place already a plan? I don't think so. Maybe we really don't need anything now and all we have to do is to start until we succeed and find every dead-end's door. But how the fuck would we start if we can't even see each other because he seems to be enjoying our situation now?

We can even possibly make another invention but we've already lost so much time. Oh, wait! What if he's the one who can help me understand every invention that my mother made? What if he's the only one who can connect every dots that my mother gave me and help me with that time machine that I found? I admit that I have no idea about it so I just hope that he can be a key about everything. If he's that smart, then I know that he can also get everything that my mother made and every formula that I still need to do.

I just hope that he can answer those or else I've just wasted my time on finding him. I'm not even sure if he'll help me or if he's planning to show himself to me. Why is he even doing this if he can just show himself to me without communicating with me using those technologies? Is he a fan of hide and sick or something? Damn, he's making my head hurt.

I pulled my long, black and wavy hair out of frustration. See how hard my life is? Just make sure that he's worth my time or else I'll be the one to cut his head off of his head. Yes, I can be that evil. I can do such things that seem to be devilish. Well, the world turned me this way- the world turned all of us this way. Killing... It's not even illegal here anymore. Nothing is illegal but the fact that you won't obey those fucking Vasileìas. They just want to make us their slaves and kill each other out of insanity. I can even kill someone without worrying that I'll be put in jail just like how the law works in the past. I can fight with anyone without being afraid that I might accidentally kill them because this world already lost humanity.

That's how the law works here. Everyone is free in every sin that they do, but it feels the other way around? Did you know that as a payment with that, we're suffering as their instrument in every experiment that they're doing and that's more torturing? I'd rather be a good citizen and obey the rules in the past than suffer this way because this is just making every one of us more miserable. Yes, I won't be imprisoned for doing such inhumane things because If I will, then they also need to be imprisoned for killing innocent people and that's why they made such rules. It wasn't in favor of us, it's their advantage to move illegally without breaking any rule in this era. After all, they are the lawmaker and that made everything much more unfair because we feel like an animal who needs to be a fool just for us to save ourselves.

We need to be their slaves to live, but I know that we'll all end up dying if they still won't find the best person to have experimented with, the ones with a strong mind and body. They'll use all of us, I know that and that's the death that all of us are meant. That's what destiny planned for us and I won't just agree to let myself be eaten by those that they're feeding our brain just to be their alliance. I don't fucking care if I'll die fighting than to die because of how addicted they are to experimenting. I won't let myself be their toy. Living in this world is already enough.

If my mother can't fight for herself that led her to her death, then I'm different from her, far more different from her because I can feel that she made me be this world's warrior. Is she expecting me to be a freaking hero? Well, I'm sorry to disappoint her but I'm selfish. I just want her to have her justice- our justice, but I never planned to be one of those "heroes" that just failed regardless of how hard they fought. This is not a matter of strength anymore but a mind battle, that's what they missed saving this world. Yes, there are some of them who tried fighting but they all failed because they are dumb enough to move without even thinking.

They've just let their anger took over them and move unconsciously. I won't even be thankful for them, I know no hero if they are just that stupid. I will never look up to them.

Some are saying that there's nothing wrong with trying, but there is. If you'll know that story, then you can tell that there's nothing right in trying if that mindset will eat their brain. They just made themselves this world's bait but ended up failing and sacrificing their life without knowing that there will be someone like me who won't appreciate them.

I hate failing the most that is why I'm moving quietly instead of following the path of those self-proclaimed heroes who haven't even proved anything after risking their lives. I'm not even proud of them.

Only fools are proud of their fellow fool. I'm not sorry for my harsh words. They don't deserve my praises, after all. I'll give an example of how stupid they are. Imagine a scene where all of your opponents have their own weapons but you just attacked with your bare hands without even thinking of a plan on how to fight them without anything but yourself. That's quite foolish, isn't it? Now tell me, should I be proud of them or should I just be disgusted?

I'm not that smart but I'm not as brainless as they are, I still have my brain with me unlike them. Now, let's go back to the real world because I'm already wasting my time thinking of such undeserving people. That ain't an insult, that's just the truth and no one can do anything about my mindset. I won't change myself to please them.