Alexa's perspective Examinations had started and to say i was stressed out would be an understatement. All the days of skipping school and spacing out in classes where beginning to take their toll on me. I had decided to not leave immediately after i was done with my exam for the day, and so i found myself sitting in the library while trying my very best to go over some of the work Micheal had covered. I groaned almost exasperatedly. I had beenbat this for hours and i still wasn't getting it right, i was beginning to lose my mind now. I was even beginning to think i was losing my mind. The words on the pages were getting all jumbled up and my eyes were getting sore from having stared at the page for so long. I blew out a breath before shaking my head. I would find someone to explain it to me but of course, i had no one. Sasha and Raymond weren't taking the course and so they couldn't help me, and it truly would be embarrassing to me if i failed Micheal's course. My gaze snapped
Alexa's Point of view How long had it been? Two hours? Three? More? I had lost track during the course of the lesson, and though i was actually understanding Micheal's lectures, i couldn't help but feel really exhausted. I leaned into my seat tiredly and let out a breath as i tried to focus on what he was saying. The fact that i had been sitting in the same spot for more than three hours now didnt help at all, my body felt stiff and almost numb, even my brain was beginning to protest. I hadn't thought he had meant it so much when he had said i wouldnt be leaving till he was convinced i was ready to approach tomorrow's questions. A small groan left me before i could stop myself, and his gaze flickered up to mine. He probably took in the sorry sight i made cause his eyes softened and he also leaned back into his seat. "Tired?". He asked me. And i nodded immediately. He heaved a sigh before rubbing his temple wearily. "Fair enough, we've been on it for some time now". He sa
Alexa's POv "Why do you look this way?". Calan asked me as he draped his arm around me for a hug which i hadn't known i had needed till now. He placed a lingering kiss on my head before rubbing my back soothingly. "I'm just so tired". I told him. "That's understandable. Did The lectures go well?". He asked me. And i nodded. After my talk with micheal i had felt better, and we had even gone over the last pages. I was all done now and i had never been more confident about writing an exam. "That's good to know*. He said Against my head. "It was worth it". I nodded once more. We were in the parking lot standing leaning against the car almost lazily while the cool evening's breeze blew softly. "I missed you". He told me. And i looked up at him while my cheeks heated up slowly. "I...i missed you too". I told him. "So much". We had spent yesterday indoors in each other's company, he had helped me study and all, and then later on we had lost ourselves in each other's embrace.
Third person POV For some unknown reason, Alexa had woken up the next day feeling completely scared and unprepared for the exams. Perhaps it was due to the fact that she had been feeling too confident about the whole thing yesterday. What if she had been too confident? What if she ended up seeing question she just couldn't answer? She had even been unable to eat her break fast, she had lost her appetite and Calan had noticed. "What's the problem?". He asked her. "I dont know.....". She replied quietly. "I just dont feel prepared for the exams today". He arched a brow slightly. "You went over the whole course handout with Michael yesterday, correct?". He asked her. And she nodded. "And you understood what he taught you?". He asked. Shw nodded once more. "Then that's all that matters". He told her. "You've got this". She cleared her throat quietly. "What....what if i get confused?". She asked him. He shook his head. "Dont think about it now, dont worry about anything". He
Alexa's POV I had called Sasha before leaving school but she hadn't picked up, and so i had decided to head back home knowing i could always call her or go to her apartment later on. I probably looked downcast as i sat in the living room staring blankly at the tv screen cause Mildred walked up to me looking slightly worried. "Is there a problem, Mildred?". I asked her. And she shook her head. "I was going to ask you the exact same thing". She said to me. "You look rather sad". Lately it was unusual to see me was, i was always happy or at ease since i was mostly with Calan. I wasn't worried about anything except my friends and my exams. I blew out a breath. "I'm fine". I told her. "I just have a thing or two on my mind". She offered me a warm smile. "That's understandable dear". She said to me. "But do talk to someone if something worries you, it's never good to keep it in". I nodded. "Thank you so much". I said to her. She smiled once more before turning around and walking a
Yet another scream rippled through my throat as I felt the yet another unimaginable pain, I felt as though I would lose my mind if it didn’t stop, I felt as though my life would drain from me slowly but surely. “Just a little bit more, Alexa. Push”. The voices were suddenly unclear and distant; like voices talking in an empty glass room, the bass and echoes, it all sounded so far. Was I fading out? Was I drifting off? Would this be how I die? “I think she’s slipping. Do something!”. “Alexa? Alexa can you hear me? Think about your baby, she’s almost out”. My baby….. “Push Alexa”. My baby, my dear, dear child. The thought of her suddenly had a bolt of energy surging through my veins, and with my borrowed strength I pushed once more, pushed till I felt a sudden emptiness, till I heard the soft cries of a baby, the cries I’ve so desperately wanted to hear for a long, long time. “She’s out! She’s out!”. And that was it, I drifted off. ~~ Beep….beep….beep…. I woke up
Sandalwood…. It smelt of sandalwood in his arms, and as soothing as it was, the nausea I felt was way too much to be subdued, I clamped my palm against my mouth as I let myself crumble completely. He said nothing as he gently guided me to the floor; the cold and hard floor. “Calm yourself”. He said to me. His voice, it still sounded as deep and distant as ever, as bewitching but cold as it always did, now I felt not just my stomach but my heart clench as well, and now I couldn’t keep my tears from falling as he guided my head to lean against his chest. My shoulders shook as the sobs choked me over and over again. “She can’t be gone”. I cried quietly. “She’s gone, I’m sorry”. He said. I shook my head. It was easy for him to just accept that she was gone; it was easy for him to just say it as though it were nothing. I pried my face from his chest so I could look up at him, so I could look up to see those chilling grey eyes staring down at me. “How easy it is for you to say
Lightheaded…. I felt extremely lightheaded, so lightheaded that I had to lean my head against the headboard to keep myself from fading out, all the while my breaths faltered and my heart pounded heavily against my chest. I could help but think; why was I even alive? first I was forced to marry a cold and extremely heartless billionaire whom I was somewhat attracted to, and then I find myself sinfully attracted to his best friend who was a married man, and then I lose my child, the only thing that had kept me going for the past nine months, it was all too much. Calan Grant, my supposed husband stood by the bedside staring down at me with a look I couldn’t quite fathom. And seeing him had those painful memories rushing through my mind once more. *9 months ago….. * It was a cold night, and I could hear the howling sounds of the winds as they blew intensely, something about them seemed…carefree, unhinged; unstopped and unhindered. And I found myself wishing I could just disint