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15 The Beginning of the LONG End
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Selene's Chosen Queen 16 New Year's in Scotland 2003
December 2003 Ashton POV Over the last few months, I have been struggling a lot. I’m not sure what's worse, the, almost, 100 times between October and November that they were together or the number of moments that she was miserable. I counted 85 times that it came through the bond. I’m positive there were several entire days where I felt nothing but despair! I talk to Austin about it, and there is absolutely no sympathy or empathy there. All I get is various forms of ‘you’re a dumbarse and serves you right’. I am starting to really question my choices, I didn’t walk away for her to be miserable. I hope that it’s not because of the bond, well I wish it wasn’t at all, but my two biggest hopes are that it’s not because of me, and that it's not because of Fin. What worried me even more was the number of times she was genuinely terrified. How? Why? When I talk to Cal each week I ask him and he always says the same thing. “Sorry Ash, I have no idea.” Callum has been calli
Selene's Chosen Queen 17 Auld Lang Syne... and Fin?
December 2003 Alaina POV I haven’t really been feeling myself since getting back from Spain. It’s nothing specific, but I just feel off, that feeling that something isn’t right but you can’t pinpoint it. It’s been a major source of anxiety and sleep loss so my friends, mainly Siobhan and Wesley, have been doing everything they can to get me out of my head and back into socializing with people. Fin and my best friend, Lochlynn, have been MIA for a while. They disappear for hours at a time, presumably together otherwise its quite the coincidence, and a couple entire weekends. I don’t know if that might be part of my odd feeling, or if it’s something else, I DO, know that its no making it any better! New Year’s Siobhan decided that she was going to surprise me with going out to karaoke, which was a lot of fun… for a while at least. Sisi and I decided that we would do a song together, and that’s when things started to go downhill. We decided to take turns singing each bit as it come ont
Selene's Chosen Queen 18 Saboteur... and Gray
February 2004 Ashton POV *Rogues, north east border line.* Shiiiiit, not something I want to deal with today. 'Jan, buddy, I need you right now.' I have to push on the block harder than I ever have before, but I can feel the block coming down, but it's like it only goes down part ways. 'Yeah man, let's get going then.' 'At the risk of sounding sappy, I’ve kinda missed you!' 'Shut up and let's get the rogues dealt with, then you can go back to your feelings corner.' 'Whoa, Janus, I know things have been rough but come on!' And we shift, IN MY OFFICE, 'Not cool man, you just destroyed my desk! We need to have a talk about this!' But he stops talking to me all together. The rogues have been attacking more frequently the last little bit. We get a good heads up, thanks to how our security is set up but they are still attacking more routinely than normal. Once the rogues are dealt with, I go back to my office and start making calls
Selene's Chosen Queen 19 Fin's Colours
February 2004Alaina POVI keep getting these random, very fleeting, emotions, as of late its anger, self-loathing, and the feeling of not being in control. Near the beginning of the month, I had a couple seconds of intense inexplicable pain. Had I not known better I would have thought I was in the middle of a battle! When I tried to talk to Cal about it, he pretty much just shrugged and walked away. I’m pretty sure he mumbled something along the lines of ‘that’s what you get for facking with the Moon Goddess’. Cal has been getting increasingly more agitated with me, very little patience when it comes to anything to do with me!With that said I have to admit, I have been getting into more and more trouble. Some of it my idea, but in reality, most of it is Fins suggestions, so I guess I can sort of see a reason for him to be short with me. The well last fall was Fin, I just took the fall for it. I was able to play it off as a safety issue,
Selene's Chosen Queen 20 Not Her Father?
May 2004 Ashton POV She turns 19 this year. She is always on my mind. I dream of her at night, and sometimes I don’t think they are dreams! They are too vivid, almost lucid, and occasionally it's like she really looking at me. Wishful thinking, I know. Cal still calls weekly, but things have been shifting over the past few months, like he is getting more and more angry with her. When I try to talk to Cal about it, he shuts me down. Nothing that he has told me would make me think that he would have an issue over, and above, the mate thing. I know he’s PISSED about that but at the same time he has never talked about her the way he is now. It seems as though maybe her behaviour has become erratic and he doesn’t know how to deal with her, I’m not sure I would do any better… actually… thinking about it, I would probably have lost my ever loving shat on her by now so I guess I have to give him credit there. I do worry about why, as in what is she doing to cause Cal, quiet, polite, respectf
Selene's Chosen Queen 21 Close Call
Alaina POV I’m pretty sure I’m losing my mind! Every couple of days I see Ash. It's usually when I am extremely sad, and seeing him, for the brief moments, has started to bring me some comfort and solace. I have been thinking about my life, how did I end up here? When I left for Spain Fin was amazing, he was THE perfect guy, when I got back, I told him about Ash. I told him we rejected each other, and he seemed so happy. He said that he wanted to give me a little time before we mated and marked each other, and he wanted to give his mate a little extra time, to find him, before he rejected her too. I thought he was being sweet and respectful... but now we can go an entire day, or longer, and he won't call me back, won't come see me, avoids me like the plague. When he is around, or calls, all he wants to know is if I am ready for him to mark and mate me, UM NO! Especially not with how he has been behaving, he still won’t even let me talk about leaving him. Unless I have somewhere else t
Selene's Chosen Queen 22 Black Moon NSW Australia
August 2004 Ashton POV Well Aric has fixed our coding issue. We also figured out that it was none other thaaaaan.... GRAY! I swear I will never be able to get rid of her at this point! So, Aric fixed it, put in security measures, and he has been retained by me to troubleshoot as needed. Helmut still hasn’t asked for his favour, not sure if that bodes well for me or not! I called Scott and filled him into what we found. “Wild Rose, Savannah speaking, how may I help you?” “Hi Savannah, it’s Alpha Lupin” “Yes, Alpha, I will send you right through,” “Thank you, Savannah, I appreciate it!” “ASHTON!!! How goes?” “Not as good as you sound.” “Uh oh... please tell me it’s not Gray.” “Unfortunately...” “OK, what happened now?” I explained everything that we have, all the proof that would be needed for Scott to make an informed decision on what to do with her now.
Selene's Chosen Queen 23 Creepy Old Guy
Alaina POV “Why can't I go this year?” “Are you seriously asking me that Alaina? After last year? You STILL want to ask me that?! I will never be able to repair the damage that you caused with your little stunt!” “What damage? And what ‘stunt’? The whole me fighting for a little equality and wanting to show those misogynistic pricks that a woman is MORE than capable of taking on a man any day? Is THAT the stunt to which you are referring?” “Yes, Alaina, THAT is ONE of the stunts, and what damage? The council now has a personal vendetta against us. If they even THINK there is a reason to look at as they will, and they will turn over EVERY rock, leaf, and piece of dust to find anything they can charge us with! Did you think about that when you did all this? OR, how about when you attempted to fight Alpha Yu it could have caused a pack war?! How about the fact that now the council knows who you are, WHAT you are? You think that the
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