Hey guys! First off, I'm going to try and upload another chapter later tonight. I'm finally sitting at my computer for what seems like forever. I'm so sorry guys. I missed you and updating and writing. The plan is to try and get back into it full force. I just don't know if I'm going to be able to stick to my 12pm time. At least for this first week. But I am going to do my best to stick to an update every day. Thank you for all the well wishes. For the most part, I'm okay. I still sound like an old man and a cough that might as well be getting rid of a lung, but I feel more present and able to do normal things. The last two weeks were so awful and so I thank you for letting me rest. :) - Mish
My legs were swung over the arm of the chair in the living room. I had a book in my lap that I was supposed to be reading but it wasn’t working out as well as I had hoped. Ethan and Justin were out doing goddess knows what and really I didn’t need to be at the pack house today. I just didn’t want to be alone at the shop. Kev and Sam were mulling about but I didn’t want to interrupt them in their work. Not for something silly like entertaining me.Next to me, my phone buzzed and I pulled it out. I thought it might be the group chat because Justin had been continuously taking ridiculous photos of Ethan in the most awkward positions as they worked. My smile fell and I felt bile come up into my throat. Emmett’s name popped up under the text message.Shoving my immediate panic and fear down, I didn’t want to tip off Ethan or Justin that anything was wrong. The two of them had gotten far too good at reading me and it usually just pissed me off. Right now, I didn’t need them freaking out. Swi
Ethan was the first to shift and luckily, I couldn’t make out his completely naked body. At the very least you couldn’t tell what was the blush and what was from the cold water. I treaded water more towards the middle of the lake as I stared at the two of them. They seemed to be waiting for me to swim in but they would be sorely disappointed.Dipping down under the water, I held my breath for a long as I could manage. Floating just below the surface, I let the silence envelope me one again.‘Talk to them, Sky. Don’t run away.’I squeezed my eyes shut. ‘But…’‘You’re good at running. I know. I help you do it. In this case though, you need to confront them. I promise you, they are going to understand. Not only that but they will say what I have been saying every year. Every time you think you deserve to die. You don’t. We don’t. We just hadn’t found our home.’Pushing back up, I took a deep gulp of air. ‘Raine…’Hands grabbed me and I jumped, looking into the eyes of Justin. He was furio
I stood frozen. Confused on how to react. I could feel Raine and her smugness as she settled down but I slowly opened my eyes to look at them. Justin was giving me a small smile, holding my hand to his lips. Ethan I couldn’t see because he had his chin on my head but his tight hold around me said a lot.“But…I…I killed them. I murdered them. They were only ten…” I tried to justify my own feelings to them.“Your power, that darkness, is wild. If not under control it is capable of terrible things. You’re absolutely correct. If held by someone with the intention to hurt, it could do so much damage. But that’s not you, Sky. From what I’ve witnessed, you’ve managed to save my pack and save yourself.”Justin kissed my hand and then just held it in his. “You didn’t have control over that power. Not back then. Those witches, went in poking a bear and got something far worse. They should have known better. But all of you were children. It went wild and you didn’t have control. That isn’t your f
Justin and Ethan looked at me, confused for a moment. Ethan was the first to speak up.“Maybe…this can wait till after we get some clothes on? All of us…for that matter.”I saw Justin smirk. “I don’t…I kinda like this…”Ethan jammed his elbow into Justin’s side and I blushed.“No…this…it has to do with getting dressed.” I put my glass down. “It’s taken me a bit…but I finished a week or so ago. I just hadn’t had time to…show you guys.” My nervousness was showing as I spoke.They both cocked their heads to the side in the same motion and I had to keep down a smile. Turning, I walked into Emmett’s old side. It had taken a lot to even be able to step into this area. Once I had, the anger roared back and I stripped everything that was in the hallway. I needed something to do with the space. I couldn’t just leave it how it was. So, I pretty much gutted the entire side of the house. Starting from a completely blank slate helped me mold and almost reclaim this space as my home.“Woah, Sky…we
The next day we spend outside behind the shop. I thought about staying in, but everything felt too enclosed for me. Even after we moved some of the furniture out of the way. So I lead Ethan and Justin through the forest to the little pond or watering hole that I continued to come back to every time I was out running. We sat at the end and talked a little bit before I dove into a more meditative state.Ethan and Justin flanked me, helping me regulate and pull more darkness out of me. It wasn’t out of control or anything but they were still pulling, seeing how much we could get down. This wasn’t the first time Justin was doing it but it was the first time out of the watchful eyes of the witches. He was nervous but that fell away after we slipped into a bit of a rhythm.For the first time, I felt better about my control. I felt like I was getting somewhere. That it wasn’t always trying to take over. It wasn’t a constant battle to push it back, to keep it from roaring its ugly head. Justin
Ethan didn’t say anything. I got up, leaving everything on the table and as I went down the stairs, my feet moved faster. I’d pulled Thing out of the garage earlier and I was glad now. It was overcast today and I’d kept the doors shut in case it rained. Making my way out the door, I made sure it shut before I unlocked the car door.“Sky…” I could hear the fear in his voice.“I’m getting in the car now.”He was quiet as I put him on speaker as I started up Thing and pulled out of the shop. I doubted Ethan was sitting there and I was right as I heard Justin in the background. I’m sure there was a bunch of things he could do on his end but at the very least I could take the road heading to the pack. There was really only one way to get to the shop by car from the pack which made it easy, it just wasn’t a quick drive.The sound on the other end got louder and I assumed Ethan put me on speaker
The phone went dead as I watched Ethan pulled over and get out. His eyes roamed over his Mom’s car before coming over to me. I let my hand fall and the phone slip out, digging into the mud. Ethan was searching my face but you could see he already knew. Handing him the paper, Ethan looked at it before he stepped back from me.I watched as he struggled to control his shift. Part of me wanted to reach out but as I did, I pulled my hand back. This was my fault. His Mom was taken because of me. What right did I have to reach out to him as he lost control for a moment. Shutting my eyes against his pain for a moment, his wail turned howl hurt and Raine howled as well.“I…I’ll get her back. Ethan, I promise.” I opened my eyes and realized his brown ones were boring into me.“Like hell you are. I’m bringing in Heath. I’m taking down that pack once and for all.”This time I reached out and took hold of his arm.
*** 17 years ago *** I screamed out, the pain becoming too much. Here, on the floor of the dungeon, in the cage that was provided for me, I was going to have my fourth pup. It was the same every time. On this dirty disgusting floor, alone outside of the pack doctor, I’d give birth to my pup and they would be swiftly taken from me. “Come on, Katerina. You’ll be free after this one.” The doctor stood in the corner. He was told not to touch me, not to comfort me. Only my pups. They only wanted them, not me. It made his words surprising; he’d never spoken to me before now. Alpha Devon Cross, my mate, my love, my everything. In high school he was the one all the girls crushed on. He was the one that all the she-wolves dreamed to have as their mate. Someone like me though, an Omega, wasn’t good enough for an Alpha like him. I thought I’d be lucky if a kind, lower status wolf was my mate. I was so wrong. When I turned 18, Devon found me, and took me right there in the classroom. We were