"I am fine here," I said to Matt while glancing at the corner of the street that is not far from the company where the boys worked at. I don't have an idea if they are there already but I am just hoping that they are. I don't want to be left alone in their studio."Okay. Take care, babe. I love you."I stopped unbuckling the seatbelt when he touched my hand to stop me from doing something. I raised my brows at him, waiting for him to say something as well.I froze in my seat when he lean closer to me. I stared at his beautiful eyes that is admiring me closely. "You are beautiful," he whispered looking at my lips. I know what he is about to do and I just let my body and mind do what it wants. I slowly closed my eyes because I can't stand staring at him, this close. I can feel his breath, giving shivers to my neck. I felt his lips touch mine and his hands on my waist, pulling me closer to him.I kissed him back but... I can't feel my own sincerity through the kiss. I was the one who
"You are just saying that to calm me, Tara. I am good now. You don't need to comfort me anymore. I will just admire you from afar even though it fucking hurts seeing you with another man. It really hurts."I shook my head while looking at him. "You are a fucking coward, Peter." Those words were meant to hurt him because he is not that brave enough to face the confession he just told me. That's all? After telling it to me he will just leave it like that?His mouth formed an O shape. He can't believe the words that I have just said to him. I can hurt you even more if you won't wake up from that cowardness of yours."A fucking coward," I repeatedly said looking deep into his drowning eyes. He blinked twice, asking himself silently if I really did tell him that words but I just stared at him, hoping he would get what I wanted to say.He looked away after meeting my stare. "I tried, Tara. I tried so hard to fight my feelings but I realized I can't break your relationship with him. I can'
"Fuck! Faster, Peter!" I demanded when I was about to release. He is fucking me from behind and I can't keep up with his fucking too slow thrusts. He is trying to make love with me but we both know that's not what I wanted right now. I love that he wants to make love to me but I want him to fuck me and fill my needs. I want him to fuck me harder than before.One more hard thrust before he finally releases all of his juices inside me. I didn't move a bit to let him finish off loading all of the juice inside me. "Fuck," I whispered after the hot liquid went inside me it started to make its way down to my thighs when I tried to make a move. I can feel my legs shaking as I tried to calm my breathing. He let out a growl before he collapsed on the bed and my body followed him. It instantly fell onto the bed. Too drained from the session that we just had. Fuck. I really love how he put his hard thing inside me. I love the feeling of fullness of it."I love you, my lady," he whispered. He ki
“What’s with the sigh? Do you want to tell me something? What is it? I am just to listen, all the time.”I looked at Matt’s shaded green eyes. He is cooking our dinner and I can’t tell what I want to tell to him right now because I can’t get that genuine smile off of him. I still want him to smile more, even if my conscience is eating me up.I just tried to act normal and smile at him. I have to do this yet I am always not ready when I get to see that beautiful smile on his face. I just can't take it off because he deserves to be happy.“Nothing. Just tired because of work. How about you? How was your day? Did something good happen today?”He stopped steering the food to look at me. His smiles grow even bigger. Half of his body is facing the stove while his upper body is looking at me. “Well, I feel like the burden just lifted because of your question. Feels like your query is the only one that would lift the heaviness I have been feeling.”I just smiled at his cheesiness. I shouldn't
“What?” I asked him with eyes wide open. He got to be kidding me. What did he just say? He was asking me for what? Marriage?“Let’s get married,” he repeated and this time he held my hand. “I promise to love you more than what you deserve. I promise to love you more than you love me. I promise to always love you even with the dust of snow falling.”The hell? What was he saying? My forehead creased. “What?” Is he even sincere? I can feel the sincerity though but I don’t know how to say it in words when I heard what his last sentence was.What's with the dust of snow falling? He laughed and kissed my forehead. “I love you. Do you want me to give you a ride now? What kind of ride? Either way, I am good with both rides. And when are you planning to leave him? I can't peacefully sleep at night knowing you spend the night at his place.” I gave him a dagger look. “Sorry, but I can't wait anymore.”“Shut up and wait for it. I don't want to hurt him,” I said with a hoarse voice. I am not in t
He faked a smile when he looked at me. I don’t know what to do. I can’t find my sister in the living room. Maybe she is in her room. I don’t want to ask Matt about where my sister is because I know I won’t get an answer from him. He dragged me up to his room. I just let him do what he wants to do. I willingly followed him as well. He was silent the whole walk. He didn't utter a word which made an awkward moment for me but aside from those thinking, the tears that I have been trying to ignore bring back to life.I glanced up to the ceiling to stop my tears from falling down. I can’t utter a word, the side of my lips are shaking. The words that I have been trying to say are stuck inside my throat. I can't produce the words. “S-sorry. I know sorry is not enough. I won’t ask for you to forgive me right now---”“What made you do it? Am I not enough for you? Was I wrong? Did I bore you in this relationship? Did I make you feel like you aren't enough? Is there something I am not good at? T-
"You looked good as always," I heard Lena compliment me but I just let it pass through my ear like I didn't hear any comments at all. I am too tired of anything right now. I just want to have my rest... forever.I feel like my heart has been crushed by a ten-wheeler truck. I am so broken because of myself. I am broken because of my own wrongdoings. I am so broken because... I just lost the people I have been cherishing. I just lost them all in a snap.I sighed all the heaviness I felt. I feel like my back has been carrying bags of emptiness and pain. There's nothing that could take me back at me again. I feel like I am about to explode and I will burst out into tears any minute right now if someone will ask how I feel. If someone will ask how I am.I silently wiped the tear that escaped my eyes and travel down my cheeks. I turned my back on them so they won't see me wiping my own mistake. Wiping the result of the problem I created.Lena stopped sipping her hot coffee when she noticed m
The company looks much livelier today because of the posters and the little decoration they have made for the band’s achievements. The colorful balloons on the side, making an aisle at the entrance of the building, and the boys’ merchandise on the display just near the entrance. I stared at the balloons. I was just wondering why balloons make some people happy. Maybe I am feeling too bitter right now because of the situation I am in but I think balloon will just give you heartbreak. You will be happy when you can get a hold of it but when it slipped out of your hand you will feel sad and worst is when it will pop. I smile at that thought. Heartbreak really gives people a different point of view of the things they once got laid eyes on.I didn't have time to notice this kind of setup earlier because I was too busy hiding in those shades while walking straight and just this time, I got to admire the beauty of it that I have ignored earlier. I didn't know they have made this into a para